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Looking back on 2009..

2010-01-01T17:54:00.001+08:00

Jan 2009
Single. Still in MDIS. J's 20th birthday chalet. Always watching movie! Did voluntary work with J at Kovan. CNY. Always dining in Asian Kitchen hahahaa I really like the cereal fried rice! Got a pair of GV movie voucher from an anonymous via mail. Still freak me out whenever I think about it :/

Feb 2009
Topshop private event. HotelRe! with J on Vday & got back together! Second Vday with J <3 First Vday with Jems, Shim & Ban! Had the urge to spend every cent on film cameras because J bought me the underwater film camera on Vday! Hahaha I'm nuts

March 2009
J surprised me with strawberries when she came to pick me up from school one day. She rarely surprises me so this is one of the big things she has done! Crazy over Slice <3 Had classes with Bff! Surprised J one morning with heart-shaped pancakes over at her place :>22nd anniversary with J! <3 Thrift-shopping with J & Bff!

April 2009
23rd anniverary with J! <3 Bought J a Fred Perry polo tee & was damn proud about it! :> Referral fee from school! Got As for two classes (!!!) :) Thai Express with the girls after class!! Met up with Sass & Nette for chicken rice & Guitar Hero :D Virgin try at Aston's & loved it! Bought two pairs of shoes in a month. Mom's birthday!

May 2009
24th anniversary <3 <3 <3 J bought her first jazz album! Double date with bff & M at Aerin's! Mother's day :> Arcade with J! Ayam Penyet with the girls and shopping time! J used one of this website to make this two photos of us- made me so happy for days!

June 2009
J got us a couple watch :> Permed my hair heheh! KL with the maternal extended family, super fun & spent a lot! Jemsy's birthday :) GP presentation. Went crazy over the Little Miss & Mr Men capsules selling at 7-Eleven with Bff! Spent our 25th anniversary with Bff at Pizza Hut instead hahaha :)

July 2009
Quek came back from LA- met up with her to catch up & Frolick! J's virgin ride on the Singapore Flyer :> Done with diploma! Started work at Best of Blogshops. H1N1 period. Steamboat with Chrissy, Shersy & Bff after our last class! Dim sum treat at Zhou's Kitchen with the folks!! :> Won tickets from Nuffnang to watch Kobe Bryant!!!!!

August 2009
Met many awesome people + blogshop owners at work <3 The opening of BOB outlet #2! A reader recognised me at work & I was really really embarrassed! The birth of BA :) Island Cremery with C, S & Bff! My 19th birthday- picnic with Chrissy, Shersy, Alicia, Bff & J. They all shared money to get me a Elmo cake & Nokia E63 <3 <3 <3 Brought Bff, Jacelyn & J to Zhou's Kitchen for dim sum- my treat! Dad's bithday!

September 2009
F1!! :> Best of Blogshops Fashion Extravaganza- fashion show + bazaar! Zirca with the girls after that <3 Helped out the night before & Bff came to stay over at my place! Met Deb <3 Trained a few girls at work- Kelly, Kimberly, Chantelle! Helped J with her web-designing project hehehe.

October 2009
Bought iTouch with my hard-earned money! Helped Joanna (owner of ladiesconcept) & Carmen (owner of dadigirl) with their photoshoot, got to know the model, Jiaqi! Trained Rachael & Josephine (♥) at work & I love them to deathzzz :> Guitar Hero with Bff & J! Union craze hehehe! Bff crowned as the Hong Hu ambassador <3 hahahaha. Hanice's birthday surprise! Marmalade Pantry with the lovergirls. Sissy's 13th birthdat at White Dog Cafe. Met Nette & Sass! The public transport made me so mad, I swore I would get my license asap! BOB was featured on magazines & TV!

November 2009
Exam period, also one of the most depressing period. Study sessions with Bff & Chrissy <3 Finally done with school!!!!!!!! :> Work keeps me happy! Sassy's 19th! Mom got me Canon IXUS IS 100 in red!! <3 Met Bett! Other than that, Nov is a really really bad month.

December 2009
Quit my job for good- decided that you both are not worth it anymore. We're not appreciated so what's the point? I strongly believe in karma, so you watch it. Nette's 19th! Aunty Edna went back home :( Bangkok trip with the family & Bff! Spent $6xx :/ Dad's giving me money to xxx!!!!!! :D Found a new job! :> Christmas <3 <3 <3 3rd Christmas with J hehehe :D Potluck countdown party at Angie's with the bbgirls! Year end chalet + bbq with the bbgirls! <3 BOUGHT MY BLACKBERRY HEHEHEHE

Thank you 2009, it's been quite a year.
Hello 2010, please be a good year, a productive & full of achievement one :>

I'm glad to have meet all of you babygirls <3 Thank you for everything! Thank you baby, for sticking by me :> our third year is approaching!! Thank you bff for being there all the time when I needed someone <3 Love all of you!!!! :>

On a lighter note, bye scriptedrama. I'm moving elsewhere, and this will go into the memory box. I'm still contempleting if I should leave my new url here 'cos I have people poking their nose into my affairs and can't stop talking shit about me. If you want the new site, drop me a comment with your email :>

Last

2009-12-31T11:38:00.001+08:00

The long awaited 2D1N chalet with the babygirls + boyfriends/girlfriend is finally over.

I'm back home. Sleepless for 24 hours. Gonna crash before doing anything. Can't take this exhaustion any longer!! But it's definitely worth it. I had Mac's breakfast at 4am!!!!!! :) heh

Kthxbai later~~

If my heart was a house, you'd be home

2009-12-26T22:09:00.000+08:00

I promise. Next year once I start blogging, I'll ~~not~~never stop.

Blogging is an outlet for me and not blogging = keeping everything to myself. I cannot do it. I don't wanna do it. It's either that or trying to sum up my bad day in 140 characters on Twitter. It's not fun at all.

That aside, bee went Batam for a short getaway with her family. Before I left for BKK, we were arguing like mad almost everyday like it didn't matter whether I was leaving. It was the same when she was leaving. But just before we both left, everything was ok. Asking each other to be well, take care, eat well and stuff. She said (maybe not for you guys) the sweetest thing to me before she left: "Love you my baby, I will miss you. Catch you when I'm back!" It made me smile. Oh God, I'm tearing.

My phone's been silent after she left. No texts. No phone calls. No rushing to wherever my phone is when Ryan sings Love You Forever. No giggling while on the phone, no getting mad after hanging up. All until tomorrow.

I thought I'll be fine without her 'cos I always wanted some quite time alone. Now that I'm given, I don't want it. I'd rather have someone to talk to, someone to bug, someone to show what I found on the net and stuff.

This sucks.
Bee, promise me you won't go overseas anymore? Only with me? :(

Christmas

2009-12-25T00:03:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas <3

2009-12-22T14:31:00.001+08:00

Mad love this commercial!
Avril Lavigne for Canon Singapore <3

2009-11-17T22:04:00.001+08:00

By the time you read this, I hope to be dead.

You can't undo something that's happened; you can't take back a word that's already been said out loud. You'll think about me and wish that you had been able to talk me out of this. You'll try to figure out what would have been the one right thing to say, to do.

I guess I should tell you, "Don't blame yourself; this isn't your fault." But that would be a lie. We both know that I didn't get here by myself. You'll cry, at my funeral. You'll say it didn't have to be this way. You will act like everyone expects you to. But will you miss me? More importantly, will I miss you?

Does either one of us really want to hear the answer to that question?

You know, it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this.

2009-11-15T03:07:00.001+08:00

3am, you're fast asleep in your cozy bed. Here I am, thinking of all the things you said and done & crying myself silly until I feel better, until I fall asleep. The whole episode since a month ago 'til now, it left me empty, disappointed & upset. This fight is not over. I wish it'd be over soon or right now because I'm exhausted. I'm tired of feeling tired.

What happened?
What happened to us?
What is it that changed?
What was it that I did that ruined the happiness?

I wished I was loved by someone the way I love you. I wanna know how it feels like, how fortunate or painful it is to be with me. Is it so fortunate that you forgot I'm human? Is it so painful that it snaps easily, the sound of my name made you think if it is worth to stay?

I've fought, I've tried, I've cried, I've done almost everything I could ever think of to show you I am worth it. I am much worthy than those trashy girls you told me about, than that girl sitting in fifth row in class that you told me is pretty.

Been wanting to cry so bad & when the song Need You Now by Lady Antebellum played, tears started running like a tap.

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk, and I need you now.
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now.

I dare not think about the years. I just want to be happy in 5 days.

:(

2009-11-06T11:06:00.000+08:00

Maid, Aunty Edna is leaving. She's in the living room reading the papers with her usual morning coffee. I'm in the room, tearing away at the thought of her not being with us anymore from today onwards.

It didn't felt that real until just now when I realized as the time is ticking away, the lesser time we have with her. I was upset when her tickets were confirmed but I kept telling myself that it is not time yet, I shouldn't be too bothered about it. Now that the time has come, I'm lost. I don't know what to do. I just wish we had more time with her, and that she will not leave us forever. How selfish am I to think of that? Sigh..

I'm old enough to think, unlike Zel. Aunty's family needs her more than anything else. And if at that time she was given a choice, she wouldn't leave her family to work overseas at all. I kept telling myself to think positively, maybe the new maid isn't that bad either? (though we can't stop talking about how bad she is since she came :x)

People come and go in our lives, and some leave on a bad note, while some stays in your heart no matter how far the distance may be between the two of us. And I know no matter where I may be, or where I'll go, a piece of Aunty will be with me <3

If you ever find this someday Aunty, I love you. I don't know why I still can't say that to you in your face but please know that I do. I always have, and I always will. I hope your children will start to treasure you like the way we do, appreciate what you have been doing for them the past years. Thank you Aunty, for being in my life and a part of our little family :)

P/s: you'll always have us ♥

You swallow your sleep & wake up in the morning to find out you are not who you used to be

2009-11-02T23:51:00.011+08:00

Intensive studying starts today.

Went Vivo City with bff & Chrissy to study. Had Long John Silver for lunch, om nom nom! Damn happy to be eating ljs 'cos I haven't had it in a long while. Couldn't find proper seat at Starbucks 'cos their tables are round, and it's very difficult for the tree of us to study together on a round table so I suggested Gloria Jeans. I remembered Jemi & I went there to study once without getting anything & they didn't chase us away! Went there, bought ice latte & it sucks :x I NEED ICE BLENDED CARAMEL :(

Union heels spotted in JUICE magazine! :D

Left the place at around 7ish. Headed to Superdog for dinner!! Hahaha my virgin try ^^ it's damn good. I love the chilli fries. I had cheeseburger, bff had chicken burger & Chrissy had the hotdog! Definitely going back for more :) Thanks Chrissy for the recommendation!

My cheeseburger!

Chrissy hahahaha

They two = <3

Mom & dad are planning a trip to Bangkok & bff's gonna tag along! I hope the talk with her mom will go well.. I AM DAMN EXCITED & SCARED & NERVOUS :( If she can't come, I'll be damn sad. Cannot wait for her to get back to me!

Off to study, toodles! :>

2009-10-23T01:07:00.001+08:00

Happy birthday, Hanice!
Happy birthday, Louis!

Today is definitely a day to remember :) assignment in the noon, surprised Hanice in the evening. Glad everything went according to plan! Will do a proper post real soon before I start mugging for exams :)

xoxo,
Glynis

When you are in love, you can't fall asleep because reality is better than your dreams

2009-10-19T03:53:00.000+08:00

It's that feeling you get right in your core, when you look around, look at all the people you're surrounded by, and realize that these people are home. And one of the people who gave me the feeling of home, is you baby :)

I'm thankful we talked things out. I'm so glad we did. Despite disturbing Angie & bff in the cinema by texting you that night, I'm happy. 1am in the midst of the movie, I poured my heart out to you, telling you how I let us go so as to see if you'd chase us back. How I no longer cry for you, how the pain is slowly going away. And you did. You made an extra effort, go an extra mile for us.

A lot has changed, I'd say. We talked about our future, our many days together. You made me laugh more than usual. You do stupid things to upset me but to coax me, you do stupider things. You save up for driving lessons in order to drive us to wherever we wanna go, so we don't have to take the long torturous killing-us-slowly public transport. You make an effort to come down to my place and pick me before we head out (which I absolutely love, heh :)). You pay for my transport! Heh, you used to and did it again. You don't complain or grumble when I'm late for our dates. Your random "I love you bee" while we are shopping or walking dow the street makes me happy. You plan our year-end getaway and this year, it's bigger & better (not forgetting, the huge hole in our pockets :/). Every night the last thing I hear from you is "Goodnight baby, I love you" and this has never changed for the past two years, four months.

Thank you for making an effort to love me better, bb <3

Part of you pours out of me in these lines from time to time

2009-10-14T02:03:00.000+08:00

"And there's no worse feeling than when you wake up and feel okay for a minute and then that sick feeling washes over you and you remember it's not okay."

This is what I've been feeling lately. And it sucks. You don't ever wish to be me.

And I want you to know you're as important as they are but it seems like to you, it is not enough. So I'm gonna prove it to you that you are important to me. Because you really are. You play the biggest part in my life and you don't know that. It's tough being me you know. How much I wish you can click with them and we can hang out like friends do but you can't do that for me. But I don't wanna force you. If you're happy, be that way. When you're happy, I will be too.

Work is great. Angie & Hanice is what that keep me going. I don't wanna give up this job but I know my parents want me to. I've never found so much satisfaction in my job before, this is the first time & I never thought of leaving until Angela talked about a waste of talent blah blah. Jon also told me if I were to stay there for good, it's a waste. Like, why the fuck did I take diploma in mass comm for? I know, I know.. I'm too attached to this job and the people there.

Yknow I've wanted a group of friends that I could hang out with. Mutual friends with my girlfriend & close friends. And this job gave me a group of friends that I've never thought I'd be able to be so crazy with, have so much fun with. When I'm at work, they drop by to say hi laugh laugh laugh and bye off they go. When I'm not working, we arrange to have dinner together. Sit at Mos Burger like we own the whole place, refuse to leave until they close. With them, I saw my true self. I can be effing crazy, laugh loudly like no tomorrow, cry because my heart can take no more, say the most disgusting shit ever, wear the ugliest clothes that show my flaws & feel comfy with them looking at me, do the ugliest techno shit dance in a crowded club, eat like I've never had bak kut teh all my life and they still love me the same, just as I love them. Isn't that amazing?

Thank God for putting them in my life :) x

Why am I the one who's still crying?

2009-10-11T02:58:00.000+08:00

"When you truly trust someone you care about, you don't have to wonder if they love you as much as you love them."

Funny thing is, I wonder about this everyday.

I know you don't love me as much as I love you. I can't blame you. Maybe I'm not the same girl that you fell in love with

/

Kelly Clarkson - Already Gone

This current earworm has been on repeat for 27 times and counting. The lyrics fits me very very well & it speaks of my emotions.

Please, I wanna be right where you are tomorrow. I need to be next to you, hand in yours wherever we go. I need the comfort. I don't wanna breakdown right now. I need to start Monday right so the week will be better than this..

I’ve loved you then, like I love you now, like I probably always will

2009-10-06T00:32:00.000+08:00

What defines a best friend? What are the requirements to be a good best friend? How many hours a week does it entail? Stupid questions that have no answers. A best friend is not defined by how many times they talk on the phone, or how many hours they hang out together. It is not defined by how many sleepovers they gossip at, or how many inside jokes they have. There are no requirements or laws that state that a good best friend must hang out with them every weekend, or tell each other every little detail. A best friend is a matter of opinion. It is the person who has been there for you through everything, not just through the fun things, or the little things. It is the person that you call when you are at your absolute worst, it is the person who saves you when you didn't even notice that you needed saving, mostly it is the person who accepts you for who you are, and the person that you are becoming.

School was nothing but tiring despite it being a 3-hour class.

After class we did the best thing ever. Guitar hero <3 No pictures but everyone should definitely try it. Don't know how to play? Just whack. Hit the buttons and press press press! It sure does releases some stress yknow. I had so much fun today. Thank you guys :)

And we're getting on better. I didn't wanna tell you what I told you but I still told you instead before you start regretting & pulling my legs as I leave you. See? You mean so much to me. You know what I meant when I say we cannot be friends. Either lovers or friends. Choose one. I cannot see you with someone else other than me. I'm sorry, this is really selfish. I know how much you want me as your friend but I can't do it. It'll take a long time for me to get over this relationship & when it is over, I will not be able to look at you the same way for I've given so much in this relationship & I cannot call you 'my friend'.

I am so happy. I wanna be like this everyday.

But one thing, 30 minutes into Tuesday & I'm still here. I wanna be sleepy now so I can wake up on time tomorrow!!! :@

7 Habits of Highly Ineffective People

2009-09-26T13:47:00.001+08:00

1. Not showing up.
One of the biggest and simplest thing you can do to ensure more success in your life – whether it be in your social life, your career or with your health – is simply to show up more. If you want to improve your health then one of the most important and effective things you can do is just to show up at the gym every time you should be there.

2. Procrastinating half the day. To keep it short, my 3 favourite ways to get out of a procrastinating state are:

A good start in the morning lifts your spirits and creates a positive momentum for the rest of the day. That often creates a pretty productive day.

Split a task into small actionable steps. Then just focus on the first step and nothing else. Just do that one until it’s done. Then move on to the next step.

I find this guided mediation to be very useful. After 20 minutes of mostly just lying on my bed and listening I’m far more productive for a few days.

3. When actually doing something, doing something that isn't the most important thing right now.
When you have prioritized using this rule just write down the top 3 most important things you need to do that day. Then, from the top, start doing them. Even if you just get one of the things done, you have still done the most important thing you could do today.

