I’ve loved you then, like I love you now, like I probably always will

What defines a best friend? What are the requirements to be a good best friend? How many hours a week does it entail? Stupid questions that have no answers. A best friend is not defined by how many times they talk on the phone, or how many hours they hang out together. It is not defined by how many sleepovers they gossip at, or how many inside jokes they have. There are no requirements or laws that state that a good best friend must hang out with them every weekend, or tell each other every little detail. A best friend is a matter of opinion. It is the person who has been there for you through everything, not just through the fun things, or the little things. It is the person that you call when you are at your absolute worst, it is the person who saves you when you didn't even notice that you needed saving, mostly it is the person who accepts you for who you are, and the person that you are becoming.

School was nothing but tiring despite it being a 3-hour class.

After class we did the best thing ever. Guitar hero <3 No pictures but everyone should definitely try it. Don't know how to play? Just whack. Hit the buttons and press press press! It sure does releases some stress yknow. I had so much fun today. Thank you guys :)

And we're getting on better. I didn't wanna tell you what I told you but I still told you instead before you start regretting & pulling my legs as I leave you. See? You mean so much to me. You know what I meant when I say we cannot be friends. Either lovers or friends. Choose one. I cannot see you with someone else other than me. I'm sorry, this is really selfish. I know how much you want me as your friend but I can't do it. It'll take a long time for me to get over this relationship & when it is over, I will not be able to look at you the same way for I've given so much in this relationship & I cannot call you 'my friend'.


I am so happy. I wanna be like this everyday.

But one thing, 30 minutes into Tuesday & I'm still here. I wanna be sleepy now so I can wake up on time tomorrow!!! :@

I'm sorry I'm not strong enough to let go of the things that I love way too much

Few nights back, I had this dream. I forgot what was it about. Tried to remember but I couldn't. I was really happy in that dream. When I woke up, and realised I'm back to reality, my heart sank. The happiness is nowhere to be found.


Wished I could remember the dream & remember it forever.
Wished it was easier for me than it is for you.


Not forgetting, school was fab today. I love Ban to the max, she's the best companion anyone can ever have. Mr Jalaini showed us this Indian movie. Some parts are quite sad, some are like really sick! Little kids at the age of 10 knows what sex is about, omg! Scary.

After class, we took train to Orchard while Ban went Bugis to meet mama Ong. Finally bought the dark denim high waist shorts that I've been eying!! Hahaha I wanted the light denim one but it looks ugly on me, even bff thinks so. I can't fucking shop alone, I need opinions so I can decide what to buy & what not to. Shittttt, this really sucks. I wanna be able to shop alone!!!!

Far East Plaza is like my second home. Went to visit Liyana, the new part timer. Very sweet girl, heard she's on The New Face! Very pretty :) Poor Jolin got no sale upstairs but after bff & I went in, a lot of people came in!! We left our stuff in the shop, helped her pack a little. Hate it when the shop looks messy or when the straps of the bag is dangling everywhere, look super messy! After that, we went to walk around :D hahahah we looked like we were doing a market survey!

Got so tired after that, we were there for only three hours. Bought Subway cookies 'cos we finally realised we skipped lunch & was mad hungry! Went to the supermarket before going back. Bought chips, a loaf of bread & magazines :>


P/s: Mama Ong, don't be a mysterious reader ok!! I am updating now because Ban told me that you asked her why I didn't update hahahaha! Hello mama Ong :)

I keep thinking of you, you're on my mind for the fifty seven thousandth time this morning

SBS lecture is a chore. For one, lecturer's voice is squeky. For two, she treats us like primary school kids! Thank God she dismissed us an hour earlier today 'cos she finished the chapter faster than expected. "Go off quietly, and row by row." What the fuck!? Obviously we didn't.

Because Sher only gotta work at 5pm, off we went on a cab to Serene Center! We all were craving for ice-cream, the weather was a killer this afternoon. Island Creamery, here we come!!

 

  

  

  

ReversO & Ping Pong Milo!

 

I wasn't ready for the photo :@

 

Sher & Chrissy :>

Because they got this Canon photo printer & the walls are either filled with photos of happy faces or drawings, we took photos & pasted it on the wall as well :D Printed two, kept one for myself!

 

I told bee before that I would want something (much neater, of course) like this with all our photos on our bedroom walls IF we ever get to live together. From our very first shot to the last, all in black & white :>

 

  

The two photos that were printed!

 

Trying to write something out of the marker with back up ink

 

Really like this photo but not the person in there -.- DAMN STONE LEH YOU

 

Too bad I look stupid here, and super blur :/

 

Probably not destined to have a nice photo with the background

 

  

Happy Sher :>

 

And happy Chrissy!

 

  

  

  

Trying to make our photos stick..........

