I'd love to look into your face without your eyes turning away

I'm scared to fall asleep. I'm scared to wake up to tomorrow. I'm scared of facing what I have to face tomorrow. I don't know what surprises I might have again this time. There's consequences I'm scared to taste, cold hard truths I can't face. And the cold hard truth is..?

:(

(I'll blog about today's unproductive CNY shopping tomorrow. Veh veh tired now, on the phone with J..)


I feel like I've lost everything when you're gone. Left remembering what it's like to have you here with me. I thought you should know, you're not making this easy. I never thought I'd be the one to say, "Please don't, well please don't leave me."