4. Thinking too much.
Compulsively thinking and thinking and thinking is just another way to waste your time. You don’t have to examine everything from every angle before you try it. And you can’t wait for the perfect time to do something. That time never comes. And if you keep thinking you’ll just dig yourself down deeper and deeper and taking action will become more and more difficult. Instead you just need to stop thinking. Shut of your mind – it just helps you up to a point – and go do whatever you need to do.

5. Seeing the negative and downsides in just about anything.

When you see everything from a negative perspective you quickly punch a hole in your own motivation. You find faults everywhere and problems where there are really none. You cling to details. If you want to find a reason to not do something then that’s no problem. From a negative viewpoint you can find ten reasons every time.

6. Clinging to your own thoughts and being closed to outside influences.

It can be hard to admit that what you thought or believed was not the best alternative. So you cling to your thoughts harder and harder and keep your mind closed. This makes it hard to improve and for instance to become more effective. Even really considering the possibility that you can change your life can be difficult in this position.

7. Constantly on information overload.
With information overload I don’t just mean that you read a lot. I pretty much mean an overload in all input. If you just let all information flow into your mind it will be hard to think clearly. It’s just too much stimulation.

(x)

I'm guilty of #2, #4 & #5 for sure! :b Procrastinate is something I do everyday. Having too much on my mind caused me to be sleepless all the time. Negative thoughts always get the best of me.

Cozycot event at Expo, flea at Home Club & dinner with bffz & bblove!!!!!!! <3

#501 out of 1001 things I want in a lover: Someone who will do anything to see me, even if it's just for a minute

2009-09-26T02:55:00.000+08:00

Current earworm: Lights - The Listening (Acoustic)

"Sometimes we need to stop analyzing the past, stop planning the future, stop trying to figure out precisely how we feel, and stop deciding with our mind what we want our heart to feel. more often than not, sometimes we just have to go with 'whatever happens, happens'."

Wish I could..

Been crying for the past hour. Guess I don't deserve to be happy. My happiness is always so short-lived. Wished you lived a little longer in me, happiness, my dear.

Every day I think about you half as much as I did the day before. But I'll never stop thinking about you. Your name still roll off my tongue all the time, you're a topic that I'll always bring up in conversations. Do you know that?

I wanna feel better soon. I guess I kept so much inside of me, I cannot take it anymore. I don't wanna be this sad, I wanna be okay. Just okay. Never mind if I'm not happy, because this unhappy life I've been living, I'm getting so used to it. I guess I'll be strong enough to take it all.

God, please..

I'm only there so that you're not alone

2009-09-24T23:39:00.000+08:00

On Saturday, Khloe lent me her digital Harinezumi. I just went on snapping, happily. Unknowingly it came up to 58 photos within a really short period of time. And also because my compact cam died on me, I used the Harinezumi to snap most of the time. Ever since then, I am so fucking tempted to just tell Khloe I'll take Harinezumi, the jelly lens that sissy wanted & the red/white holga. So. Fucking. Tempted!!!!! I can never get enough of lomo cams or cameras.

This is how the Harinezumi look like!

Small & compact, light weight! Need not develop the films at all. All you need a SD card reader to upload the photos you've taken. What is amazing about Harinezumi is that, you can take photos & videos! I'm so amazed. This costs like $230. :s I've to work for two weeks to get that much amount of money :( Should I get it, should I get it!!!!!!?

Shall show you guys a few photos that I snapped :)

Khloe & I

Bff & I

Me, tending the stall at the bazaar!

Lift :D

Backstage - my favourite shot!

Pretty heels for the pretty models :>

The clothes

Bff at the bazaar!

Pretty, aren't they!?!!! Got a few more but check them out in my Facebook :) But this cam costs two weeks' pay!!!!!! Bff thinks that it is a tad too pricey for a small cam like this. Khloe suggested if I think it is too price for my liking, I can get VistaQuest.

VistaQuest VQ 1005 in red!

This costs $97, retailing at PageOne bookstore. The difference between VQ & Harinezumi is VQ does not have LCD screen but Harinezmi have. I can earn $97 back if I work for three days...

HOW NOW BROWN COW I CANNOT DECIDE :(:(:(

I'll continue considering, while you readers help me make up my mind by commenting, ok luv!

When left alone with my thoughts they always turn to you

2009-09-24T03:32:00.000+08:00

Today I:
x met a crazy aunty who kept asking everyone for money on the bus
x was late to meet bb & her sissy to help them with their work
x camwhored with them using her sissy's laptop's webcam
x am very happy because after the talk I had with bee few weeks back, she kissed me twice & hugged me a million times on her own accord today. (love you babee)
x bought durian puffs for mom & dad
x had the longest conversation with bffz over msn
x had the longest conversation with @yanhui_isdope & @hanicetsai over twitter
x am very very very very happy because of you

Happy things happened. Now my eye can stop twitching like a bitch.

Project meeting tomorrow for SBS assignment with Shermaine, Chrissy, Samuel, Swathi & bffz. Can we all have PastaMania before that? The craving has gotta stop!! :( Been craving since the event on Saturday...

Ok 3.31am, my body clock is officially ruined.

P/s: you don't know how happy you made me <3
P/p/s: bee, I really love t see you in the white tank top but hate you for not wanting t wear it out with me! :@

You're the only thing I see & I have loved you beautifully

2009-09-18T01:27:00.000+08:00

Just say what you mean and mean what you say. Don't expect someone to read your mind, and don't play games with heads or hearts. Don't tell half truths and expect trust when the full truth comes out. Half truths are no better than lies. Don't be cold to someone you care about, indifference hurts more than angry words.

Sorry that I was cold to you. But your indifference hurt me more than anything else. And you know what? I've been hurting for a long time now.

Every girl needs a man...

2009-09-17T23:25:00.000+08:00

The kind that will treat you right. The kind that searches for you with all his heart. The kind that respects you and adores you.

Every girl needs a man who won’t cheat on her. One who can be trusted in a room full of beautiful girls. Because he’s smart enough to know that he already has a girl who has everything that he wants, needs and more.

The right guy will never leave you lonely and wondering. You will always know where you stand with him. He will be your best friend and lover. He’ll call you early in the morning just to say good morning or late at night to say good night and maybe even tell you a bedtime story to make you laugh or talk to you until you fall asleep.

This guy will be the kind that’ll do anything for you, even if it’s just to go to the store to buy you your favorite ice cream. He’ll buy you flowers just because it’s a Wednesday and will notice your hair when you’ve gotten it cut or have gotten all gussied up specifically for him.

You deserve a guy who will cherish you. He’d never be afraid to smile to his friends when you’re around and tell them, “She’s the one”. He’d appreciate you for the things you do for him, even if they’re little… like the little love notes you leave him.

He’ll be chivalrous. He’ll wait for you when you’re falling behind, open doors for you and will walk you to the door to make sure you get in safely. He would defend and fight for you and never bail on you when you needed him most.

The right guy will call you beautiful instead of hot, he’ll kiss your forehead when you’re down and he’ll be the one who will love you for everything you are.

Never settle for anything less.

Read this last night before I went to bed. Really like this writing :)
And it's totally true, no?

You know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go

2009-09-17T22:50:00.001+08:00

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even with our fists held high
It never would have worked out right, yeah
We were never meant for do or die...

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hurt you now I can't stop...

I want you to know
It doesn't matter where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you wanna cry
It started with the perfect kiss then
We could feel the poison set in
"Perfect" couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know
It doesn't matter where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone

Ahhhh already gone, already gone, already gone
Ahhhh already gone, already gone, already gone

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye...

I want you to know
It doesn't matter where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on,
So I'm already gone

You can't truly have an open heart until it's been broken

2009-09-15T01:29:00.000+08:00

I don't know if you felt that or not.

But it felt like two people kissing after hours of thinking about it.

It felt like two people talking after nights of silence.

It felt like two people touching after weeks of being numb.

It felt like two people facing each other after months of looking away.

It felt like two people in love after years of being alone.

And it felt like two people meeting each other, after an entire lifetime of not meeting each other.

Our last kiss

2009-09-10T00:25:00.001+08:00

Meredith Grey: Hey.

Derek Shepherd: Hey. You almost died today.

Meredith Grey: Yeah, I almost died today.

Meredith Grey: I can't, I can't remember our last kiss. All I could think about was, "I'm going to die today and I can't remember our last kiss," which is pathetic. But the last time we were together and happy, I... want to be able remember that, and I can't Derek. I can't remember.

Derek Shepherd: I'm glad you didn't die today.

Derek Shepherd: It was a Thursday morning, you were wearing that ratty little "Dartmouth" T-shirt you look so good in, the one with the hole in the back of the neck. You'd just washed your hair and you smelled like some kind of... flower. I was running late for surgery. You said you were going to see me later, and you leaned to me, you put your hand on my chest and you kissed me. Soft. It was quick. Kind of like a habit. You know, like we'd do it everyday for the rest of our lives. And you went back to reading the newspaper and I went to work. That was the last time we kissed.

Meredith Grey: Lavender. My hair smelled like lavender... from my conditioner.

Derek Shepherd: Lavender. Huh.

I can't remember the last time we kissed.
I can't remember the last time you wanted to hold my hand.
I can't remember the last time you wanted to hold me.

I'm haunted by a sadness in this heart of mine

2009-09-08T02:22:00.000+08:00

I realized I don't know if I love you anymore. I always said I'd love you, but I feel like I'm moving and changing while you stay static.

I'm passing you by, my dear.

In some ways I still want us to work, want this whole crazy thing full of mistakes and anger and happiness and sharing and beauty to work. But in another, larger way, I feel like I've already lost you.

(x)

I miss the sound of your voice, the loudest thing in my head

2009-09-05T02:12:00.001+08:00

Today, I realized loving you is difficult; almost unbearable. The fights, in your words, "pull our last threads," put us "on thin ice" or "on the edge of the cliff," place "a strain on our relationship," thus being "this close to being done." I never understand how you treat me sometimes, how you point out all my flaws, how you occasionally call me unpleasant things, and how you could leave as if your life would be perfect and untouched; as if I haven't made any impact. Sometimes I really don't know why I stay with you, why I bother to fight for our relationship. You, in fact, bring out the worst of me.

But still, I've never wanted anything as much as I've wanted to be with you. You bring the best out of me. We've done so much for each other, and you and I both know that it's not worth throwing all away. In going through so much together, it's unbelievable how we both could stand all of this.
More importantly, you altered my outlook on life. You’ve changed me for the better.

The good times outweigh the bad times by tons and tons, and tons.

Drowning in your love is worth it in the ending when you remind me that you love me.

I love you, too.

(x)

I'm sorry I'm not strong enough to let go of the things that I love way too much

2009-09-01T22:39:00.003+08:00

Few nights back, I had this dream. I forgot what was it about. Tried to remember but I couldn't. I was really happy in that dream. When I woke up, and realised I'm back to reality, my heart sank. The happiness is nowhere to be found.

Wished I could remember the dream & remember it forever.
Wished it was easier for me than it is for you.

Not forgetting, school was fab today. I love Ban to the max, she's the best companion anyone can ever have. Mr Jalaini showed us this Indian movie. Some parts are quite sad, some are like really sick! Little kids at the age of 10 knows what sex is about, omg! Scary.

After class, we took train to Orchard while Ban went Bugis to meet mama Ong. Finally bought the dark denim high waist shorts that I've been eying!! Hahaha I wanted the light denim one but it looks ugly on me, even bff thinks so. I can't fucking shop alone, I need opinions so I can decide what to buy & what not to. Shittttt, this really sucks. I wanna be able to shop alone!!!!

Far East Plaza is like my second home. Went to visit Liyana, the new part timer. Very sweet girl, heard she's on The New Face! Very pretty :) Poor Jolin got no sale upstairs but after bff & I went in, a lot of people came in!! We left our stuff in the shop, helped her pack a little. Hate it when the shop looks messy or when the straps of the bag is dangling everywhere, look super messy! After that, we went to walk around :D hahahah we looked like we were doing a market survey!

Got so tired after that, we were there for only three hours. Bought Subway cookies 'cos we finally realised we skipped lunch & was mad hungry! Went to the supermarket before going back. Bought chips, a loaf of bread & magazines :>

P/s: Mama Ong, don't be a mysterious reader ok!! I am updating now because Ban told me that you asked her why I didn't update hahahaha! Hello mama Ong :)

I keep thinking of you, you're on my mind for the fifty seven thousandth time this morning

2009-08-31T23:00:00.037+08:00

SBS lecture is a chore. For one, lecturer's voice is squeky. For two, she treats us like primary school kids! Thank God she dismissed us an hour earlier today 'cos she finished the chapter faster than expected. "Go off quietly, and row by row." What the fuck!? Obviously we didn't.

Because Sher only gotta work at 5pm, off we went on a cab to Serene Center! We all were craving for ice-cream, the weather was a killer this afternoon. Island Creamery, here we come!!

ReversO & Ping Pong Milo!

I wasn't ready for the photo :@

Sher & Chrissy :>

Because they got this Canon photo printer & the walls are either filled with photos of happy faces or drawings, we took photos & pasted it on the wall as well :D Printed two, kept one for myself!

I told bee before that I would want something (much neater, of course) like this with all our photos on our bedroom walls IF we ever get to live together. From our very first shot to the last, all in black & white :>

The two photos that were printed!

Trying to write something out of the marker with back up ink

Really like this photo but not the person in there -.- DAMN STONE LEH YOU

Too bad I look stupid here, and super blur :/

Probably not destined to have a nice photo with the background

Happy Sher :>

And happy Chrissy!

Trying to make our photos stick..........

TADAH!!!!! Spot us?

Left the place around 4.15pm & walked to the bus stop. Can't wait to hang out with them & Ban!! :) While walking to the bus stop, we found out that dear Sher also got motion sickness. Hahahahaha she told us something super funny about her past. Damn cute, love them all to the maxxxx <3

TDMC tomorrow = seeing Jalaini & his gayness. I can't believe he said, "Don't be so slutty" to one of the guys in the class hahaha! Ok time for L Word before I turn in for class tomorrow, toddles! :>

Bonita Angelica

2009-08-30T23:35:00.000+08:00

Promoting this for Angela the sweetpea, she just started this shop not too long ago!

I really like her stuff, to be very honest. I like the scribbles design off-shoulder dress & the Chanel inspired bag!! Ok I ever did mention that I will not get anymore inspired stuff but this bag is super, extremely sturdy!! It looks like it is real. I've seen it for myself omg, it is of very good material & definitely worth every penny!

Don't wait, visit Bonita Angelica today!!

I miss yellow lines in my roads, some color on monochrome

2009-08-30T21:37:00.000+08:00

Today I:
x Went out with baby to have lunch at Liang Court as a mini celebration for our 27th month together & bought my instant kimchi soup from Meidi-ya.
x Went to Aunt's place to celebrate Pearlyn's 8th birthday.
x Had my favourite Rive Gauche's Guanaja cake!
x Took lots of photos of Pearlyn with Taf's camera.
x Realied home is my comfort zone.
x felt happy when I remember that I got class tomorrow! Which means I'd be able to spend time with my girls :)
x Am still feeling down.
x Wished you were still a part of me, and not apart from me.
x Thought of a new url :)
x Decided that I will not abandon this blog 'cos it means a lot to me. My readers mean a lot to me too!

On Thurs, at work, this IJ girl came up to me...

IJ girl: Hello, may I know how much is this?
Me: Oh, thirty-four dollars.
IJ girl: Oh.. Thank you. Are you the writer of theklassiquecrime?
Me: Uh......i don't blog there anymore...
IJ girl: Oh yeh.. I read your blog.
Me: Oh okay...

I just never thought I would get to experience this 'cos I'm not a very super famous blogger & all that sort of things. I was surprised & happy, of course.

To whoever that girl was, sorry if I sounded unfriendly :x hahaha say hi again next time!

School tomorrow! L Word for a little bit & off to bed I go :>

A subatomic blip in the temporal fabric of creation

2009-08-15T23:05:00.003+08:00

A quick update!
I know I haven't been updating but check out my Twitter! Or follow me on Twitter (which is a much better choice, of course)!

Been spending very very little time with bee & it's making me feel so bad. I really wanna make time for her but :( sigh.. I hope work is not what that caused the distance between us. Can't wait to spend more time with you after school resumes. I love you baby :)

Work has been really good though very very tiring. Weekly I get $xxx, & monthly I'd probably get $xxxx!!! When it's pay day, we all look forward to it. But definitely, some of the money would go right back to Cy 'cos we work/shop at the same place hahahaha. Last week I got myself a wallet (finally paid for it) & bee came over, she bought a shirt! Hooray~ Supper nights with Cy, Hanice, Angela, Laura, Wen, Bff & myself. Nights where we work 'til dawn for the grand opening. Cleaning up the new office. Pick up new stocks, stock take, pack stocks 'til late. Shanelle & her club fights. Laura & her purchases hahahaha. Angela & her dirty thoughts. The one particular someone we all know we dislike the most. The new photo wall that would be up in the office/shops soon (!!!!) damn excited we can put up our beautiful faces heh heh!

Work has never brought this much amount of laughter, smiles & fatigue in my entire life. Oh, & not forgetting stress!! I treat this shop like my own, just so that I do my best & aim for the highest.

Here comes the rant.

Potluck picnic for my advance birthday celebration - which will be happening tomorrow - is a complete disappointment. The whole point of asking people to RSVP by Friday is just so that we have time to prepare enough drinks for everyone. Seems like everyone missed the point. They only start replying on late Friday or Saturday. Never mind that. Guess what? My closest friends are the ones not coming & the ones who didn't replied. (Y) Ftw "friends". I'm 75% sure it is because of your boyfriend, no? Prove me wrong. And no, I'm not pointing fingers at anyone at all. If you think it is you, so be it.

I'm so mad at myself. I should be the one organizing it instead of leaving it to you both. I should've known this plan wouldn't work out. I should've known no one will be attending at all. Why the fuck did I even thought of planning anything? I should've just spend a nice day out with bee to "celebrate". Fuck this, seriously. Like what bee said, if those who made an effort to come, good for the two of us; those who made an effort to apologise & explain why & would make it up (if it happens that is), good for me; those who did not, an eye for an eye.

