Mad love this commercial!
Avril Lavigne for Canon Singapore <3

Why am I the one who's still crying?

"When you truly trust someone you care about, you don't have to wonder if they love you as much as you love them."

Funny thing is, I wonder about this everyday.


I know you don't love me as much as I love you. I can't blame you. Maybe I'm not the same girl that you fell in love with

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Kelly Clarkson - Already Gone


This current earworm has been on repeat for 27 times and counting. The lyrics fits me very very well & it speaks of my emotions.


Please, I wanna be right where you are tomorrow. I need to be next to you, hand in yours wherever we go. I need the comfort. I don't wanna breakdown right now. I need to start Monday right so the week will be better than this..

#501 out of 1001 things I want in a lover: Someone who will do anything to see me, even if it's just for a minute

Current earworm: Lights - The Listening (Acoustic)

"Sometimes we need to stop analyzing the past, stop planning the future, stop trying to figure out precisely how we feel, and stop deciding with our mind what we want our heart to feel. more often than not, sometimes we just have to go with 'whatever happens, happens'."

Wish I could..

Been crying for the past hour. Guess I don't deserve to be happy. My happiness is always so short-lived. Wished you lived a little longer in me, happiness, my dear.

Every day I think about you half as much as I did the day before. But I'll never stop thinking about you. Your name still roll off my tongue all the time, you're a topic that I'll always bring up in conversations. Do you know that?


I wanna feel better soon. I guess I kept so much inside of me, I cannot take it anymore. I don't wanna be this sad, I wanna be okay. Just okay. Never mind if I'm not happy, because this unhappy life I've been living, I'm getting so used to it. I guess I'll be strong enough to take it all.

God, please..

You know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even with our fists held high
It never would have worked out right, yeah
We were never meant for do or die...

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hurt you now I can't stop...

I want you to know
It doesn't matter where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you wanna cry
It started with the perfect kiss then
We could feel the poison set in
"Perfect" couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know
It doesn't matter where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone

Ahhhh already gone, already gone, already gone
Ahhhh already gone, already gone, already gone

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye...

I want you to know
It doesn't matter where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on,
So I'm already gone

A subatomic blip in the temporal fabric of creation

A quick update!
I know I haven't been updating but check out my Twitter! Or follow me on Twitter (which is a much better choice, of course)!

Been spending very very little time with bee & it's making me feel so bad. I really wanna make time for her but :( sigh.. I hope work is not what that caused the distance between us. Can't wait to spend more time with you after school resumes. I love you baby :)


Work has been really good though very very tiring. Weekly I get $xxx, & monthly I'd probably get $xxxx!!! When it's pay day, we all look forward to it. But definitely, some of the money would go right back to Cy 'cos we work/shop at the same place hahahaha. Last week I got myself a wallet (finally paid for it) & bee came over, she bought a shirt! Hooray~ Supper nights with Cy, Hanice, Angela, Laura, Wen, Bff & myself. Nights where we work 'til dawn for the grand opening. Cleaning up the new office. Pick up new stocks, stock take, pack stocks 'til late. Shanelle & her club fights. Laura & her purchases hahahaha. Angela & her dirty thoughts. The one particular someone we all know we dislike the most. The new photo wall that would be up in the office/shops soon (!!!!) damn excited we can put up our beautiful faces heh heh!

Work has never brought this much amount of laughter, smiles & fatigue in my entire life. Oh, & not forgetting stress!! I treat this shop like my own, just so that I do my best & aim for the highest.


Here comes the rant.

Potluck picnic for my advance birthday celebration - which will be happening tomorrow - is a complete disappointment. The whole point of asking people to RSVP by Friday is just so that we have time to prepare enough drinks for everyone. Seems like everyone missed the point. They only start replying on late Friday or Saturday. Never mind that. Guess what? My closest friends are the ones not coming & the ones who didn't replied. (Y) Ftw "friends". I'm 75% sure it is because of your boyfriend, no? Prove me wrong. And no, I'm not pointing fingers at anyone at all. If you think it is you, so be it.

I'm so mad at myself. I should be the one organizing it instead of leaving it to you both. I should've known this plan wouldn't work out. I should've known no one will be attending at all. Why the fuck did I even thought of planning anything? I should've just spend a nice day out with bee to "celebrate". Fuck this, seriously. Like what bee said, if those who made an effort to come, good for the two of us; those who made an effort to apologise & explain why & would make it up (if it happens that is), good for me; those who did not, an eye for an eye.

I shouldn't get so affected, should I? Yeh totally.