 

  

TADAH!!!!! Spot us?

Left the place around 4.15pm & walked to the bus stop. Can't wait to hang out with them & Ban!! :) While walking to the bus stop, we found out that dear Sher also got motion sickness. Hahahahaha she told us something super funny about her past. Damn cute, love them all to the maxxxx <3

TDMC tomorrow = seeing Jalaini & his gayness. I can't believe he said, "Don't be so slutty" to one of the guys in the class hahaha! Ok time for L Word before I turn in for class tomorrow, toddles! :>

I love you always, even in the hurricane

Exams are over. End of migraine-filled days with hell lot of notes to be memorized in my hands all the time. Bye Econs, I won't miss you for sure. Bye Mogan, I hope you'll never be seen in my sight ever again. Diploma term one starts in a month's time.. I'm looking forward to it because I'll be attending it with bff, my favourite girl ban & not forgetting Chrissy & Shermaine :)

The paper was okay. I did my best, that's all I know. I don't care if it's a D, I'm okay with it. As long as I passed, I don't care. I just don't wanna redo this whole module ever again!! Chrissy came out after 15 minutes, Shermaine followed suit. I was done in an hour. Swatee left after awhile. Bff was the last to come out. After we were all done, we went off for our steamboat dinner date!! :)

 

Hello mole

 

Look at the butter -slups

 

  

Shermaine the sexy cook

 

Tom yum soup base!!!

 

Tan Quee Lan Street (:

Only after we got on the train then I realised we didn't take a group picture :( :( :(

We were very fickle-minded. At first we sat on the upper deck. Then we moved to the lower deck where the walk way is 'cos that would make space for Rosental ('cos we thought she was gonna make it). We asked for steamboat but when we saw the next table having steamboat & BBQ, we wanted that as well. The smell was too...tempting. Damn nice smell!! We hear the sizzling from the BBQ, couldn't take it, we asked for a change! We were like saying how they'd really hate us & bitch about us & all that amongst themselves hahahaha or even spit into our soup!!!!! Stupid Shermaine keep saying that I look scared & won't drink the soup -.- And she said that Chrissy don't wanna eat the sausage so she 'accidentally' dropped it hahahaha.

$20 per head - damn not worth it for the four of us. All we ate was hotdog, crabstick, meatball, prawns & scallop! But the tom yum soup base was yummy! Very sour, not that spicy for my liking, very nice!!! Thank God Shermaine's good at cooking, she helped a lot! I can't cook, scared :/ I really suck ok I'm sorry guys!!!!

Sat around, chit-chat while our love handles were growing bigger & thicker. Left the place, walked to Bugis Junction. Chrissy bought Chewy Junior 'cos bff told her that Jemi did mentioned before Chewy Junior is nice. We tried the sample & it is really chewy!! Chrissy was damn cute, she had to choose 11 & she was like, "Huh one more!?! Omg..ok this one!" One after another, one after another, until finally the last one, she was like, "No more ah? Wahhhhh.." Hahahahha!

I love hanging out with them :) They totally made me forgot what happened before the exam which kinda worried me 'cos I was concentrating 100% on memorizing & trying to understand, I didn't wanna let my mind wander. More outings with them this term break, I hope!


Celebrating Aunt's birthday tomorrow with Nyonya dinner. Yay I luv Nyonya food!

And just like that, I lost my heart

The last day of class was the day that bff & I spoke the most to Shermaine, Christina & Swatee, the three lovely classmates that we're the closest to. They are great, really. I'm so glad we're not judged for being labeled as "the remodule girls". We're gonna meet up during the study week to study together :D

Speaking of which, on 17th June, just the day before I left for KL, we had class & bb wanted to 'crush' our lecture, so we met bff at Outram Park to go class together. We had lunch at 99c sushi before that!! I was craving for it for quite some time hehe thanks ah bee :) Just before we left, we went to the pet shop.

Cute or what!!!!!! Hahah two of them stucked their heads out while sleeping, so adorable :)

The rest of the day sucked, which resulted in me crying my eyes out to fight for what I wanted. In the end? Zero, was the result. Forget it. I have to accept it that I often do things to please others, I put others before myself. I've to constantly remind myself this: Stop bothering, care less, love yourself.


After I was home from KL, I fell ill in the evening. After bb's persuasion, I went to the doctor's on the 23rd June with bb. I was really really sick. Fever, cough, flu = enough to kill me. Barely spoke to bb 'cos each time I wanna talk, I'll start coughing or sneezing. She kept doing stupid actions to act like I've got H1N1 & like, show people to leave me alone -.- Irritating!

