I promise. Next year once I start blogging, I'll
notnever stop.
Blogging is an outlet for me and not blogging = keeping everything to myself. I cannot do it. I don't wanna do it. It's either that or trying to sum up my bad day in 140 characters on Twitter. It's not fun at all.
That aside, bee went Batam for a short getaway with her family. Before I left for BKK, we were arguing like mad almost everyday like it didn't matter whether I was leaving. It was the same when she was leaving. But just before we both left, everything was ok. Asking each other to be well, take care, eat well and stuff. She said (maybe not for you guys) the sweetest thing to me before she left: "Love you my baby, I will miss you. Catch you when I'm back!" It made me smile. Oh God, I'm tearing.
My phone's been silent after she left. No texts. No phone calls. No rushing to wherever my phone is when Ryan sings Love You Forever. No giggling while on the phone, no getting mad after hanging up. All until tomorrow.
I thought I'll be fine without her 'cos I always wanted some quite time alone. Now that I'm given, I don't want it. I'd rather have someone to talk to, someone to bug, someone to show what I found on the net and stuff.
This sucks.
Bee, promise me you won't go overseas anymore? Only with me? :(Labels: love and relationship, ramblings, saturday