I shouldn't get so affected, should I? Yeh totally.

This is one of my current earworms :)

Can't you see that I'm the one who understands you?
Been here all along, so why can't you see?
You belong with me

Everything will change but love remains the same

2009-08-01T22:44:00.000+08:00

Because I worked 'til late last night & so did bb, we decided that today shall be a very very simple day out for us, just to spend some time together since it's the weekends. :)

Cabbed down because I was late. End up wasting money because I took as much time as taking train to get to Cine by cab, wtf. Waste money!!! Quick bite at Burger King, before our movie.

Yes yes, we caught The Hangover!! Shiok much, it was really funny. Totally worth the watch. Don't miss out on this show, it is worth it. Must watch!!!!! :D

After the movie, we went to the small Korea supermart to find if there is any instant kimchi soup. They don't have it, only Meidi-ya have. I really want instant kimchi soup!!! It'd be perfect for me......... :( Took a bus to Plaza Sing & had dinner at Hong Kong Cafe. Haven't had Hong Kong Cafe in a long time!!! That outlet is fucking noisy, can't stand it. Music super loud, people talk even louder omgggg.

Dreading the arrival of Sunday............because I'm gonna stay indoors all day omg so boring!

I'd like to see our roles reversed to watch you hang on every word

2009-08-01T02:26:00.001+08:00

First day of work. Saw Claudine, Rachael Gan, Lye Yee & Roaringqueen. Rosental came by, to have dinner with me (thanks sweetie!). Sales was fucking good. I'm so happy just thinking of it right now. Shanelle's very cute. First day of work together & I love her already! Super friendly & extremely random :) Met one half of TE & also DS. I met so many new people today!

Cy was busy, couldn't send me home. So he drove me to Bukit Timah & I took a cab back. Cabbie was very talkative. I was too tired to say anything!! Got home at around 12am with very tired legs... My maid asked whyyyyyyyyy work starts on 31st & on a Friday??????

Interesting fact: I managed to survive standing for 10 hours. Way to go, way to go!

sleep for missy now, nights x

I hope you still feel like this love is for real

2009-07-30T21:41:00.003+08:00

Today, I met up with an old friend. She came home from LA for a week, leaving on Sunday. I told myself I'd regret, like how I always did, if I didn't take the time out to meet her. Despite feeling very very extremely tired, I made a trip to her place at Serangoon Gardens. We had Frolick, sat in the little cafe, a few smoke & talked for hours.

The last time I saw her was at the airport when she was going away to further studies in San Jose. 4 years she's been there & now she studies in UCLA. Time flies, no? I miss her so much when she was away. We used to talk everyday in secondary school. Spend all afternoon talking on MSN, neglecting studies, bitching & talking nonsense.

Now she's turning 21 in Sept, I'm turning 19 this Aug.

This old friend, is Natasha Quek :)

P/s: be safe on your way back home darling, love you always <3

The way you always were my best excuse for calling in sick on everyone else, I miss you

2009-07-29T23:57:00.002+08:00

Happy 26th, sweetheart :)
Thank you for everything that you've done for me. No one will love me like the way you do. Thank you for going up on Singapore Flyer with me despite your fear of heights. I love you <3

We had a great day, everything went according to plan. We had Popeye's for dinner, which sucked because they ran out of mash potatoes & biscuits :( Made me really upset 'cos I've been craving for their mash potatoes & a Popeye's meal is not completed if there isn't biscuits! Thereafter, we bought tickets & went up on the flyer. My second time on the flyer, first time with baby :) It was great, 'cos it was only us & a Japanese couple! Felt like we had the whole cabin to ourselves!! After the flight, we sat by the water, took photos & went home. It was one of the best nights with baby. Wait, which night out with baby isn't the best?

The sweet corn was fab, try it on your next meal at Popeye's!

The place where you take pictures

I love this collage, I want to bring it home!!

I look exceptionally less fat here omg when I was feeling soooo ballooned :/

F1 track

Ahhh nice, I like this picture

Miniature $2mil condo *drools*

Our heavily photoshopped photos that costs $30

FAIR MUCH!?!!!

Bee said this is nice. At first I hated it but the more I look, hm nice!

One for my baby with the flyer! I risked falling into the water to take this photo

Thanks bff for coming over in the day for helping me with my nails :) also, thanks for the flower clip, I love it!! J said it is tissue paper...........hahaha luv you anywayzzz :) I hope you & M had a great day too!

2009-07-27T11:44:00.000+08:00

Last night, I dreamt that mom & dad gave me $1k for school fees & allowance. I was overjoyed. When I checked my account balance, I had about $3k in it. I was so thrilled.
I woke up, realising it was only a dream.

Is my happiness always this short-lived?

I hope you found someone to love you like I tried to but never could

2009-07-26T23:50:00.001+08:00

Day with bb was fun-filled (: kept laughing 'cos she told me about a story of a bung that looks like Chase Crawford, "blue boy" that sells ice-cream & a girl in blue bikini. Don't ask me why all blue. But the story is super funny hahahahah

I took a cab over to her place, we had quick lunch at KFC. I only had a small whipped potato & I felt so food :x I don't know what's with my appetite lately.

Bandito!

Looks so diff from the pictures hahahaha

Hungry baby

We stayed all afternoon at her place. Rolling on the bed, talking, day-dreaming, talk about recent happenings. Finally left the house at around 4plus. Took 190, went to Cine. Checked the movie & there's no more seats for The Hangover!!! :@ No movie for us :(

The hot was blazing hot!! Before we walk under the sun, baby was like, "are you ready? ready for the hot sun!?" Hahaha I'm ever ready~ The sun is so unexpected these days. Walked to Taka, walked around, went to Wisma to have Korean dinner at foodRepublic!

Pork BBQ

Chicken BBQ

After dinner, we went to check out Ion Orchard! It's a really big place. 77th Street is there, which is really weird. Fred Perry, Topshop, Topman, Charles & Keith, MaxMara, Muimui, Louis Vuitton, Dolce & Gabbana, Ferragamo, Frank Muller, Triumph, For All Mankind, Starbucks, iShop, Nokia, Uniqlo & a lot more that I don't remember. I was so depressed, too depressed to even shop around. It sucks to be broke & still window shop. It really sucks..

Took a train back to the mall & bought shaker fries! It was very crowded at 9pm!! 9pm & everyone is eating shaker fries. Shaker fries should be on Twitter trending topics hahahha. Went to the park, sat down, had our shaker fries, chit-chat like the good ol' times. We used to go to the park so very often!!

Oh & I bought bb another comic since she finished hers already (: it made her really happy, I felt happy too, just looking at her smiling to herself & looking at the book while walking home. Ahhhh pure happiness (:

I dread Mondays, with school or not, with work or not.

Well I guess you'll never know but I finally let you go

2009-07-25T23:36:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUNT FERLINE :) <3

Aunt's birthday celebration dinner was at Chilli Padi Nyonya Cafe. Nyonya buffet we had :) The variety of food was a little. I prefer buffet with a lot of choices of food to choose from, so much so that I can't decide what to eat! Then I'll try a little of all :)

Didn't get to take much photos of the food because I was busy taking care of Jenae ^^

Mee siam

Laksa

Gado gado - my favourite!!

The See sisters!

Look at her tongue!! Hahahaha

Her twist hahaha so cuteeeee

Dad & Mom

Aunt Shirley & Uncle Eric

Uncle Leow & Aunt Ferline

There's a photo of Chester & his girlfriend, Qiu Ling but not nice!!! So I didn't post. (Che, if you want the photos, tell me okay I'll zip & send them to you!) After dinner, we went to walk around Bugis Junction. Boring place, super boring!!!! They bought stuff, we left after that. Kept pestering dad that I wanna go for beancurd & he bought us there with Uncle Eric they all. Yay beancurd!!!!!!

Beancurd with pearls (:

'Cos Uncle Leow they all went to check out this buffet place at Punggol Marina, he suggested to have supper at Macdees. :S super sinful!!!! Nyonya buffet, beancurd, Macdees :/ Had shaker fries, sat around, talked to Qiu Ling. She was very shy as this is the first time she meet the whole family. But I can tell she's very happy to come together with all of us to celebrate Aunt Ferline's birthday. She was having fun with Chester. Really wish to talk to her more though. She looks interesting!! (:

Day out with bb tomorrow! Looking forward, so is she! Thinking of catching a movie. She wants to watch Duplicity but no timing.. Hm, we'll see how!

I love you always, even in the hurricane

2009-07-24T23:04:00.000+08:00

Exams are over. End of migraine-filled days with hell lot of notes to be memorized in my hands all the time. Bye Econs, I won't miss you for sure. Bye Mogan, I hope you'll never be seen in my sight ever again. Diploma term one starts in a month's time.. I'm looking forward to it because I'll be attending it with bff, my favourite girl ban & not forgetting Chrissy & Shermaine :)

The paper was okay. I did my best, that's all I know. I don't care if it's a D, I'm okay with it. As long as I passed, I don't care. I just don't wanna redo this whole module ever again!! Chrissy came out after 15 minutes, Shermaine followed suit. I was done in an hour. Swatee left after awhile. Bff was the last to come out. After we were all done, we went off for our steamboat dinner date!! :)

Hello mole

Look at the butter -slups

Shermaine the sexy cook

Tom yum soup base!!!

Tan Quee Lan Street (:

Only after we got on the train then I realised we didn't take a group picture :( :( :(

We were very fickle-minded. At first we sat on the upper deck. Then we moved to the lower deck where the walk way is 'cos that would make space for Rosental ('cos we thought she was gonna make it). We asked for steamboat but when we saw the next table having steamboat & BBQ, we wanted that as well. The smell was too...tempting. Damn nice smell!! We hear the sizzling from the BBQ, couldn't take it, we asked for a change! We were like saying how they'd really hate us & bitch about us & all that amongst themselves hahahaha or even spit into our soup!!!!! Stupid Shermaine keep saying that I look scared & won't drink the soup -.- And she said that Chrissy don't wanna eat the sausage so she 'accidentally' dropped it hahahaha.

$20 per head - damn not worth it for the four of us. All we ate was hotdog, crabstick, meatball, prawns & scallop! But the tom yum soup base was yummy! Very sour, not that spicy for my liking, very nice!!! Thank God Shermaine's good at cooking, she helped a lot! I can't cook, scared :/ I really suck ok I'm sorry guys!!!!

Sat around, chit-chat while our love handles were growing bigger & thicker. Left the place, walked to Bugis Junction. Chrissy bought Chewy Junior 'cos bff told her that Jemi did mentioned before Chewy Junior is nice. We tried the sample & it is really chewy!! Chrissy was damn cute, she had to choose 11 & she was like, "Huh one more!?! Omg..ok this one!" One after another, one after another, until finally the last one, she was like, "No more ah? Wahhhhh.." Hahahahha!

I love hanging out with them :) They totally made me forgot what happened before the exam which kinda worried me 'cos I was concentrating 100% on memorizing & trying to understand, I didn't wanna let my mind wander. More outings with them this term break, I hope!

Celebrating Aunt's birthday tomorrow with Nyonya dinner. Yay I luv Nyonya food!

All sorts of things can happen in your life..things that can happen nowhere else

2009-07-22T15:26:00.000+08:00

I hate it when people ask if I've gotten anything or joined any of Nuffnang's activites. Answer? NO I HAVE NOT OK SO SHUT UP. I always thought the chances of winning are really slim. Check out the number of bloggers we have in the Singapore blogosphere. How to win!?!

So yesterday, Nuffnang sent out a tweet..

So I did. Retweeted, direct messaged them my name, url & contact number. In my mind, I was like, I'm not that lucky. They would have given the tickets to Nadnut or Xiaxue, definitely not me. Where got so heng!?! So I didn't bother & continued studying.

Awhile later I went to check my mail..

I was like ......what? No cannot be so heng lor, seriously! Blinked my eyes, in disbelief. Cannot be la!!! I went to check my twitterfox..

OMGWTFBBQ!! HOLY COW I REALLY GOT A PAIR OF TICKETS TO WATCH KOBE BRYANT!!! *dances around in circles* THANK YOU NUFFNANG!!!!!!!!!! In excitement, couldn't breathe, grinning to myself like a mad ass. Told bff immediately, rang baby who was very upset that a lot of her friends are going to watch but she isn't. She was so excited, she screamed over the phone!! :D

And so right now, I'm trying to rush my ass off to publish this post & leave home to meet the silly one at Dhoby Ghaut. Going for early dinner before we head over to Singapore Indoor Stadium!!

Don't worry, visuals, I know, I'll be back with them!!! :D
But post after exams oki dok teeehee!

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It's okay not to be alright

2009-07-20T22:01:00.000+08:00

"You can never tell what people are thinking and feeling unless they tell you, and usually they lie. you ask them, 'What's wrong?' and they say 'Nothing'. You accept this because it’s easier than digging for the truth. People smile when they want to cry, they laugh when they want to scream and shout. They pretend like nothing is wrong because they don't want to face the truth. Things aren't always rainbows and butterflies, sometimes you gotta scream and cry your anger and sadness to the world, because you can only hold it in for so long before something in you snaps. so when you want to cry, cry. When you want to scream, scream. Don't hide behind fake smiles, it's ok to not be alright."

I certainly am not :(

Lunch with baby today at Far East Plaza. She had cravings for chendol & ayam penyet so we went today. A sudden decision made yesterday after her steamboat dinner. Hahahaha. Love you sweetheart :> lunch was great, food was fab, company was even better. The people who had lunch there needs to learn how to talk in a six-inch voice. They laugh like it's their own place!! I couldn't even hear myself..and we also found out that the restaurant actually does deliveries around Far East!!! :D yay yay yay we went back after lunch 'cos i promised Gran I'd be home quick (quick = 3 hours :( sorry gran i love youuuu) asap.

oh, and not forgetting, I surprised baby with the comic that she wanted to get, so she can read when she's free. Love it when she roll her eyes, smiles & give that why-must-i-close-my-eyes-but-i'm-so-happy-there-is-surprise-for-me look :D she was so happy, unwrapped it immediately..ahhhh that happy look was priceless. love her so much <3

Exactly one more month to my birthday, nine more days to our 26th(!!!), four more days to Econs paper!!!! *chants* I can do it I can do it I can do it!

Headache headache headache!! so painful :( i'm gonna rest early today & wake up early tomorrow to continue studying! will be back blogging after the paper :>

For everything its worth, every breathe I take still hurts

2009-07-16T22:28:00.000+08:00

This week, even before it ends, has been a awfully tiring one so far. One more week before I can finally take a break & say goodbye to fatigue & Econs, while I say hello to work & happier days (I really hope so)!

Yes, I said work, I didn't lie to you. I finally got a job!!! No more lazing around, doing nothing, waiting for money to drop from the sky, keep saying how I'm broke but not doing anything to save or earn. I'm so glad because the boss at the shop I'll be working at is really nice, and she's only 19!! Same as me.......how depressed. She's so successful with a shop of her own yet I'm still in the midst of completing my diploma. *sobsobz*

Been studying all day. Lunch at Ajisen with baby was pretty okay. Too much noodles, I couldn't finish. Or rather, I don't have my usual appetite today. I eat a lot lesser or a lot more when I get too stressed. :/ sighhhhh studying = headache. Econs = headache x 3498327!!!!

Baby told me today that we're going on Singapore Flyer on our next anniversary. I wonder if it's because she screwed up the previous one, thus she make it up this anniversary. But still, I really appreciate it. Why? Despite her fear of heights, she still wanna take me on Singapore Flyer. Thanks baby :> Now I can't wait to go up there with her :D

Friday tomorrow, and I'm not excited. Sissy got a week MC, which means she's gonna be home. How now brown cow? I really need a nice quiet place to study and start memorizing Econs. Baby said if we got the money, she'll book a hotel room just for us to study in peace. Ahhhh I wish :( but money is so precious and cute, I don't wanna waste it like that..I shall just stick to the uncomfy, hard chair and occasionally-cold aircon in the library with noisy guys watching videos, girls with fat fingers typing away.

I just need to bear with it for the next few days. Until 24th July, it shall be the last day I will ever touch on Econs or even talk Econs. Never ever. No fucking more. I will never do anything has gotta do with Econs. It kills too much of my brain cells! Oh, on a lighter note, Chrissy, Shermaine, bff & I will be going for steamboat after our paper on Friday!! <3 Can't wait to hang out with them & talk cock. After the exams, I MUST GO TO JEMI'S PLACE! Been saying this but not doing it at all. DIE DIE ALSO MUST GO OVER!