This is one of my current earworms :)


Can't you see that I'm the one who understands you?
Been here all along, so why can't you see?
You belong with me

So here's my heart I'll give over & over again

HI I'M BACK WITH MY AUNTY HAIRDOOOOO~ I sat in the saloon for half a day for this hairdo. It is a life-changing decision, yknow. I never changed my hair style since my bangs days... I don't know if I were to say that I like or what. But I was really hoping for more of the natural look. I showed Aunty Brenda the picture of Vanessa Hudgens 'cos I really adoreeeeee her wave and fringe but it didn't turn out the same way. :( Aunt said it will after I wash my hair tomorrow. I really do hope so..

 

Uh this picture sure don't look like me.. Omg I see excess fats all on my face!

Anyway, I don't know if you guys know about the MTV Movie Awards. Robsten won the Best Kiss Performance!




Click on the images for the link to the video!

Do you think they deserve to win? I really think that Zanessa should win 'cos their kiss on HSM3 was so so so passionate. Much more better than Robsten on Twilight. They are both my favourite celebrity couples though. :> Wanna know more about the MTV Movie Awards 2009, you can watch it on MTV.com.


I shall blog about our second year anniversary!! Teehee how excited ^^

Girlf came to pick me after her class. When I met her at the mall, I realised her whole point of picking me up is to surprise me with the Apple red earpiece I wanted, which is only available at the Best Denki here. Awww :) but sadly, it is sold out. Wow, just when she planned to get it!! :(

Never mind about that. So we travelled to Cineleisure for lunch at Kobayashi! Love the food there~~
I had the omelette, girlf had the kimchi ramen. It is really good.

 

  

  

Love it when she is this happy =)

Wanted to catch Night at the Museum 2 but time clashes with our plan. Our plan was to have dinner at Vivo City Hog's Breath then to Clarke Quay to have cakes & still head home early to rest. We didn't get to watch the movie in the end. Postponed to another day! Checked out at iShop, they don't carry the same earpiece either. Grrr.. Should've just bought it that day huh. I really want an iTouch. Girlf said she'll ask my friends to share and get one for me. Oh sho schweet but then bff said she'll get me a Chanel bag, right bff???? :D HAHAHAHA

We didn't have anywhere specific to go so we just walked from place to place. Went to Taka! I was very tempted to get Auntie Anne & Churros. Omg cinnamon sugar (L) But I didn't! I saved space for a dinner that didn't turn out just the way I want it to be.... Then we walked to Wisma. Walked around, went to a few boutiques, saw few familiar faces. Headed off to Vivo City at around 4pm.

Went to the pet shop! The hamsters were so adorable!!!! Some sleeping, eating from their little pockets in their mouths, some playing on the wheel. Damn adorable. I'd love to have a pet :( if only mom isn't so particular about cleanliness around the house, hm.

 

Top: Online
Bottom: Far East Plaza
Bag: Louis Vuitton
Shoes: Far East Plaza

Earrings: Far East Plaza
Necklace: Chanel
Heart ring: Sketchbooklabel.lj
Bangles & bracelet: Diva

The background reminds me of Maria Mena's Calm Under The Waves. I love the new earrings a lot. It's a heart locket. I'm gonna make one of these really soon!

When we arrived at Hog's Breath.....

 

"...closed for reservations."

ARGH. This was what that spoilt our plans :( so we had Marche instead!!! Which also really excites me 'cos I have been craving for it since the last time I had it with girlf on our sixth month anniversary! Thinking of the food now really makes me drool....

 

  

Calamari Rings

Cream of Mushroom

 

I don't know what is this but it's nice!

We had a nice long dinner which cost us less than $50. Cosy, though noisy but I love it there. I can people-watch from the windows, with all my favourite food on the table. Hm, perfeckkkk :) A pity we didn't order Rosti this time. The queue was really long! And by the time it shortens, we were so full. I was bloated! After dinner, we sat by the waters, just the way I always wanted to do. Though it was quite crowded there, with every other couple or group of friends sitting around, eating, talking, we still enjoyed ourselves.

 

  

  

Fav!!!!!! (L)


Familiar? She had something like this too!


 

hey no mind the fats ah :D

Because we both didn't wanna spend too much as the two of us are on budget, girlf suggested that we get a watch for each other & make it our couple watch. Guess what? Despite today being our 735th day together, it is our first couple watch. Or our couple whatever. I know right!?!