There was this guy who looked a little like * in the clinic with his sister (oh wow). FUCKING IRRITATING. He was talking so loudly, I can hear everything that he said. I thought it was just his loud voice. Guess what he said? "Wah so many deaths from H1N1. I think they all deserve to die hahahahahaha! All deserve it whoohoo!! People who got it can just die!!!!! Hahahahahaha great, peace!" His sister just kept quiet. I was guessing that he is around twenties. Seriously, in your twenties and this is how sensitive you can get? Other than that, he was reading out the subtitles from the television programme on CNA, in a squeky voice. Out to piss people off or what? Seriously!!

The clinic was so packed. Seems like it is the flu season? Had lunch at Banquet before heading home. Bb has always wanted to try Banquet 'cos she said the food looks good hahaha because it's crowded almost all the time!

Laksa for her

Chicken porridge that bb ordered for me

(Ahem, suddenly feel like I'm blogging like an ah lian)


The next day, we booked the badminton court but I couldn't play as I'm still feeling feverish. So I played with Jenae & Jermaine most of the time. After the game, I suggested to go for Taochew porridge! I was in the mood for porridge, and that's when you know I am really really sick. Hahaha I don't really fancy porridge so the only time I will eat it is when I'm sick :D

 

MY FAVOURITE FISH Ci kak :)

Chicken in ginger sauce

Vegetables

I don't know what is this called..tou pok?

Fishcake

Veg, & Sissy's fav, lala :)

After dinner, we had Selegie Beancurd which was just down the street. I'm pretty much addicted to it now.. Eating it almost every once a week!!

Soya bean with pearls

My yummy beancurd, so smooth!!

Must. Change. The. Damn. Layout!!!!!!!!!! It is getting on my nerves. So messy, so plain, so colourless. I wanted to ask Ning to help me with it but she's busy :( I've survived almost seven months without a pretty layout for the first time hahaha. I shall do up one really soon..i hope? Nonono, revision first. Must study before I proceed to do such things!

Anyway,  I'm gonna meet bb tomorrow at her place. Can't wait to eat ramen! Ramen! Ramen!! Ramen!!! Ramen!!!! Thinking of it now makes me hungry hehehe ok I gotta go for badminton now. Toodles!! <3

I've been known to fall in love but sometimes love is just not enough

Must be wondering why no lovey dovey post on 29th? Someone screwed it up. No 'happy 25th!' text messages, no love, care & concern, no nothing. Hello to a bad month ahead. I always believe that a good start of the month is very important. And 29th of every month is a start of a new month for us but apparently, it was ruined but we'll see. Hopefully this month is exceptionally; despite the ugly start, it is still good month after all.

Bff was late, as usual >:@ Had to forgo our Mac's breakfast plan. She went to the mall to get it for me before coming over to the train station but it was sold out to the previous customer in front of her. so she bought me.....

 

Kinder Bueno & Famous Amos!
Thanks bff :>

GP presentation went well. I didn't allow all that to spoil my mood for the presentation. Need to be in a good mood to do well! Met Jems at the train station, took shuttle bus to school. On the way, I asked her about her celebration with her boyf. Like what I always say, expect the unexpected. Her boyfriend got her a Juicy Couture watch! It totally surprised her. When we were out that day, I told her who knows what he'd get & he might just surprise her haha! Back to GP presentation.. Marc came unprepared, it was really funny. He introduced himself, said he chose PR 'cos he liked Mr Sivam ahahahaha it was really funny. He also told us he is "going to San Diego". Seriously, FOS. FOS = Full of shit! Jems' presentation went great, she left for lunch with her "starved like an African kid" brother. HAVE FACEBOOK OR TWITTER PLZZZZ JEMSY! *psycho psycho psycho*

After presentation, we were supposed to go back for class but class ended already. On the way back, we bumped into Jeanette!! Haha I called her & she alighted at Tiong Bahru instead of Outram Park. Silly her! So we took the train back together & she alighted at Hougang station :> We were both starving so  went to the mall & had very late lunch at Pizza Hut!

 

My fav drumlets!

 

Bff's

 

Mine!

 

A very happy bff with her student meal!

 

Me in the headband that caused my head to be in pain for hours :/

After lunch, we went to 7-eleven! On the way home with Nette, she showed me all her Mr Men & Little Miss keychains from 7-eleven. So cute!! Bought Vicks & lollipop for two capsules hehehe :)

 

 

We got Little Miss Shy, Mr Small, two Mr Greedy! Gave Mr Small to bb, Mr Greedy to sissy, I kept Little Miss Shy & bff kept the other Mr Greedy :) so cute. We both were so addicted to it hahaha wanted to get more but the girl behind the cashier was really rule. Kept giving us attitude & those stares. We're gonna get more the next time we buy something from 7-eleven! I really wanna get Little Miss Sunshine & Little Miss Chatterbox :(