Ok back to Econs :( sighhhhhh

p/s: i hope things get better between us, baby. i love you :>

Maybe I'm not your everything & I'm never ever gonna be

2009-07-15T21:38:00.000+08:00

Another day of hardcore mugging
Another day of reading Econs notes & only Econs notes
Another day of sitting at the long table in the library with bff
Another day of buying drinks/food from Cafe Galilee

I want 24th to come quick but then again, I need more time to study :(

When can we have some alone time :(
i miss cuddling with you bee.
i miss staying over at your crib,
like we own the whole house,
like this is a brand new life of ours together.

i want to feel loved again ♥ P/s: i feel like eating cup kimchi noodles now :(

You are Everything to Somebody

2009-07-13T23:02:00.001+08:00

Right now at this very minute:
someone is very proud of you.

someone is thinking of you.

someone cares about you.

someone misses you.

someone wants to talk to you.

someone wants to be with you.

someone hopes you aren’t in trouble.

someone is thankful for the support you have provided.

someone wants to hold your hand.

someone hopes everything turns out all right.

someone wants you to be happy.

someone wants you to find them.

someone is celebrating your successes.

someone wants to give you a gift.

someone thinks you ARE a gift.

someone hopes you are not too cold or too hot.

someone wants to hug you.

someone loves you.

someone wants to lavish you with small gifts.

someone admires your strength

someone is thinking of you and smiling.

someone wants to be your shoulder to cry on.

someone wants to go out with you and have a lot of fun.

someone thinks the world of you.

someone wants to protect you.

someone would do anything for you.

someone wants to be forgiven.

someone is grateful for your forgiveness.

someone wants to laugh with you about old times.

someone remembers you and wishes you were there.

someone needs to know that your love is unconditional.

someone values your advice.

someone wants to tell you how much they care.

someone wants to stay up watching old movies with you.

someone wants to share their dreams with you.

someone wants to hold you in their arms.

someone wants YOU to hold them in your arms.

someone treasures your spirits.

someone wishes they could STOP time because of you.

someone can’t wait to see you.

someone wishes that things didn’t have to change.

someone loves you for who you are.

someone loves the way you make them feel.

someone wants to be with you.

someone hears a song that reminds them of you.

someone wants you to know they are there for you.

someone is glad that you’re their friend.

someone wants to be your friend.

someone stayed up all night thinking about you.

someone is alive because of you.

someone is wishing that you would notice them.

someone wants to get to know you better.

someone believes that you are their soul mate.

someone wants to be near you.

someone misses your guidance and advice.

someone values your guidance and advice.

someone has faith in you.

someone trusts you.

someone needs you to send them this letter.

someone needs your support.

someone needs you to have faith in them.

someone needs you to let them be your friend.

someone will cry when they read this.

Today is Monday. A new week. I woke up. Checked the phone. Two texts; one from bb, another from bff. Replied her. Went back to sleep. Woke up again. Replied bff. Texted mom. Replied mom. Mom called. Got up. Went to the bathroom. Brushed my teeth. Had breakfast. Took my clothes. Went to shower. Came out of the bathroom. Switched on the lappie. Mom came back, with dad. Had lunch with them. Chatted a little. Dad left for work. Continued using lappie. Talked to bff. Watched one episode of The Hills. Prepared to go for badminton. (This is really tiring!) Dad came back home. We went to the sports hall together. Three empty courts. We played in pairs. See Family came. Played with Jenae & Jermaine. Played another game with sis. Played one more game with my maid Aunty Edna. Watched the ballet girls danced. Pretty. Skinny as hell. Can be thinspiration. Got six packs!!!!! Are they from IJ? Annoyed by sissy's million & oe questions. Time checked, 6pm. Packed up. Wandered around 7-eleven. Buy the capsules or not? Ok don't buy. Headed to Serangoon Gardens Market for dinner. I spotted Selegie Beancurd!!!!!! Excited. Told everyone. Dad saw his friend. Ordered Mee Soto. Very spicy. Satay. Roti John. Mee Goreng. Fishball noodles. Japanese food. Pon tian mee. Beancurd with pearls. So bloated. Felt like dying. Home. Showered. Got an interview tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :> Made me happier girl. Why bb so long didn't text me? Is the food so nice there that she forgotten about me? Tsk I also want steamboat leh. Went online. Talked to bff. Watched 9pm show. 10pm show. Back to talk to bff about tomorrow's arrangements.

I'm done blogging. This is so tiring!! but new way of blogging hahahaha okbye!

How To Install Love

2009-07-10T03:46:00.000+08:00

Tech Support: Thank you for calling tech support for HOS - that’s Human Operating Systems. How can I be of assistance?

Customer: Well I’ve had this Love Program sitting around for a while and finally decided to install it. But it seems a bit complicated and I don’t want to mess it up. Can you guide me through the process?

Tech Support: Absolutely. That’s why I’m here. Are you ready to proceed?

Customer: I think so.

Tech Support: Great. Let’s go. The first step is to check for any potentially conflicting programs that might be running in your heart .

Customer: Sounds good. How do I do that?

Tech Support: First hit Ctrl, Alt, Delete all at the same time. Got it?

Customer: Yes.

Tech Support: Great: Now click on the tab that says Heart Applications. Do you see that?

Customer: I do. Got it.

Tech Support: Perfect. What applications are running.

Customer: I see Past Hurt, Low Self-Esteem, Grudge and Resentment running right now.

Tech Support: No problem, Love will gradually erase Past Hurt from your current operating system. It may remain in your permanent memory but it will no longer disrupt other programs. Love will eventually override Low Self-Esteem with a module of its own called High Self-Esteem. However, we’ll have to uninstall the Grudge and Resentment programs. They prevent Love from being properly installed. Can you turn those off?

Customer: I don’t know how to turn them off. Can you tell me how?

Tech Support: With pleasure. Go to your start menu and click on the Forgiveness program. You may need to do this several times in order to completely erase Grudge and Resentment from the system. In fact, I recommend that most people run their forgiveness program at least once a day.

Customer: I can see what you mean. It feels like this might take a while.

Tech Support: I can wait. Take your time…

Customer: Okay, done! And it seems like Love has started installing itself. Is that normal?

Tech Support: Yes, but remember that you have only the base program. You need to begin connecting to other Hearts in order to get the upgrades.

Customer: Oops! I have an error message already. It says, “Error - Program not run on external components.” What should I do? *

Tech Support: Don’t worry. It means that the Love program is set up to run on Internal Hearts, but has not yet been run on your Heart. In non-technical terms, it simply means you have to Love yourself before you can Love others.

Customer: So, what should I do?

Tech Support: Go to the Start Menu again and click on the Self-Acceptance program. Got it?

Customer: Yes. It’s running.

Tech Support: Great now go to the modules drop-down menu and check the boxes next to: Forgive-Self; Realize Your Worth; and Acknowledge your Limitations.

Customer: Okay, done.

Tech Support: Perfect. Now, click on the box that says “Copy new modules to Heart Directory.” And then click on the “OK” button. Once you do that, the system will overwrite any conflicting files and begin patching faulty programming.

Customer: Done… Hey! I can feel my heart is filling up with new files. Smile is playing on my monitor and Peace and Contentment are copying themselves all over My Heart. Is this normal?

Tech Support: Sometimes. For others it takes awhile, but eventually everything gets it at the proper time. So Love is installed and running. One more thing before we hang up. Love is Shareware. And the interesting thing is that the more you share it with others the more stable your personal installation will become. So be sure to pass it along to everyone you meet.

Customer: I’ll definitely do that. Thank you so much.

Tech Support: Thank YOU for installing Love!

This is so cute. :>
Is it really that easy?

I never thought I’d say, I’m fine without you

2009-07-09T23:22:00.000+08:00

Seriously, I need the blogging bug to be back. Once I stopped blogging, I can't start. :( I don't want this blog to end up abandoned.

Anyway, today I went to the dentist with mom. The bus ride there was..thoughtful. But I like bus rides :) Had lunch with dad and mom at the hawker center. Chatted for awhile before dad left & it was time for our appointment. The nurse took my temperature & said, "Hm, 37.2 degree. Drink more water ah. Now weather hot, drink more water hor. Drink more water ah." I was like oh okay.......aren't you a dentist's nurse? :/ Mom went in first. Thank God there's wireless@sg there, I was quite bored while waiting. When it was my turn, the dentist said everything is okay hehe yay! After I was done, mom asked if the dentist did mentioned to me that I should stop eating sweets hahahah :D

The weather looked like it was gonna rain when we were about to leave. Walked around AMK hub. Walked pass Koi Cafe!! I heard their bubble tea is pretty good. We saw this girl carrying one of the cups. Half the cup was filled with pearls! Hahaha mom said no wonder it's so expensive, 'cos of the pearls! But it sure does look yummy.. Must try it soon!

Took 86 back home. I was very lazy to walk out to the 159 bus stop :P and I told mom that bff said 86 is pretty fast, about half an hour or so. IN THE END IT TOOK US ABOUT 45 MINUTES!! Bff's estimation not accurate at all :@ went to the mall. Bought some food & went back home.

I've got an interview tomorrow at this accessories shop. I'm having second thoughts now. Bff said one of her friends worked for them & she said it's very tiring & you don't get to sit!! Cannot use lappie either. How now brown cow? :( it is not the kind of job that I want. If I can use lappie, means I can still do my work & all that while working... :(

Anyhoos, I'm gonna go study with bff tomorrow. Ayam penyet & kimchi ramen! We've already planned what to eat :D she's been craving for kimchi ramen & I've been craving for ayam penyet. Thanks to Shermaine who mentioned it on Plurk hahaha we MUST study tomorrow, MUST!!!!!

Bad day of pretending, bad night of arguements.

Cleared the dust, wiped her eyes & filed away the memories

2009-07-07T17:07:00.017+08:00

I'm damn bored. I can't study. I can't bring myself to do it yet. I'm craving for dim sum at Zhou's Kitchen. Speaking of which, I've not blogged about it & I've been there twice already! Shall blog about it now since I have the time :)

Fried carrot cake

Egg tarts

Char siew sou

Fu pi juan

Hot & sour soup

Prawn pasted chicken

Siew mai

Char siew bao

Fried rice

Chicken feet

Drunken chicken

Fried fish skin

Muah chee

Gu cai kueh

The photos, obviously, won't do justice! You gotta go try it. High tea from 2.45pm to 5pm for adults at $16.80++, child at $10.80++ only!!

I love dim sums & I love going for high tea. High tea = lunch + dinner! SAVE COST :) I must bring girlfriend there soon. It is damn good. Looking at the pictures now make me wanna make a reservation for tomorrow teehee!

Oh, tomorrow I'll be meeting the girlfriend for a day out. We're finally going to Laurent Chocolate Cafe!! Yay so excited, can't wait :) gonna visit bff after lunch. I'm still so upset that I've finished watching BOF :( Shall go find some shows to watch now, toodles!

And just like that, I lost my heart

2009-07-03T15:43:00.001+08:00

The last day of class was the day that bff & I spoke the most to Shermaine, Christina & Swatee, the three lovely classmates that we're the closest to. They are great, really. I'm so glad we're not judged for being labeled as "the remodule girls". We're gonna meet up during the study week to study together :D

Speaking of which, on 17th June, just the day before I left for KL, we had class & bb wanted to 'crush' our lecture, so we met bff at Outram Park to go class together. We had lunch at 99c sushi before that!! I was craving for it for quite some time hehe thanks ah bee :) Just before we left, we went to the pet shop.

Cute or what!!!!!! Hahah two of them stucked their heads out while sleeping, so adorable :)

The rest of the day sucked, which resulted in me crying my eyes out to fight for what I wanted. In the end? Zero, was the result. Forget it. I have to accept it that I often do things to please others, I put others before myself. I've to constantly remind myself this: Stop bothering, care less, love yourself.

After I was home from KL, I fell ill in the evening. After bb's persuasion, I went to the doctor's on the 23rd June with bb. I was really really sick. Fever, cough, flu = enough to kill me. Barely spoke to bb 'cos each time I wanna talk, I'll start coughing or sneezing. She kept doing stupid actions to act like I've got H1N1 & like, show people to leave me alone -.- Irritating!

There was this guy who looked a little like * in the clinic with his sister (oh wow). FUCKING IRRITATING. He was talking so loudly, I can hear everything that he said. I thought it was just his loud voice. Guess what he said? "Wah so many deaths from H1N1. I think they all deserve to die hahahahahaha! All deserve it whoohoo!! People who got it can just die!!!!! Hahahahahaha great, peace!" His sister just kept quiet. I was guessing that he is around twenties. Seriously, in your twenties and this is how sensitive you can get? Other than that, he was reading out the subtitles from the television programme on CNA, in a squeky voice. Out to piss people off or what? Seriously!!

The clinic was so packed. Seems like it is the flu season? Had lunch at Banquet before heading home. Bb has always wanted to try Banquet 'cos she said the food looks good hahaha because it's crowded almost all the time!

Laksa for her

Chicken porridge that bb ordered for me

(Ahem, suddenly feel like I'm blogging like an ah lian)

The next day, we booked the badminton court but I couldn't play as I'm still feeling feverish. So I played with Jenae & Jermaine most of the time. After the game, I suggested to go for Taochew porridge! I was in the mood for porridge, and that's when you know I am really really sick. Hahaha I don't really fancy porridge so the only time I will eat it is when I'm sick :D

MY FAVOURITE FISH Ci kak :)

Chicken in ginger sauce

Vegetables

I don't know what is this called..tou pok?

Fishcake

Veg, & Sissy's fav, lala :)

After dinner, we had Selegie Beancurd which was just down the street. I'm pretty much addicted to it now.. Eating it almost every once a week!!

Soya bean with pearls

My yummy beancurd, so smooth!!

Must. Change. The. Damn. Layout!!!!!!!!!! It is getting on my nerves. So messy, so plain, so colourless. I wanted to ask Ning to help me with it but she's busy :( I've survived almost seven months without a pretty layout for the first time hahaha. I shall do up one really soon..i hope? Nonono, revision first. Must study before I proceed to do such things!

Anyway, I'm gonna meet bb tomorrow at her place. Can't wait to eat ramen! Ramen! Ramen!! Ramen!!! Ramen!!!! Thinking of it now makes me hungry hehehe ok I gotta go for badminton now. Toodles!! <3

Sometimes the hardest things to say are the things that really matter

2009-07-02T23:53:00.002+08:00

Finally got the time to update this space. Been busy with school, assignment & GP. Now that it is all over, I'm so relieved. Next would be revision for Econs paper. I can do it, I know I can. With a little faith, I know I can do it. If I can, bff, so can you :) This shall we the last time we study for Econs for the rest of our lives!

Suddenly feel like life is so meaningless. There is nothing more to look forward to, not at all. I'm so sick of trying my best & not feel appreciated at all. So sick of having to cry myself to sleep the past few nights. I have not felt happy in a long while. With all that is happening & has happened, I'm so sick and tired. Really wish this isn't my life. I wish I can swap this life with someone else. :(

I've been feeling really tired lately. Insufficient rest. Haven't been able to sleep well either. All these nights when we argue or talk about unhappy stuff, it really ruins my entire night. But who..who will ever understand how it feels like to be in this position? Been trying my best, my bestest..

Anyway, I still got quite a lot of overdue photos to be uploaded! High tea with the folks, outing with the girls, outing with the bff, outing with Gran, Mom, sissy & Che, badminton + dinner with the family, desserts with the family & the See family, B&J's + steamboat dinner + Mac's with the family & the See family! Omg so much.. I better get started on the watermarks so I can post them really soon. Watch this space! x

I'm watching Boys Over Flowers/Boys Before Flowers now. Totally ditched The Hills :x I'll continue watching Season 4 when I feel like. This show made me cry like mad & made me think a lot. It is a great show though, I really like it. There's tears, smiles & laughter. I like this kinda show :) Ever since I started watching, I've been craving for kimchi noodles, Korean bbq & stone pot rice! Off to watch the show now!

P/s: before I go, this is one thing that totally made my day today.

Kimchi cup noodles!!!!!!!! ^^

I've been known to fall in love but sometimes love is just not enough

2009-06-29T23:02:00.001+08:00

Must be wondering why no lovey dovey post on 29th? Someone screwed it up. No 'happy 25th!' text messages, no love, care & concern, no nothing. Hello to a bad month ahead. I always believe that a good start of the month is very important. And 29th of every month is a start of a new month for us but apparently, it was ruined but we'll see. Hopefully this month is exceptionally; despite the ugly start, it is still good month after all.

Bff was late, as usual >:@ Had to forgo our Mac's breakfast plan. She went to the mall to get it for me before coming over to the train station but it was sold out to the previous customer in front of her. so she bought me.....

Kinder Bueno & Famous Amos!
Thanks bff :>

GP presentation went well. I didn't allow all that to spoil my mood for the presentation. Need to be in a good mood to do well! Met Jems at the train station, took shuttle bus to school. On the way, I asked her about her celebration with her boyf. Like what I always say, expect the unexpected. Her boyfriend got her a Juicy Couture watch! It totally surprised her. When we were out that day, I told her who knows what he'd get & he might just surprise her haha! Back to GP presentation.. Marc came unprepared, it was really funny. He introduced himself, said he chose PR 'cos he liked Mr Sivam ahahahaha it was really funny. He also told us he is "going to San Diego". Seriously, FOS. FOS = Full of shit! Jems' presentation went great, she left for lunch with her "starved like an African kid" brother. HAVE FACEBOOK OR TWITTER PLZZZZ JEMSY! *psycho psycho psycho*

After presentation, we were supposed to go back for class but class ended already. On the way back, we bumped into Jeanette!! Haha I called her & she alighted at Tiong Bahru instead of Outram Park. Silly her! So we took the train back together & she alighted at Hougang station :> We were both starving so went to the mall & had very late lunch at Pizza Hut!

My fav drumlets!

Bff's

Mine!

A very happy bff with her student meal!

Me in the headband that caused my head to be in pain for hours :/

After lunch, we went to 7-eleven! On the way home with Nette, she showed me all her Mr Men & Little Miss keychains from 7-eleven. So cute!! Bought Vicks & lollipop for two capsules hehehe :)

We got Little Miss Shy, Mr Small, two Mr Greedy! Gave Mr Small to bb, Mr Greedy to sissy, I kept Little Miss Shy & bff kept the other Mr Greedy :) so cute. We both were so addicted to it hahaha wanted to get more but the girl behind the cashier was really rule. Kept giving us attitude & those stares. We're gonna get more the next time we buy something from 7-eleven! I really wanna get Little Miss Sunshine & Little Miss Chatterbox :(

My arms won't free you; my heart won't try

2009-06-27T02:30:00.000+08:00

Love is the scars on your knees, the leftover food in the refrigerator, the song the birds sing, the pain you inflict, the sweet nothingness that flutters from your lover's mouth, a half-complete cigarette, diet coke which fizzles on your tongue, the rainbow sprinkles on your cupcake, the battered package you received in the mail the other day, the sound of wind escaping through a small gap in the window, the dampness of your hair, the chipped red varnish on your fingernails, your grandmother's musical box, the ballet shoes you've had since you were five, the music playing on your car stereo, the flaky paint on your walls, the bubblegum stuck under desks, the tooth-fairy, your hands and the things you can make with them, the kisses you blow, the clothes you wear, 5 AM morning breath, your sensitive teeth, the tingly feeling you get when you get touched at certain parts of your body, the tangles in your lover's hair, sleepless nights, overdosing on painkillers, undeserved success and recognition, telling lies and not getting caught, blacking out from consuming too much alcohol, being desired by multiple parties, solving a mathematical problem, watching the people around you, watching the people messing up around you, screaming out your window in the middle of the night, flaming your lover's ex, smudged mascara, disheveled hair and smeared lipstick, the coffee and bagel you digest on a daily basis, little children, silence, recyclable materials, trees, photosynthesis, growth, development.