 

Not a fan of watches like girlf is but I really like this one =)

She was so happy and excited that she wore it around the house the next day, and can't stop raving about it. I was just waiting in silent for a time to wear this out teehee and yesterday I did! I wore to class :D

Oh, not forgetting, my RL package for mom arrived on Saturday! I woke up to my maid telling me that my package has arrived. I was so happy, I jumped out of bed immediately. Although it is not for me, but I am still happy because I know mom will be thrilled. And indeed, she came through the door & I stood there posing with the bag in my pjs, she was like, "Oh, it's here!?!!" And I replied her, "Oh, not yet not yet.." Hahaha she said, "Oh okay then, continue waiting." Bloody hell. She saw it already & she still can tell me continue waiting..

I am sooooooooo going to get the red one. I cannot stop carrying this tote around like it's mine & dad thought I was gonna tell mom that I wanna use it. Yeh right, it's for her, how can I use it first!? Teehee wait until she don't wanna use it ~ :D

Because bff & girlf is asleep, I'm not talking to anyone on Plurk/Twitter, I think I will turn in early tonight. Really need my body clock to workkkkkk. Lunch with mama tomorrow, and unconfirmed day out with the girls after!

The only thing that matters

"Stop talking about love. Every asshole in the world says he loves somebody. It means nothing… What you feel only matters to you, what you do to the people you say you love, that’s what matters– the only thing that counts."

The breath between our lips when we kiss is something I hope I never have to miss

 

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

 

I love gossip guys.
I love vanity fair.
I have all of the common addictions.
I don't like that Louie Vuitton Monogram Pailletes Speedy.
I'm starting to like Kristewart a little more each time I see her as herself, not as Bella Swan.
I miss partying, getting drunk, laughing at everything & drinking 'til the last drop.

So hi, i had a fucking boring Wednesday. How was yours? Oh I had a interesting evening though. We were this close to getting into a fight but i deliberately replied her really slowly and also at the same time to calm myself down and clear my mind. And then it was resolved. All is well again :) Oh and one more thing, the surprise failed. I'm trying again though, probably tomorrow?? The sleazy song continues, seriously omg it is keeeeeling me! Jems and I imagined all of us being preggy and being mothers. We used the sweater as the baby bump hahaha it was so hilarious! Jems said she could imagine me as preggy woman and a mother. Aww :)

(edit)
I forget to mention it's our cai hong jie jie (rainbow sister which is what we always call Jems because she likes rainbow!) and her boyflen's 3rd year anniversary! HAPPY THIRD YEAR TO YOU BOTH LOVEBIRDS <3 damn happy for you jems :)

Tomorrow is television and radio production class - boring. But for the important topics and exam guidelines, i'm going for class, fo'sure. After class, lunch with Jems if she's not meeting her ah fai then home to meet bff for Starbucks! I've been craving for it since I don't know when. Friday will be spent with my gal gal :) she always have new pet names, sorry bee hahaha but i love giving you pet names hahaha!

Before I leave, I'll leave you guys with two very funny videos.
A video tweet from Ellen & her mom to MCHammer
Ellen's bathroom concert series with Jennifer Hudson

Enjoy and goodnight, have a great Thursday!

but I believe true, deep love is always worth fighting for..

I would have left you with heart-shaped bruises to show how much I really cared

My headache is still not subsiding after taking a nap. I was thinking if it's the rain that caused the pain. I remembered bee telling me that whenever she get caught in the rain, she will get bad headaches.

I'm a hopeless case. I asked bff and bee to think of severe, life threatening consequences that I have to face if I do not go to school for a valid enough reason (ie., sick/fever & etc). Bee said she will call mom. Don't say it is impossible. She have her ways and I believe she will do it even if it gets me into trouble but it makes me learn. Bff said she will ask bee not to talk to me for a week :x I will go to school okay!!

I rushed home just in time for Ellen. Guess who was on the show!!

 

  

McSteamy!!!!

  

  

Aw cute :)

Eric Dane, plays as Dr. Mark Sloan in Grey's Anatomy!
Frikkin' hot doctor, seriously. Like what Ellen said, "he brings hotness to this seat" ;) Luckily I managed to rush home for Ellen hahah cannot miss this one out!

Ellen & Fall Out Boy sing "Womanizer" in the Bathroom

Anyway today I finally managed to get back my stuff from baby 'cos I left them with her over the weekend. My ezlink was with her unknowingly as well. Tsk tsk must be more mindful in future! Sorry baby, I promise I will go to school everyday from today. Even if I'm so sick that I'm gonna die, I will crawl to school no matter what :) luv u!

Spot the differences on Facebook, Grey's & off to bed. Bee is making me turn in early. Good sign :) Even if I hate doing so, I love you for that darling. <3

P/s: bff is coming over tomorrow!
P/p/s: sorry, i will reply to the comments ok i promise! meanwhile, no fighting no arguments prease keep peace!