No, love is you, I, and a careless mixture of everything else we worry about.

x at least three folders of overdue photos to blog about
x GP presentation on monday, which is also our 25th anniversary
x meeting bb on sunday to get her new phone, and a dinner together to celebrate our anni
x bought new adapter for lappie which cost me $85 :@
x out with the girls on thurs was fab though all of us were restless but still happy
x had dinner with bff & bb at ajisen today
x school drained the shit out of me, now i'm so tired & in need of yokoyoko
x lastly, happy birthday jemsybaby :) enjoy your big 2! we luv you (L)!

A heart can hallucinate if it's completely starved for love

2009-06-26T23:17:00.003+08:00

Blackout at Outram Park station?

MJ's news is everywhere. Hell lot of #MJ & #MichaelJackson on Twitter. Makes me really sad seeing all those news reporting about him. Life is short, so unpredictable. Yet another lesson for us all to treasure & cherish all that we have around us before it is too late. Before you know it, they are gone & never coming back again.

Family = Hell. Next, please.
Bff was so sweet, she accompanied me to get my lappie's adapter before class started. Missed the first half hour of class though. Really appreciate it bff (: The adapter costed me $85! I wanted to get the battery as my battery is as good as dead but it is $159. Overspent this month (with I don't know what, seriously), thus I only got the adapter. And like what bff said, I don't bring the lappie out often, the adapter is good enough.

Class was boring, as usual. What's so surprising about it anyway? I was freezing & trying to concentrate without allowing the cold environment affect me. We bought a cup of hot Milo but it didn't make me feel any better. It made my throat really itchy though!

After we were dismissed, bff & I met bb at the mall & we had dinner together at Ajisen!

It's Milo, you want some?

My Cha Shu ramen!

Would've ordered Spicy Cha Shu or Tom Yam if not for my throat :(

Bb & her Tom Yum ramen, very happy

Bff & her Spicy Cha Shu ramen & a lot of requests :/

White fish yum yum

Dinner was superb. Walked out of the restaurant feeling like my tummy's gonna burst any time. Walked around, went Prime before heading home. Bb & bff walked me home before they left.

Happy birthday Jemsy, we luv you :)

P/s: hope you have fun with boyf tmr!!

It's hard to be safe, it's difficult to be happy

2009-06-24T23:27:00.002+08:00

HI Y'ALL I AM BACK!!
The trip was pretty alright, much better than I expected. Spent more than I expected! Bought hell lot of things teehee but yeh, this time I really shopped the blues away. I came back feeling much better, much lighter, much happier. Went without make-up throughout the whole trip, let my face & skin breathe! I'm getting used to my pale look already :)

Day 1
Zel & I only slept at 5am, woke up an hour later to prepare. It was more like a nap, I could barely open my eyes. Crying + sleepless = eye swollen like fuck! Gran was at my place early 'cos Uncle Lee drove her.. Auntie Shirley, Uncle Eric & their two girls cabbed over to our place quite late & I almost fell asleep while waiting!

Budget terminal is really..budget. They only got Hanis(Han's express outlet), Mac's & a magazine stand, that's all. Once you step into the terminal, you can see everything. But good enough, I guess, good for those who wants to fly but tight on cashflow or those who fly all the time. Save costs!

Had breakfast at Mac's, while the adults have their breakfast at Hanis. I love sausage mcmuffin without egg <3 I cut down a lot of cold drinks lately. Been drinking chinese tea, hot coffee, tea or milo. I don't know what got into me but hot drinks is good, especially for us girls. Else the cramps will kill us!

After we checked in, I shopped at the duty-free area & spent close to $60 of Victoria's Secrets! A cosmetic pouch, two eye shadows & one glitter liner! 'Cos Aunt Shirley & I spent above $90, we were given this metallic logo bag! But she let me have it 'cos I was telling mom that it's damn pretty, teehee thanks a lot Aunt Shirley!!

After the boarding gates. See how budget our budget terminal is!? But still, yay for cheaper fares!! Honestly, it was my first (virgin!) ride on a budget air plane. Really budget ok! Dad & I can't stop saying how budget it is. No cushion on the seat, no blankie, no food, no drinks, no entertainment, no newspaper!! We can't complain, can we? We only paid $80 for this ticket! Uncle Eric had this promo thingy, thus the cheap price. I definitely prefer SIA..but who doesn't? For the comfort & entertainment.

We got there in 45 minutes, or even earlier. I sat in the plane with Gran. She's so adorable, the way she signs her name, damn cute! She's a great companion anyway, kept laughing at whatever nonsense I said. She said she don't really like this plane, so I said, "ok wait until I earn enough money I'll charter a plane just for us ok!" & she laughed. How cuteeee :)

Look at Jenae trying to do the peace sign! Damn cuuuute she kept trying t do it but failed haha and kept looking at her fingers weirdly, must be wondering why she can't do it hahaha! The second picture, thanks to Zel, I didn't know she was taking but yeh, I was stoned hahaha. Jenae is so adorable, but very very very naughty!! Even her granny can't stand her, kept telling Aunt Shirley how naughty she was after she comes back from work. Still adorable, anyhow :)

When the van arrives, it took us an hour to get to the hotel. I fell asleep almost immediately after I put on my shades & iPod. Though it was damn hot, the sun shining into the van but I still managed to nap. Too tired, I supposed. Two hours of sleep, totally insufficient! When we got to the hotel, I kept telling sissy that I wanna sleep & can skip shopping for sleep just for today hahaha!

We stayed at The Federal Hotel instead. Was supposed to stay in Marriott but if we were to book, we've to book for four nights instead of just three. So dad sticked to our original plan. The hotel's quite okay..but I wouldn't advice anyone to stay there if you were to go KL. Won't tell you why here, ask me in private & I'll tell you :D

Wonton mee pok for Che

Chicken rice for my maid

Wonton mee for Jermaine

Roasted duck noodles for me & sissy

After resting in the hotel room for awhile, we headed out for food. We were starving!! The noodle house at Sungei Wang is damn good. 'twas our second time there already, damn yummy! Sis was like asking me why I chose to drink chinese tea haha I don't know I just feel like drinking?? I find myself so weird sometimes.

Quick lunch it was. We headed to The Pavilion next. It is a damn big shopping mall! Got all my favourite boutiques there ^^ They were having some BMW show there......

Beautiful, no!?!!!? BMW 325i Convertible!! Damn pretty omg I want it in red pretty plzzzzzzz.

I forgot the flavour. :/

Had Baskin Robbins! I love BR (L) I wish BR, A&W & Krispy Kreme would come back to SG :( A&W used to be in SG but then I don't know what happened, it closed down. I want their curly fries & root beer float! Baskin Robbins is the best damn ice-cream next to Ben & Jerry's. Never tried Krispy Kreme but I heard that it is awesome. Really wanna try though..

Ain't it pretty? This is the end of my day 1 in KL. Bought a lot there! At the end of this post, I'll show you what I bought from the trip ok! Went back to the hotel & we bought supper. Yummy KFC wedges was rad. Their wedges tastes so good!! It's a MUST TRY when you're there, teehee!

Day 2

Woke up super early for breakfast at the restaurant. Just put on a pair of leggings with a random top from the luggage and off I went. The breakfast sucks. I only had tea, toast, orange juice & sausages. Yum tum tum I want mcmuffin now! After breakfast, I went back into the room to get ready for another long day ahead. Genting!!

Dad's friend came t pick us with his two cabbie friends. We needed three cabs for 13 people. Off we went to Genting!! It wasn't as cold as I thought it'd be. I didn't bring an outerwear 'cos when I asked mom if shorts are ok she said yes so yeh, just casual cooling wear, no need wear so nice. So there. But thank God, as it is the humid period, it isn't that cold up in the highlands.

First stop, THE OUTDOOR THEME PARK!!

Taken while waiting for Dad t get tickets :)

Don't ask me what I was doing..I really don't know

Aunt Shirley was so happy but Jenae was damn scared

Had very late lunch at Pizza Hut only at around 3pm. Met the rest later & they had Marrybrown. After that we walked around the place. Mom got two pairs of shoes & we left, back to KL. The ride home was interesting. Accident, village kiddos without shoes, durian trees, big shopping malls, high class hotels. Went back to the hotel first to rest. Headed to Pavilion again 'cos Che bought this Mango top at only S$10 so I pestered mama t go with me. Dad, mom, myself, sis & maid went together. Had dinner at FoodRepublic. The FoodRepublic there is super hugeeeeeee! A lot of different cuisine. I had phad thai noodles (see how much I love Thai food!), sissy had kimchi noodles, maid had sheng mee, mom & dad shared a plate of fried oyster. Bought a lot of Mango omg yay!!!!!! Cheap thrills uh huh headed back to the hotel & they bought supper. It's like a party every night at Gran's room!

Day 3
Suria KLCC + Mid Valley, the two big shopping centers we went. Bought a lot there. Nose, their shoe boutique (something like Charles & Keith), got bandage heels & sandals. Fucking pretty but don't have my size. DAMMIT! Mom bought a pair of mustard heels thee. Damn nice :( Had A&W there too!! Omg curly fries & root beer float~~ Dad bought a shirt from GAP. He kept asking me t buy the pair of boxers but he was rushing me so I said forget it. It's only S$15 :( and they got the navy blue polka dot & red hearts printed one!! I will go get the it at the local GAP boutique, really hope they still have it & in my size! Factory Outlet Store at Mid Valley was huuuuuge! Bought accessories & a few sleeping shorts there. Went bra shopping 'cos it is on sale & it's only S$4.20 each. NO JOKE!! Damn shiok I tell you I grabbed my size & made payment hahaha then we had dinner at Madam Kwan's Nonya Restaurant.

When I was in primary school, I kept praying to God that I want her to be my mom.

Fish & Chip

Chicken Chop which looks more like breaded chicken

Nasi Lemak

Took a cab back to the hotel & we went to walk around Sungei Wang & BB Plaza. Bought a little something for the girls, bff & my lovely girlfriend :D Took quite some time for us t get out of that place. Too many exits!! Next, we went to Haagen Dazs for ice-cream. Cappuccino Truffle & Raspberry <3 the last supper we had there was perfect. Frog-leg porridge, kway tiao, Thai fried beancurd in sweet chilli sauce & KFC. The porridge was deliciousssss!

Aunt Shirley: (to maid) Edna, come, come & eat the porridgeMe: (in dialect) She don't eat frog-leg leh
Mum: Really meh? How come I don't know
Maid: Yeh ok ok (taks a bowl of porridge, with a spoon taking the gravy & all)
Maid: What is this ah mam?
Mum: Frog-leg
Maid: (stop scooping & stones for 5 seconds)
Aunt Shirley: (burst into laughter)

IT WAS DAMN FUNNY. Just imagine us all in pjs & two small tables, everyone sitting together, some on the bed, some on the chairs. Her stoned reaction was damn funny & unexpected!

Day 4
It was father's day but didn't felt like it. Home. I was so damn excited. Not excited about the budget flight back but the feeling of being home, in Singapore again. The good food that awaits me :D Teehee. Once we got home, I unpacked my stuff &we went out for early dinner. Even Laura thinks that it was too early, she replied me on Twitter, "4pm for dinner?" Hahaha so! We went Changi Village for dinner. Dad suggested it. We let him because it was Father's day :)

Wonton meeeeee

Fried carrot cake, shiok only!

And I started sneezing during dinner. Sucks to be me! Damn sick right now. Fever, flu, cough, sore throat. Alicia scared me saying it might be H1N1!!! :( omg I was damn scared, I kept taking my temperature to make sure it's just me feeling feverish but it's not fever.

Today bb accompanied me to the doctor's & I'm feeling a lot better after drinking a lot of water & taking the medicine. Imma go rest after this post. But before I publish, I must show you what I bought this whole trip!!

7 new brassssss

Sleeping shorts from FOS

Victoria's Secret!

Mango tops each only for S$10 omg cheap or wut!?!!

Scriptedrama is going away...

2009-06-18T02:13:00.000+08:00

Yupp, I'm going away on a short trip with my family. I know I haven't update this space in awhile but I'll definitely do so when I'm back from the trip! No, no worries, I'll be back with a picspamxzxz teehee!

These days I've been really busy with school, settling family matters and spending quality time with bff, bb & sissy. Yeh, you didn't hear wrongly, I'm talking about my sis. We grew closer ever since I told her about bb & I. I don't know if it's a good thing or not but, I sure hope it is. She is still annoying at times and this time, is one of the times!!!! She's blabbering away about how lousy budget flights are when she haven't been on one yetttt. NAICE ONE OK SISSY!

Luggage packed, bag unpacked, essay not finalised not sent t bff! Won't be around to hand in my GP essay so bff is gonna help me with it. Like what momma said just now, "Yanhui gotta be responsible for it hor, make sure she hands in for you yeh" you hear mama tan, you peachy bffz!? Hahaha love you nong time bffz, thanks for everythinggggg. Especially my *mess* before this trip. Please watch over (i didn't say check hor) me galgalxzxz when i'm not around ok tweet her text her call her visit her do whatever you want ok hahahaha AND PLEASE STUDY HARD FOR YOUR CLASS TEST OMG YOU MUST PASS OK DO MAMA PROUD ALRIGHTY and do your best for the GP essay ok jia youuuuuuu!! If meowz bully you, tell me when I'm back ok i will kp her to deathzzzzz okbye love lob lub luv you nong nong time!
And to my galgalxzxzxz :> this mess made me realised how thankful i am to have you, my one and only family that i truly love and care for. you are the bezzzzzz ♥ I love you so much bee, please prove t me that you wil behave ok teeeheee never mind i got a spy t check on you already~~ hahaha don't bother about her too much ok, sometimes she is just kidding so you can just shoot her nbcb her also never mind alrighty 'cos her galgalxzxz also kp me, SAY I UNFRIENDLY LEH 'COS I REPLIED 'No.' TO HER SIMS3 TEXT HOR BLOODY HELL MEOW YOU BETTER WATCH OUTTTT hahahaha ok anyway i love you, take care of yourself & ulcer, please go away kthxbaiiii enjoy babyjavier's celebration ok (L)

To my plurkies/tweeties, takeeeeee care of yourselves and we'll tweet/plurk when I'm back okayyyy I'll tweet/plurk when i'm in the hotel, hopefully they've got wireless ok love you guys, thanks for *the talk* s & k :> really helped me a lot!
To my favourite girls, I miss y'all so so so much. I talk about our times so often to yanhui that she's also missing you guys too! We need girls time soon alrighty after i'm back!! Need t catch up over cuppa :> luv you guys, take care & update me when i'm back!!! <3

Oh, happy birthday Kwai :) have a blastin' time, talk soon! Take care :>
And Cheryl Lim, happy birthday in adv!! Nudge me on msn plzzzz haven't talked t you in awhile!

*sings I'm leaving on a jetplane*

bye blogosphere
i'll tweet/plurk when i get wifi there :)

Rise & shine to a headache and a question

2009-06-11T02:58:00.000+08:00

Love is a funny thing. You expect it to be easy. You expect it to be a world of roses and laughs and perfect moments that you find only in movies. You expect her to always say the right thing, and always know exactly how you feel, or exactly how to react to it. You expect her to calm you down when you're yelling or to chase you when you run away. You expect so much that you feel entirely, and utterly defeated when something doesn't exactly match up with all your plans. But that's the thing. Love isn't a plan. It doesn't have a certain beginning & it certainly has no end or visible finish line to those deeply in it.

It is only mid-week, and I anticipate for a very well-rested weekend with my love. We planned to stay in her cozy crib with chips & our favourite dvds & feel each other's presence. Come dinner time, we'll satisfy our cravings. The phone with her few hours ago (which lasted for a good seventy-five minutes) was all food talk. It makes the both of us hungrier than ever, but too lazy to let the growling of our tummies go silent. Because both of classes start at different times, ever since I started class, we spend lesser & lesser time with each other. This gives the two of us time to think and to miss.

I still believe that absence makes the heart fonder. The lesser I see her these days, the more often I go 'Hi beeeee, I miss you' in our texts & phone calls. This, me likey :)

p/s: she called me princess last night when i texted her goodnight after our phone-call & i was so smitten.
p/p/s: i love you baby, even if you're gonna continue slurring your speech like how you did over the phone.

A love so intimate that our words need not be said

2009-06-08T22:39:00.002+08:00

It is easier said than done :)

Class on Friday was dreadful. But the train ride home, was perfect. Bff went City Hall for her facial (& FINALLY changed her vintage phone!) while I alighted at Outram & headed straight home for cozy tv dinner. Thanks for the Memories is so..good. It makes me think so much. Adore her books. I can't wait to finish this and Goodnight, Beautiful so I can get Lessons in Heartbreak!!!!!!!

We all get lost once in a while, sometimes by choice, sometimes due to forces beyond our control. When we learn what it is our soul needs to learn, the path presents itself. Sometimes we see the way out but wander further and deeper despite ourselves; the fear, the anger or the sadness preventing us returning. Sometimes we prefer to be lost and wandering, sometimes it's easier. Sometimes we find our own way out. But regardless, always, we are found.
—Cecelia Ahern (Thanks for the Memories)

I woke up early to have breakfast with the family at Ikea Tampines on Saturday morning. I feel like time is wasted having breakfast because I'd rather sleep than to eat, but this is one thing that mom really appreciates the two of us doing. And on 2009's new year resolutions, one of them includes having breakfast with the family once a fortnight. I brought the camera out but left it in my pocket & totally forgot about it 'cos I was busy trying to keep myself warm! It was really cold in the cafeteria. I had awful pancakes, damn plain. (N) The bowl of mee siam that Zel had was pretty good, not better than SJC's canteen's, definitely :D After breakfast, we went to walk around. Put off my full length mirror plans again. No space for it :( Bought two towels (which only cost $4.90 each!) in my shade of red & a blue one.

Then we headed over to Giant! Groceries shopping, my favourite thing to do. But mom hates it whenever we're around. Hahaha we'd just put a lot of stuff into the trolley without them knowing :D bought Japanese crispy chicken & seaweed chicken! yayyyyy

Headed home, tried to nap but failed. Watched telly, girlf called & I started preparing. She came to pick me at around 4plus & we took a bus to Tampines One! She was feeling hungry so we went straight to Thai Express upon arrival. 'twas yummilicious!

While waiting for food, she snapped this. Still very obsessed!

Curls look better now, IMO!

Beef glass noodles! (L)

Tom Yum Goong! Damn good

Crispy prawn balls! I eat this all the time when I'm in BKK

Phad Thai noodles, I will order this on our next visit!

Hungry girlf :)

Shopped around, bought bread from the Japanese bakery that Zoe recommended! (Ban, I hope you're safe in Genting now ♥ luv you!) Diva is boring now, although I just love going in there. Prices increased so much! Three bangles for $23, a pair of lightweight earrings for $19!? Wayyyyyy overpriced

Took a bus back. Went to Best Denki to check out the iTouch & the earpiece. Girlf said it is either Sims 3 or iTouch. :( I really want both! I didn't want her to spend too much on me as she don't work, she save up all these money & I do feel bad for overspending. I wanted to talk to mom about it first then we'll see how it goes. Hopefully mama will get it for me!

Sunday was spent at home, as usual but the unusual thing is, Aunt Shirley, Uncle Eric & their two girls came over for dinner. They bought chicken wings from Crystal Jade for us :) Dinner was fab, with the six of us squeezing at our dining table. Cozy wozy! After dinner, we watched Night at the Museum on Channel 5. Brought the two girls with Zel to the supermarket to get ice-cream. Jenae is getting very mischievous! Whenever I tried to steal her food, (I mean, in the playing way) she'd hit me. If I took her waterbottle, she'd complain! Hahahaha super cute when she pout and complain.

Badminton today was greeeeeat. Jac came with J, Zel couldn't make it as she had a last minute appointment with Godma. So we met at the mall, took a cab in, made payment for our booking & started playing! I forgot to bring shuttercock. I was so absent minded. Girlf didn't remind me 'cos she didn't wanna be naggy and thought I'd bring it. :x Went to the 7-11 & bought one whole roll. Really lousy ones. After the game, we ate a little at Mac's. No garlic chili sauce at that Mac's outlet :((((

This is what it became after a few games! How lousy

Our things

Girlf the prooo

Jac the 'coach' hahahah

Oh, let me show you my recent buys! I haven't really shopped in awhile. As in shop productively! I wanted to buy this dress online and the girl didn't reply me. Not fated to be mine or what??

From Cotton On for $10!

Lovely bow ring :D

Got the both two items on Thursday at Hougang Mall. Was there for lunch with mama!

Electric eraser & refills from Daiso given by Godma!

Before I forget, there's another person who took my username & used it as hers. Bravo, girl! Way to go. To think we were friends. =/ Forget it, I'm gonna confront her if she doesn't reply my message to her on Twitter. Is it better if I blog once in a while or should I do it on a daily basis? I just feel so lazy sometimes. I will try to the blogging-daily vibe back though. It's just tiring to edit the photos and all. But if I don't blog, you can always read my tweet & plurks! :D I update regularly, thanks to tweet.sg :)

Tomorrow, it's a bffs day out!! We're gonna go for sushi, then to get some diy stuff! Yay finally some girl time for me. Outing with Sass on Thurs isn't confirmed. No swimming for me, pleaseeeeeeeeee, no bikini either!! :( :( please have mercy on me omg. Before I go, I shall leave you with one of my favourite quote from the book.

I always thought our marriage could survive anything as long as we both tried. But then I found myself having to try to try. … What was the thing that could make two people want to spend every day of the rest of their lives together? Ah, I found it. It was a thing called love. A small simple word. If only it didn’t mean so much, our marriage would be flawless.
—Cecelia Ahern (Thanks for the Memories)

Have a great Tuesday, guys!

So here's my heart I'll give over & over again

2009-06-03T22:21:00.001+08:00

HI I'M BACK WITH MY AUNTY HAIRDOOOOO~ I sat in the saloon for half a day for this hairdo. It is a life-changing decision, yknow. I never changed my hair style since my bangs days... I don't know if I were to say that I like or what. But I was really hoping for more of the natural look. I showed Aunty Brenda the picture of Vanessa Hudgens 'cos I really adoreeeeee her wave and fringe but it didn't turn out the same way. :( Aunt said it will after I wash my hair tomorrow. I really do hope so..

Uh this picture sure don't look like me.. Omg I see excess fats all on my face!

Anyway, I don't know if you guys know about the MTV Movie Awards. Robsten won the Best Kiss Performance!

Click on the images for the link to the video!

Do you think they deserve to win? I really think that Zanessa should win 'cos their kiss on HSM3 was so so so passionate. Much more better than Robsten on Twilight. They are both my favourite celebrity couples though. :> Wanna know more about the MTV Movie Awards 2009, you can watch it on MTV.com.

I shall blog about our second year anniversary!! Teehee how excited ^^

Girlf came to pick me after her class. When I met her at the mall, I realised her whole point of picking me up is to surprise me with the Apple red earpiece I wanted, which is only available at the Best Denki here. Awww :) but sadly, it is sold out. Wow, just when she planned to get it!! :(

Never mind about that. So we travelled to Cineleisure for lunch at Kobayashi! Love the food there~~
I had the omelette, girlf had the kimchi ramen. It is really good.

Love it when she is this happy =)

Wanted to catch Night at the Museum 2 but time clashes with our plan. Our plan was to have dinner at Vivo City Hog's Breath then to Clarke Quay to have cakes & still head home early to rest. We didn't get to watch the movie in the end. Postponed to another day! Checked out at iShop, they don't carry the same earpiece either. Grrr.. Should've just bought it that day huh. I really want an iTouch. Girlf said she'll ask my friends to share and get one for me. Oh sho schweet but then bff said she'll get me a Chanel bag, right bff???? :D HAHAHAHA

We didn't have anywhere specific to go so we just walked from place to place. Went to Taka! I was very tempted to get Auntie Anne & Churros. Omg cinnamon sugar (L) But I didn't! I saved space for a dinner that didn't turn out just the way I want it to be.... Then we walked to Wisma. Walked around, went to a few boutiques, saw few familiar faces. Headed off to Vivo City at around 4pm.

Went to the pet shop! The hamsters were so adorable!!!! Some sleeping, eating from their little pockets in their mouths, some playing on the wheel. Damn adorable. I'd love to have a pet :( if only mom isn't so particular about cleanliness around the house, hm.

Top: Online
Bottom: Far East Plaza
Bag: Louis Vuitton
Shoes: Far East Plaza

Earrings: Far East Plaza
Necklace: Chanel
Heart ring: Sketchbooklabel.lj
Bangles & bracelet: Diva

The background reminds me of Maria Mena's Calm Under The Waves. I love the new earrings a lot. It's a heart locket. I'm gonna make one of these really soon!

When we arrived at Hog's Breath.....

"...closed for reservations."

ARGH. This was what that spoilt our plans :( so we had Marche instead!!! Which also really excites me 'cos I have been craving for it since the last time I had it with girlf on our sixth month anniversary! Thinking of the food now really makes me drool....

Calamari Rings

Cream of Mushroom

I don't know what is this but it's nice!

We had a nice long dinner which cost us less than $50. Cosy, though noisy but I love it there. I can people-watch from the windows, with all my favourite food on the table. Hm, perfeckkkk :) A pity we didn't order Rosti this time. The queue was really long! And by the time it shortens, we were so full. I was bloated! After dinner, we sat by the waters, just the way I always wanted to do. Though it was quite crowded there, with every other couple or group of friends sitting around, eating, talking, we still enjoyed ourselves.

Fav!!!!!! (L)

Familiar? She had something like this too!

hey no mind the fats ah :D

Because we both didn't wanna spend too much as the two of us are on budget, girlf suggested that we get a watch for each other & make it our couple watch. Guess what? Despite today being our 735th day together, it is our first couple watch. Or our couple whatever. I know right!?!

Not a fan of watches like girlf is but I really like this one =)

She was so happy and excited that she wore it around the house the next day, and can't stop raving about it. I was just waiting in silent for a time to wear this out teehee and yesterday I did! I wore to class :D

Oh, not forgetting, my RL package for mom arrived on Saturday! I woke up to my maid telling me that my package has arrived. I was so happy, I jumped out of bed immediately. Although it is not for me, but I am still happy because I know mom will be thrilled. And indeed, she came through the door & I stood there posing with the bag in my pjs, she was like, "Oh, it's here!?!!" And I replied her, "Oh, not yet not yet.." Hahaha she said, "Oh okay then, continue waiting." Bloody hell. She saw it already & she still can tell me continue waiting..

I am sooooooooo going to get the red one. I cannot stop carrying this tote around like it's mine & dad thought I was gonna tell mom that I wanna use it. Yeh right, it's for her, how can I use it first!? Teehee wait until she don't wanna use it ~ :D

Because bff & girlf is asleep, I'm not talking to anyone on Plurk/Twitter, I think I will turn in early tonight. Really need my body clock to workkkkkk. Lunch with mama tomorrow, and unconfirmed day out with the girls after!

And everything in your past, you wanna let it go

2009-06-02T23:44:00.001+08:00

Lately, I can't sleep well at night. Lately, I slept very little. Lately, I get tired very easily. Lately, I dreamed a lot. Lately, I thought of you so so so much. Lately, I dreamed of you. The dream so real, I thought I was awake. I woke up, did a reality check, and went back to sleep telling myself this is, by far, the closest to reality dream I ever had of you.

Could this be a sign? I wish this wasn't what came to my mind when I thought about the dream again. I thought these dreams has finally come to a halt when you walked out of that door. I guess, they have not. God, please make them go away. I don't need these right when my life is on the right track...

The Sims 3 Launch Party @ Iluma today & we missed it. Girlfriend had class until 3.15pm & my class starts at 3.30pm so we gotta give it a go :( I want Sims 3 but girlfriend said it'll affect my studies if she buy it for me now and I won't concentrate on studying and most importantly sleeping early. After talking to Rosental & Shermaine on Plurk just now, I think I will really have to see a psychiatrist.

First day of school today, and all that ran through my mind? I miss 0846A, I miss the girls, I miss Marc and his nonsense, I miss Mistical endlessly posting questions to the lecturer, I miss seeing Abby dressing up nicely for class, I miss seeing Alex & his group of friends talking about nothing but soccer and army days, I miss the noisy yet fun-loving class. Any other class is nothing like you guys =(

Econs is a chore. I can never understand why mass commers need to study econs. I just don't get it. Shermaine, my Twitter/Plurk friend, was there too. BUT SHE DIDN'T SAY HI SHE SAID SHE IS SHY :( I was telling bff that nooooo one talked to us la no one smiled either!! Then this guy, who looked like he is drunk / tanned 'cos his face is super red, said "Bye girls, see you!" when we walked out of school. Sweeeet.

Oh, not forgetting, I surprised the girlfriend today :))))))))))) Bought her the new toothpaste I am using. I told her that it is really good, no morning breath, bad breath, whatever breath at all. So I bought one for her to try. She was happy, so was I. I think today we spoke less than fifteen sentences :(

I came home with a headache, and body aches. Whole body aching. I'm too young to feel this old. Oh, and I'm doing my hair tomorrow. No more ugly wavvy hair!! I hope. Please x2398743290 don't screw this up my dear hairdresser AKA Aunty Brenda. I'll be friggin' mad (& I do not care if your daughters are gonna read this) if you screw it!!!!

And, my Restaurant City reached the maximum level. How nice. So many nights of chiong-ing & I reached the maximum level. Waste my time!!!! Ok anyhoooooz I'll blog about the anniversary really soon. Prolly tomorrow after I'm done with my hair or something. The photos are done, but 'cos I gotta wake up at 8 bloody am in the morning tomorrow so I'm gonna turn in after this teehee!

P/s: Oh, and girls, I miss y'all!! I got no class this Thursday, we can hang out. :)))))) Text me okay Jems! Alamak, I forget to update you about your sweater again!!!!

2009-05-29T12:00:00.000+08:00

第七百三十天，晴

今天是我们在一起的七百三十天，也是我们的两周年纪念日！真的不知该说什么，想说的都在每个月大大小小的一大堆纪念日说了。

时间过得很快，不知不觉中，我们已经在一起两年了。很多人说，在一起久了对对方会很厌倦，但是我还是仍然地爱你那么深 ^^

谢谢你常常陪我很晚睡
谢谢你常常背我的负担
谢谢你常常哄我开心
谢谢你常常买我喜欢吃的食物
谢谢你在风雨中陪着我
谢谢你给了我说不完的快乐
谢谢你的温柔
谢谢你的耐心
就重要的，谢谢你的爱：）

是爱你的哦，黄洁营同学！

Over the years, we grew up together & grew closer. We changed in different ways. Be a good change, or a bad change, we still grew closer then ever. Remember all the pinky promises we made? I will never forget them, you shouldn't too.

Happy second year of loving, baby. I love you :)

P/s: Hog's Breath Cafe for dinner, and Night at the Museum 2 with bb tomorrow. Will be bringing the dslr out teehee hopefully we get to take a lottttt of pictures!

#475

2009-05-26T20:55:00.000+08:00

#475 things I want in a lover:

Someone who will hold my hand and then smile when I look at them in wonder.

The only thing that matters

2009-05-26T20:34:00.001+08:00

"Stop talking about love. Every asshole in the world says he loves somebody. It means nothing… What you feel only matters to you, what you do to the people you say you love, that’s what matters– the only thing that counts."

I don't miss you, but I miss who you used to be

2009-05-25T22:17:00.007+08:00

Saturday//
Bloody sick, fever, nose, cough, throat
Han's for lunch
Shopping @ FEP
Bought a dress
Bb bought a Topman cardigan
Pasir Ris MRT, walked to Downtown East
Reminded me of bb's 20th birthday chalet, so much fun we had
Went to Corinne's 21st birthday celebration bbq!
So honored to be invited ^^ hope you like the dress, C! Enjoy yourself at BKK :)
Stayed 'til about 10ish
Walked to White Sands, took 89 back home

Happy birthday, ah meow//meowlyn//m//act one van der Woodsen :)

Sunday//
Home all day
The Hills & CJ7 kept me busy
So glad Kay Kay won S factor!!

Shenae Grimes on JustJared

You'd know her as Annie Wilson if you watched 90210. I don't get it why people hate her so much on the show. I thought she was quite likable! And rumors said that she's gonna turn into a bad girl in 90210 S2. She's been a goody good two shoes for way too long. Some drama for Annie! I like her pair of lace leggings, so pretty.

Taken from: failblog.org

ONE SLUT TO GO PLEASE!
Seeeeeeriously, Raffles Hotel??? I wonder what 'Slut' this is. Food or whatever it is. I really wanna know. Damn kpo!

School's starting next week and I happily spent the entire (almost) two weeks break lazing at home. Job-hunting just now. Sent out my resume at least more than 10x!! I'm hoping to get some replies tomorrow. Candy Empire, which I sent my resume to last week, called me this afternoon! And due to some issues, they are gonna call me back on Monday instead. I hope they put me at Harbourfront instead of Millinia Walk. Travelling from Queenstown - City Hall - Sengkang/Bukit Panjang = DIE DIE DIE! Talking about Queenstown, I need to make payment for remodule really soon :( byebye $241

On a lighter note, coming Wednesday we're gonna go play badminton again but it is with Aunt Shirley! Looking forward :> Thursday, hanging out with my girls!! Sexcited. Though I don't know what are we gonna do hehe. Oh, this reminds me. WHEN IS OUR BFF TIMES HUH BFF!? BLOODY HELL.

Ok bye this space is getting so boring. I've recovered so it's time for my camera to be back in action. :)

Because I'm one of the lucky ones..

2009-05-22T02:38:00.000+08:00

..to be in love and in love with the right person; you.

To most of you, this may be nothing but to me, it is something.

The latter may be an old photo of us but looking at it now does bring back some memories. Yoshinoya, studying for Os, both dressed in red, happy and giggly. It is one of my all-time favourite photo of us, how can I not remember that?

Laugh, you may but it melted my heart when I saw these photos made out of Photofunia. Nothing interesting but the thought of her doing it for us, with our photos - love. She, who don't own a romantic bone at all, is my beloved girlfriend of 1 year, 11 months, 23 days which is exactly 724 days. These seven hundred odd days, I've done countless things that I simply don't understand why I did but I just did. Maybe you don't get what I'm driving at but to the most of you, 'all in the name of love', don't we all agree?

And for the rest of you, I hope that one day you will have the experience of doing something you do not understand for someone you love.

P/s: to one of my favourite girls, ban mian: i love you and thanks for the text last evening. it shocked me, indeed but after reading it, I feel like giving you a fat, juicy, 'exclusive; only for you' kiss. miss you a lot, if you're wondering! see you soon sweetheart :)
P/p/s: thank you bb, i love you so much (♥)

I'm not aware of how I could possibly love you without aching

2009-05-21T22:46:00.000+08:00

Oh, LV love :)

Badminton was so, so good yesterday. I have to admit I never loved sports this much. I'm going to do it again, and I'm gonna do it on a weekly routine. Yesterday was probably the first time in few years since I last moved my muscles!!

And it is causing my whole body to ache like hell now............

Well, the result for not exercising regularly!! Bb said we'll gym next week but gotta plan again to fit Zel's and her timetable. Speaking of timetable, I'm jobless. One more week and class starts. Holy crap :(

And today, I was supposed to go over to Jems' for movie marathon but sighhh fever have to ruin it! It was horrible last night. Burning up at 38.6deg and I sat in front of the lappie all the way 'til 3am. Too hot I couldn't sleep at all!!

When you are sick, in bed, can't sleep and bored, you surf the net. So that is what I did for the past few days when I don't watch The Hills. Guess what I found! Super cutesy things :)

Hello Kitty or flowers?

Katy Perry!

Hospital de Hello Kitty!

Effing cute!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hello Kitty AK47

Damn cute shoes that I wouldn't wear out if I have them!

Oh, today, Aunty Shirley & cousins came over :))))) totally made my day. My lovely voice kinda scared them. How horrible, I sound like a boy! And I spent the whole time job hunting, sending resumes and thinking of movies to watch/download, new psp games to download.

AND GUESS WHAT CAME IN THE MAIL TODAYYYY!!! The black bow headband I bought from Hippielippie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D I'm in love with it. My mom thinks I'm nuts for buying it at $10 hahaha. I'm contemplating to get the red one now. Or blue one?? Indecisive!

Ok, that's all folks. I'm gonna go watch The Hills or Gossip Girl. While blog-hopping, someone had to be spoiler and kinda blogged about the ending. Oh thanks much! I have to watch it 'cos I heard _ said _ to _!!!!!!!!! OK BAI

P/s: One week to our 2nd year :)
P/p/s: and no plans at all. :/

Should you want me, I'm yours completely

2009-05-18T23:15:00.001+08:00

Exams are over!!!!!!
So are the weekends, boohoo :( Within these two weeks, I'm going to do everything I wanna do :) But ughhhhhh flu has to come right now. I was saying that I wanna fall sick but not now!!!!! :( Ok back to update!

On Thursday, we had our last paper, Advertising. I sat in for the longest time! Usually I'd be out by 10am or latest 11am. I was in there until about 1145am! Amazed, I truly am.. I was actually done at 11am but I just wanna ensure that I wrote everything to the best of my knowledge.

After the paper, we went Far East Plaza for ayam penyet!!

Yummy food filled my tummy. I was about to burst! We went to walk around and spent almost 3-4 hours there shopping! Jems bought a pink polka dot dress & a vintage floral top from Litmus & a cutesy light blue jumper, and a pair of denim sandals to go with it! (That outfit was purrrrfeck for a picnic, I totally luv the look on her) Shimmy bought a acid wash button down mini skirt and a belt. And me? I only bought a pair of earrings :( I didn't see anything I like, dammit.

Went to visit bff @ work! We camwhored in her shop, talked and all that. There's a few more piccas of Jemsy posing as Micheal Jack Then we left for DFS :) After walked around DFS, we headed home. It was a great day, really. I love hanging out with the girls. Zoe, you should come on our next gathering ok!!!! :D

On Saturday, I booked tickets online the night before to catch 17 Again! Due to some interruptions, we were late but still, the show was amazing!!

The whole time in the theatres, I couldn't get my eyes off the screen at all. Hahaha he's soooo handsome!! Hotter than when he was in HSM3 ;)

After that, we walked to Cineleisure, then to Heeren. Bought something from Diva, finally!!!!!! It's been soooo long since I last bought something from Diva! Cabbed to Singapore Flyer for dinner. I was starving 'cos I missed lunch, thanks to the interruption. We had Popeye's again!

My favourite - 3 crispy chicken strips!

If you have not tried Popeye's, you really should! Get a mashed potato too. It is damn good! The fries are like, Long John Silver's. Very niceeeeeeeee! Don't try their onion rings, it taste quite bad :/ Like burnt? I don't know but looking at the pictures now, It's making me hungry :(

During dinner, we bumped into Vanessa & her girlfriend! They were looking for seats and we were sitting on a four-seater so we sat together. Talked, blah blah blah. We left after dinner, leaving them with theirs.

Thereafter, we took a bus to Far East :) Bought stuff for my jewelry making! Yay I'm finally gonna DIY something, so excited!! Walked around, bought nothing again. It really sucks to be me, bleah :(

Then we went for desserts!! I wanted Haagen Dazs but the last time we went there, it was so crowded that we couldn't get a seat and missed it so we decided to just go for Slice instead. Bumped into one of bb's secondary school friend, pretty Jeline :)

Yeh yeh Breakfast in Bed again!! We really need to hunt for new dessert place, bee, I know you are getting sick of Slice :/ I wanna try new food as well. Really need to hunt for them, hmm.. Walked to Wisma, GAP, F21 and took a train home.

It's been a long tme since we last took a photo together :) :)

Pick-ups this week :)

On Sunday, I spent the entire day at home. Had Long John Silver takeaway for dinner and watched Beverly Hills Chihuahua on the lappie! :)

Today, J, Zel & I went for lunch at Hougang Mall. Ban Mian (L)(L)(L)!!!! Deeeeeeelicious :> We went arcade after lunch hahaha it was fun!!

Spent $10 at the arcade. Bowling, street basketball, motorbike racing! After that, we took a train back and took LRT to Farmway! Went to the Mac's there for ice-cream and booked a court for badminton this Wednesday!! Sounds like an exciting week ahead but with the flu here...... :( I hope it isn't here to stay. The migraine is really killing me.

I guess I really need a lot of rest. I've been sleeping at 3am and waking up at 11am with approx 8 hours of sleep. NOT GOOD! I shall pop a pill and go to bed early tonight. Not sure if there is project meeting for GP tomorrow though.. I really hope I remember it wrongly so I get to stay home again tomorrow. Bleah, sucks to be ill :(

P/s: Oh HI and thanks for the comments! I'll reply to them on my next post, when I'm (hopefully) feeling better!

When you jerk away from holding hands with me, you didn't know these habits hurt important parts of me.
Remember when you were sweet & unexplainable?

don't wanna fight no more

2009-05-13T01:24:00.000+08:00

< rant >

I can't fight anymore. Limit is here, at the brim and I cannot go on anymore. No more one last try, let's try again - No. What point there is when I give in my all for this love and you barely gave..nothing? Not even two fucks. You care more about whether I did insult your best friend, or if there is anything else that you can protect, shield or side your best friend for. One more try for you to continue admiring your best friend in front of your failed girlfriend & smile & giggle whenever she is spoken of in our conversations or one more try for you to redeem yourself & make this good again?

So, what now? Best friend triumphs over your bloody girlfriend of coming 2 fucking years in exactly 16 days' time? What a right time all these came, my dear. Just when I thought I was in pure bliss, nothing I can ask for other than more time to spend with you and better days ahead. When you asked, I still thought it was ok 'cos things were going well, just exactly how I want it to be. I wished things would stay as they were but remember, they say good things don't last but bad ones last longer just so you would treasure the better ones when it comes. Good things, they don't last. Here comes the Huge problem with a capital H in bold.

Bravo. Well done. Good job! Fantastic. Excellent. So fabulous. What else can I say?

I will stop all that loving. Maybe one day when you love someone so much, you are willing to do everything for them, there is nothing that you wouldn't do for them and that someone turns their back on you, treats you less than how you oughta be treated then you'll know how hurt and painful this is. I'm not crying, not tearing either. I have made my mind that you will go one level down and more to go. And "until you love someone else?", I just pretended like I don't know what you are talking about but I totally got you. That is what you think. Just tell me how much you treasure this, or even me.

Oh wait, were you looking for a flight of stairs? Sorry, I didn't find a place big enough to build that stairs so you can get off the stage. You and everything you said to hurt, to prick & to irritate me will always be remembered.

I should be off to bed to dream of how to get more money for the supp paper for the upcoming/forth/last paper. Sigh, you win already lor, you can giggle and smile all you want.

Should I just put it simply that you were never in Team G? Fancy siding someone on the outside and not someone who is in the circle. (Y) Well done!

Promises are just words unless they are fulfilled

2009-05-10T23:28:00.000+08:00

Happy Mumsy's Day!!
To all mothers, grandmothers, mothers-to-be, grandmothers-to-be :)
And also to you my mummy dearest! Your bag will arrive in two weeks, really hope you'd like it :)

On Wednesday, I spent the entire day studying. Lunch with Zel at Subway in the noon, bought mumsy's day presents for godmas & headed back home to study. The email from Anna ruined my mood and entire day to study. But thank God for girlfriend & bff <3

On Thursday, the paper started at 9am. Poor Jemsy didn't slept a wink at all just to cram everything into her head. She looked extremely dreamy! I thought I was the worst 'cos I slept at 3am & woke up at 6am but she was worse!! I was just as dreamy..so dreamy that I left my waterbottle & left the classroom & only realised it when I wanted to drink while waiting for bff, Jems & Shimmy. After they were all done, girlfriend came to hand in her insurance and we left together. Jems went home, Shimmy went to work, the three of us went to Far East for lunch. Graffiti Cafe for pontian mee!

To be honest, the food is good. But what I really hate is the numbering. There'll be number-calling for you to get your food when it's ready and it sounds like you're at the clinic. When we first heard it, bff was like, "What the hell, sounds like we're in the clinic & it's damn irritating!" Imagine if there's 5 customers in queue and it keeps ringing like no tomorrow..... Bff ate as fast as she could, she left immediately after that for work. After girlfriend & I were done, I bought a pair of plain black high waist shorts! Finally :) Visited bff at work after her boss left. Tried on the clothes and left after awhile. Bought my pens from Muji Paragon, then took a bus to girlfriend's place. I wanted to sleep but girlfriend kept disturbing me, asking me about Restaurant City, bloghopping and all that. Stayed on until about 6ish and cabbed home. I was so tired, I fell asleep in the cab!

She said we'd be friends again, because she could see from your eyes that you wanna patch things up but something is stopping you. I'm wondering if it's her.. And I do hope her sixth sense is right. Honestly, I do want our friendship back. I miss being your friend. I miss "I don't know, I don't care, I love cheap cheap underwear". I miss being your sister's friend. I miss being your sister's boyfriend's friend.

On Friday, I had lunch with the family at Swensen's. Dad was so sweet to accompany us during lunch. But a lot more unhappy things happened, bloody hell. I was damn pissed off but whatever, it's over and nothing will ever change until the day I can finally walk out of this. Anyway, mom bought me a dress (which I hate it already) and a tube top from Outfitter Girls! Sweeeeeeet :)

We had coffee after dinner at Ya Kun :) Sissy had eggs and I bought hotdog from the nearby store, I forgot what's the name :x We also bought coiled bands from the accessories storea at the mall!

Weekends came and went really quick. I spent both days at home studying. Saturday's dinner was at Jalan Malu Malu. THE WORST MEAL I EVER HAD, THE WORST PLACE TO HAVE IT AT AS WELL. The whole place was filled with roaches, lizards & mozzies!! Bloody disgusting I hate that place. I don't deny the food is pretty good there but nooooooooo way! Environment places a big part too, doesn't it!? I told mom I would never ever go to that place ever again. First and the last time it shall be!

This is the stupid place, so damn crowded!

Tonight's dinner was the best of the best. We went for zi char at Toa Payoh, our all-time favourite place. Cereal prawns, chilli crabs, sambal kangkong and yam cake! Afterwards, we went to Anchorvale McDonald's for ice-cream! I'm very full now... I cannot finish my fruit at all but I eally have to try and finish it bleah :(

Looking at the pictures now makes me feel like puking out everything... I'm so damn bloody full! Oh, and sorry for the blur pictures!! My phone is really destroyed. It is in a real bad condition. I forgot to bring the cam along so I just had to use the phone's camera. And also, I'm very uncertain about the watermarks. Should I do it, or should I not. I don't know. Got overdue photos from Monday & Tuesday but I'll upload them in the next post, probably.

Two more papers to go, four more days & I'm done with this. Two weeks break, and class starts again. Oh my god, this really sucks. Meanwhile, I'll need a part-time job. I don't wanna be lazing around doing nothing & waiting for money to come in like that. I'm logging off after this. Early today because..long story. All started with the AC in the master bedroom to be down, ugh!

P/s: Zel is watching HSM3 on DVD for the 38759837347239847th time.

Some days I make it through & then there's nights that never end

2009-05-05T23:34:00.004+08:00

x cabbed to school
x paper got postponed to 9am, but in the timetable it states that paper starts at 8.30am and i was on time for the first time in so many paper I've taken in MDIS.....
x the paper killed a lot of my brain cells omg
x gave jemsy the little gift - it's an rainbow-banded pink underwear!
x ikea for lunch, quick shopping and revision
x swedish meatballs, chicken wings, spaghetti, hotdog and soft cone!
x cutesy jems carrying backpack and getting on the bike - got captured on camera :D
x met marilyn at dhoby ghaut
x took train home
x went arcade - racing and basketball!
x bought pen from the bookstore and headed home
x ZAC EFRON WAS ON ELLEN THIS EVENING OMG HE ~DAZZLED~ ME THROUGH THE TV!
x bff is finally on twitter, follow her if you like :) I advise you not to, you will regret
x baby dearest is very sweet today, feels like i'm in love again...... <3

photos will be up another time, comments will be replied in next post
i'm reading my notes and doozing off at the same time
really need sleep....

goodnight for now!

p/s: oh, happy birthday Jamie, my primary school friend :) luvluv
p/p/s: i love you baby :)

I have been afraid of change because I built my life around you

2009-05-04T01:22:00.000+08:00

I'm scared that I might have to let go for good this time.

I really do not want to, do not wish to either.
And I love you so so so fucking much.
We were given second chance.
How many people in the world are given a second shot at love?


I love you <3

Big girls still cry, so please be patient with me

2009-05-03T23:04:00.001+08:00

'Time flies', as the saying goes. I was so glad to be reminded of him whenever I saw what he gave me when I was a little girl. Two years, today, there we were praying, at his second death anniversary. I still find it a wee bit hard that he is not around anymore. But I know, wherever he may be right now, he would want the best for me. I love you, kai-pa.

Woke up early and headed down to the temple to meet the rest of the family. Did the necessary praying and all that. Left at around 10.30am for breakfast at Braddell. Then we headed home. I studied a little of JNB before I start preparing to meet bb. I can't just go out without studying, I feel so bad :/

We went to Plaza by the Park. Had dim sum for start, since we were gonna meet the couple for dinner. The Kopitiam just renovated and it looks a lot better right now. The chairs are so cute, it's translucent! I always wanted the red one. There was this cafe at Millinia Walk, I don't know if it is still there, they've got all those colourful translucent chairs. Very pretty!

Siew mai, char siew bao

Chee cheong fun

Carrot cake

I really wanna have proper dim sum now at a restaurant. I want Crystal Jade. I want Hai Tian Lou :( sucks that dad is no longer a member at Pan Pacific arrrrgh ever since then, we stopped dining at Hai Tian Lou or going Pan Pac for drinks pfft

Raffles City, shopped around & bought nothing
Sat on the benches at City Link while waiting for bff to reply
Waited, and waited and waited and waited AND WAITED
We walked over to the train station and continued to wait.
Wait, waiting, waiting, been waiting.
Basically we didn't go anywhere but we spent the entire day waiting for bff to reply. Tsktsk *shakes head. AND FINALLY bee & I went to walk around at the basement of Raffles City to check out what we should have for dinner if they are not joining us. Shokudo seems nice but long queue! We chose Aerin's instead.

While waiting for them to come, we went to The CD Shop at came out $50 poorer. There was a promo going on, any three cds (selective ones) going for $49.90! When we walked in, they were playing Joanna Wang's songs which I've been wanting for a long long time since I worked at Cathay. Gramophone always play her songs! Very nice :)

Bevlyn Khoo's You Are My Angel

Joanna Wang's Start From Here

Olivia Ong's Fall In Love With

I've gotten most of the songs by Olivia Ong and bb just sent me the other two albums. I've to say Bevlyn Khoo is another great singer. Her voice is damn nice! I love the song You're My Angel from the album. It was originally sang by another Hong Kong singer. It was one of the theme songs for the drama series, which I cannot remember the name hahha. She wanted to get M.Y.M.P's new album, Absolute Acoustic but the only outlet that has got it is Paragon. So I told bb that I'll try to get it for her online instead since we won't be going town next weekend.

After that, we went to Aerin's, sat around and waited for them to come.

It's a very nice place to have dinner at, to be very honest. I love the ambiance there :) bb said we'll come here often if I like, teehee! They came and we started ordering our food and making hell lot of noise disturbing each other. Bff & Marilyn were sho schweeeeeet, they bought bb & I a bag of gummy sweets from Mark & Spencers :)))) Sank yew la sank yew!!!!

Marilyn's: M's affair - nice name but weird colour for a drink??

Bb's & bff's: Fish & Chips - a Must Try!! on the menu, IMO I think it's not too bad!

Mine: Spaghetti Prawn - very fresh prawns but overall, I don't like it

Marilyn's: Fish for Snapper (or whatever it is called) - very small portion!

Heard someone talking loudly and when I turned around, it was Gab and Deb, the adorably sweeeet couple! I love the two of them together :) I texted her and she turned around to say hi! Nice seeing you Deb, sorry that I didn't get a chance to say bye to you. You were really sweet by the way hehe!

Bill came, camwhored and left for the night market! Bought biscuits again, my favourite snack! I used to eat so much when I stayed in Gran's place. After moving out of Ang Mo Kio, mom don't buy me the biscuits cos only Gran knows I love it, especially when dipped into hot coffee! Teehee we walked the night market for the last time as they are closing already. Walked them to the bus stop and bb walked me home. I'm still smiling over her 'best friend below girlfriend, family same as best friend' & her 'xie xie girlfriend, okay, xie xie girlfriend'. :D

Today was spent at home, with the textbooks and notes. I almost lost control of my feelings today. I could've just taken the plunge and I won't be here right now. I need to start learning how to keep myself calm, don't take certain unnecessary things too seriously.

I was just saying that I wanna have dim sum earlier on in this entry and guess what mom just told me!!! She's bringing me for dim sum tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D And dad's driving which means yay I can wear heels :D Finally something worth being happy over.

OHZ by the way, M.Y.M.P's Absolute Acoustic is faaaaaaaaaaaaabulous. Every song is so soothing, it's like a lullaby. Very nice to fall asleep to. :)

OKI SAY GOODNIGHT AND GO FOR NAO. S factor is coming up on Channel 5 in awhile!

I need your voice on the phone to remind me of how brave I am

2009-05-01T23:40:00.000+08:00

A long update ahead!
I'll try to keep it short and sweet though. Need to head back to the notes after this!

28th April, Tuesday
I was home with bff all day. Studying JNB, writing notes, checking Restaurant City throughout.

I was writing notes, while bff was resting..
"Oh, one customer left because too slow.... You need a new table... Customer left... Not enough table... One more left..."

If you do play RC, you'd know what am I talking about.
She was chanting away and I couldn't take it, I went OK SHUT UP I KNOW EARNING 2 BUCKS FROM EVERY CUSTOMER IS NOT ENOUGH RELAX I WILL BUY MORE TABLES AND BETTER STOVE!!

29th April, Wednesday
It was our 23rd month anniversary but I, unfortunately, woke up to a bad start. Got shouted at for a morning call. Had lunch at Mac's with bee. Bff came later in the afternoon and we went to the library to study. Bee stayed for awhile to read books (and also disturb us hahaha). After she left, bff did something so slyyyyyy that got me laughing. Bought a little something for Jemsy! Really hope she likes it! saw it and thought of her hehe! Pass to you on Tuesday when I see you for the paper babe :) bought magazines and waited for Marilyn to come before I left for home.

The other day, I was complaining that the table I'm using right now is about to break in no time if I continue to use it with my heavy laptop and laptop cooler. So I told mom I wanted a new one and hopefully a bigger one.

Guess what my parents got for me?

New table for me!

A new, much bigger folded table! How sweet of them ^^

Zel went to the library to study with her friend, so it was just the three of us for dinner. Peace and quiet, me likey! Mom and dad went to the mall to get some stuff and picked sis on their way back. They came home with a cake from Breadtalk for mom! We sang the birthday song and took pictures (we were in boxers and pale faces hahahaha) as dad thinks that we won't have the time to do it the next day after coming home from the concert.

30th April, Thursday
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!
I love you ♥ :)

Mom wasn't home all day until late evening. Bff and I had lunch over at my place and we studied until she had to leave to meet Marilyn. Play was having the PJS party and ugh I missed it because it was mom's birthday and exams are coming, I can't just leave the books and party like that, I feel bad if I do :/ I love themed parties, we should have a themed party soon.

After I got dressed up, we left for NAFA Campus 3. It was SJC's AE Night and Zel was performing so we bought tickets to watch. Met Zel outside the theatre, talked for a bit and we went to sit while she went backstage to prepare.

Saw a lot of familiar faces. Favourite part of the concert? The part when everyone sang along to the IJ song, Hold on to Our Dream. Felt like home again :) I miss being an IJ girl, in a blue uniform, a 10 minutes walk to and fro school, and not having to worry about money at all :(

No photos, it's still in the dslr!

1st May, Friday
Public holiday, Labour Day, came at the right time when all of us needed a break from school or work. Went over to Aunt Shirley's place for a gathering. It felt like it was weekend already but it was only Friday. Too excited about the weekend, aren't I? I had a lot of fun with the two girls, Jermaine and Jenae. Jenae is getting very very naughty! She pulled Jermaine's hair to ask her to go away. She whined and pretended to cry so she'd get what she want. Really naughty!

After we had dinner and set around until about 10pm, Zel suggested to have supper at the newly opened Mac's outlet at Anchorvale Community Center so we all went. It was a greeeaaat night :)

Photos are with Zel and she just refused to send them to me! :@

Mom asked my maid to let Elmo sit in the sun occasionally to avoid bad odours and bed bugs. Guess what she did to Elmo? This was what I saw in the balcony when I woke up in the morning.

I know right!? Elmo's like commiting suicide in the wrooooong way hahaha!

YAY Saturday is finally here :) :) <3
Blog more with photos later!

2009-05-01T22:48:00.000+08:00

Because sometimes there is no easy way out. You just have to grin & bear it. Sometimes the only escape route is to go straight through the flames, just brace yourself & bite your lip. Sometimes you have to sever the ties clean off. Because in every relationship there comes a point when the damage is too much & no matter how good it once was, the memories can't sustain you. You have to save yourself knowing all the while it will hurt like hell. Because you can't keep giving someone everything if you get nothing in return.

Have a great weekend ahead guys :)
I hope this PH came at a good time for all for you to take a break. It was a good one for me, indeed. ~~I'll be on blogging as soon as I find the time to tear myself away from the revision.~~ BLOGGED! And guess what? I'm done revising with two modules, two more to go!

Saturday tomorrow = out with bb, lunch/dinner with bff & her act one van der Woodsen girlfriend :)

Happy 23rd, love ♥

2009-04-29T00:02:00.001+08:00

Happy 23rd to us! ♥

29th is here again, which spells our special day. Amazing how I still anticipate the arrival of every month's 29th. And another month would be our second year! I'm really excited even though we've not planned anything just yet but because this is the longest relationship I ever had and it is with you :)

I don't know how I found you but I'm thankful that I have. Thank you for being with me through out all these times, be it good or bad. Thank you for being my wonderwall, for being there whenever I need you. Thank you for helping me solve my million and one problems whenever I come up to you. Darling, stay close, don't go. I cannot see myself with anyone but you.

I promise that I do have the biggest heart to love you with.
I love you, Jvern Ng :)

P/s: Can't wait to celebrate with you on Saturday!
P/p/s: Not forgetting, happy 23rd to bff and her ah m (act one van der Woodsen) too! How nice that we celebrate this day together every month. Also a constant reminder that we gotta pressies for our girlfriends whenever the day is approaching. Hm, me likey!

All I need to know is that I'm something you'll be missing

2009-04-27T23:28:00.001+08:00

Love - a wildly misunderstood although highly desirable malfunction of the heart which weakens the brain, causes eyes to sparkle, cheeks to glow, blood pressure to rise & the lips to pucker.

I miss you gal gal :( I know you'll be like giving me that what the hell? look in reply to that. I ~~kinda~~ want you here with me right now. It feels horrible here, all over again. I'm just stressing myself up over nothing, nothing at all. It's what is coming and what I'm about to face that I am afraid of. I don't know, I just feel like this battle is too much for me. I can't keep fighting, going on like how I've been for the past years. I'm so so exasperated. Like I said today, if I cannot take it anymore, I will go off from here. This is where I'll leave this as it is. I cannot take it anymore.......

Hate what we spoke of today. Hate what we discussed over lunch. Hate the things I've to worry about.

(Anonymous: Keep your comments to yourself. You can go bitch about me in your MSN conversation with your bff, I don't really care. Unless necessary, or you think it is worth it, you might wanna risk leaving your crap here as a comment. I might accept it, I might delete it. Up to you :))

Y'know honestly, I just wanna know that throughout tough times like these, you won't desert me. I only wanna know that you'll help me through this no matter how hard is it gonna be for you or for me. I don't know why it aches so much here typing this, why my eyes are all watery...

Well, okay back to updates! Today:
x I woke up early
x postman ('twas a female, actually..) came by my doorstep and gave me the package, package filled with my pretty blazer!!!!
x helped Gran with her ezlink card and accompanied her to wait for her bus
x had lunch at Ajisen with bblove
x Apple red earpiece or Philips Bubbles SHE3650? - I cannot decide!
x bff came, bought food and bb walked us back to my place before leaving for home
x 'm glad bblove likes the blazer! her expression was like :S when she was trying it on
x settled down, studied and did 3 topics in less than 4 hours!
x watched Ellen, and we studied until dad came home from his jog
x bff left, we had dinner!
x tv, facebook - restaurant city, MSN conversations

Grandma, get well soon, I love you (L)

Sometimes I wish life isn't this tough. Sometimes I wish I don't have to fight to get what I want. Sometimes I wish I was a spoilt princess who gets whatever she wants without having to work for it. Sometimes I wish love is for ever. Sometimes I wish our distances could be less than 10 kilometres away from each other. Sometimes I wish I could run, run to a faraway place to stay happy. Sometimes I wish happiness isn't short-lived. Sometimes I wish you could be me for a day so you'll know why I've been/I'm worrying myself sick.

Didn't mean to have another emo post on again tonight but my life sucks right now (or rather, it is just me) as you can tell. I'm crossing my fingers and hoping that tomorrow will be much better, I will feel better and mugging with the girls would make me gay and chippy :)

Love all, goodnight.

P/s: I just realised my last movie was really long ago. Ftw Mall Cop!?
P/p/s: Two more days to 29th!!!!!!!!!!!!!
P/p/p/s: I feel green when I see happy couple, fml

All those lovers are liars, I'd never lie to you

2009-04-27T00:29:00.000+08:00

I never had a chance to say and I know you'd come on here to read so here it goes:

I'm sorry.

Although they are the words you don't wish to hear from me right now but I still have to say it. I'm sorry that I lied. I'm sorry that I didn't tell you the truth and having to hide. I won't let this happen again.

I'm sorry, I love you.
Forgive me, will you?

Besides that, you failed me again. No texts until you got home from lunch with them at Graze. Disappointed? I guess I am. Exasperated? Maybe I am not. Maybe I'm just giving up already. Maybe I should start living this life like I'm alone, with no one else to tell my whereabouts and text when I'm with my friends, then you'll know why I'm acting like this.

Why do I bother so much, really, tell me why, I wanna know.

I'll blog later, till then!

It always fascinated me how people go from loving you madly to nothing at all

2009-04-25T23:21:00.001+08:00

You're seeing her tomorrow, can I say that I am worried for things to turn bad for us again? Can I trust you enough to know that you're not gonna give me nonsense like, leaving me alone & not telling me your whereabouts until you finally decided that the party's over and you should text/call me to check in?

The whole point is I trust you enough not to do that. Cross my fingers, you're not going to repeat the same mistake that caused my heart to break bit by bit.

Today was a great day, 'cept the burning at 34 degree weather. Despite wearing a very comfy dress, I still feel the heat. Dammit, what's wrong with you weather!?

We had lunch at TCC! Finally, my cravings for wedges are gone hehehe

Lychee Jazz

Wedges with cheese!

Seafood Aglio Olio

The pasta bb had was great. Garlic and the fresh prawns and scallops, it was fantastic. The wedges are so well fried, really love it! Looking at it now makes me drool and want some............

(the night flower scent is making my nose fucken itchy, hate it!)

Went FEP to look for the high waist shorts I was dreaming of since the day I saw it. Guess what? It is not fated to be mine. The shop is under renovation. Arrrrrgh never mind so we went on to shop but I lost the mood. I've been anticipating to get but ugh no more :( bff asked me to consider the Topshop one..but I don't know, I'll keep that in mind though.

Took a fucking hot bus to Marina Square. We were perspiring in the bus! The AC is helpless, I swear -.- Bb was still hungry and I was damn thirsty so we sat down at Quick Bite.

Original Lover

She insisted that I'm the one who was still hungry after lunch at TCC!! When I took out the camera to take pictures of her eating, she pretended like she wasn't eating hahaha damn sickening!

So who's the one who is hungry after lunch!?

Went Times bookstore and bought the books! 3 books for the price of 2! The cheapest book will be the free one :)

Cecelia Ahern's Thanks for the Memories

James Patterson's 7th Heaven

Dorothy Koomson's Goodnight, Beautiful

Obviously 7th Heaven belongs to bb hahaha I don't read such books! Two of my favourite authors, Dorothy Koomson and Cecelia Ahern :) I'm reading the book by the latter first!

After that bb went home and I went to meet my family for dinner at..

Joaquim!

Dinner to celebrate mom's birthday in advanced 'cos on Thursday, Zel has got performance at NAFA so we're all going down to support her :) Grandma came along for dinner! Didn't snap much, was busy taking the food for everyone haha not eating! I didn't eat much, I wasn't really in the eat-a-lot mood.

We each got our own individual pots so it's quite cute. And one thing fo'sure, it's definitely much more hygenic! The soup - herbal chicken, bak kut teh and tom yam! I took the bak kut teh one, not good! I prefer the tom yam one. Herbal chicken soup has got ginseng and I can't sleep if I drink ginseng soup!

All in all, the food's quite good! There's hot station which has got fried tapioca, fried banana, rojak and popiah. The variety of dessert is quite wide as well. The fruit tart sucks, I'm still looking for great fruit tart other than the ones at SSC and Delifrance!

Mom said I should be charged at a child's price 'cos I barely ate, which is true. I walked around to get food for them more than I sat down to eat hehehe!

After that we went shopping at GAP! 30% off store-wide lasts until Sunday!!! Bought presents for godpa and Jon. Bought nothing for myself. Dammit. I was contempleting if I should get the polka dot boxer and the GAP tee :( I should've just gotten it seeeeeriously!

Okay gotta log off now, high tea with the family tomorrow. Another round of eating, omg this sucks! Fucking tired from standing and walking, I'm turning in early on a Saturday night, amazing!

I'll never let your head hit the bed without my hand behind it

2009-04-25T02:29:00.001+08:00

Because I wanted to check something and also to check when was the last time I did my hair before the trip with bff last week or the week before, I read hhheartbreakhotel and theklassiquecrime a little.

hhheartbreakhotel was so much happier but theklassiquecrime was so sad. Everything was sad, talking about smashed hearts and broken dreams, people who came, left without turning back to look at all and threw their rear-view mirrors away. I could sense the sadness seeing the layout again.

But bottom line is, am I really happy now? Is this what I really wanted?

but anyway p/s: thanks bb for today, luv you so much <3
p/p/s: happy birthday ^.^ whether you know this is for you or not, whatever I don't care. I hope you are as happy as you are pretending to be.

That's a shame that love can't make you stay

2009-04-23T23:29:00.000+08:00

I'm so damn pissed off. I bought a striped vest for bb through a pre-order which means I've to make payment and wait for about 2-3 weeks before the item gets to me. I made payment, told the girl the transaction reference for her to check if the payment is in and all. After waiting in vain for about two weeks, I emailed her to ask about the status of the vest. GUESS WHAT? SHE DIDN'T TAKE IN MY ORDER, DIDN'T BOTHER TO EMAIL TO ASK AT ALL. Some kind of responsible seller she is huh. Okay, I would say partly it was my bad for not reading her email thoroughly before I make conclusion that I need not reply her email at all. In her email she said she needed my details which I have already given her but she needed my address which I completely missed out. But when I didn't reply her, she should have the responsibility to email me and ask, no? This is fucking fucked up. And now she said order is closed, items arrived, all mailed out and she have to refund me.

I'm not upset because she's irresponsible (duh?) but upset because i waited for something i really like in vain for weeks!

I swear, I already have bad impressions of her because 1) she is very unfriendly, 2) she is rude, 3) this incident - no responsibility. I'm not revealing what's the name of the shop or the url but if you ask me, I might tell you.

x TVRP exam guidelines
x Shimmy came for class!!!!!! (L)
x waiting for bus = HOT SUN HUMID HEAT DIE
x went Vivo City for lunch + a lil' shopping after class
x Long John Silver for lunch
x unproductive shopping but Jems bought a F21 neon pink 'I ♥ my boyfriend' tunic
x took train home, met bff, bought food up to my place
x watched telly, played Pet Society, watched Ellen :D
x bff left before dinner, I went to rest/talk to bb

NO VISUALS, BOOHOO :(

I've been looking for a new phone. This Nokia 6500S has been with me for a year now but it is such a pain in the ass! Memory card cannot function, hangs once in every while, battery life: 2 days if I don't text/call often, dropped it a lot of times, music player sucks. I want a new phone with WIFI hehe can go on MSN anytime anywhere :D

I got my eye on a few...

Samsung F480

Nokia E75

Nokia E63

I don't know if I should get a QWERTY keypad one or a touchscreen one. There's both good and bad reviews for both. I don't mind either one, as long as they have the functions I want in a phone! But because I want something different, not something that one of my family members already have. Che is using Samsung F480 now. Mom's gonna get Nokia 5800 XpressMusic. So I think I will take Nokia E75! Hehe plus it is available in red, black and copper yellow! RED! RED!! RED!!!

I'm feeling the ache... :( everywhere. Mom said it is caused by insufficient rest/sleep. I'm going to sleep early tonight, my eyes are still very painful but not as bad as yesterday. THANK GOD MR LIM CANCELLED TOMORROW'S CLASS! Time for me to sleep in until it's time for me to get up :) meeting bb tomorrow going over to her place for lunch and dinner after that ^^ yay finally some time with bb. Even though I see her everyday but we don't talk much, neither do we get to spend much time together. It's been two weeks since I last spent some alone time with her. Time really flies man..

OH one more thing before I go, I JOINED PLURK.COM! I was asked to join by Zoe but I didn't get down to do it. Today I finally did! It's so cute, there's some kinda karma points system and cute emoticon! So if you have plurk / twitter, follow me (that's what they are called) on Plurk or Twitter!

The wonders of Adobe Photoshop
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