Part of you pours out of me in these lines from time to time

"And there's no worse feeling than when you wake up and feel okay for a minute and then that sick feeling washes over you and you remember it's not okay."

This is what I've been feeling lately. And it sucks. You don't ever wish to be me.

And I want you to know you're as important as they are but it seems like to you, it is not enough. So I'm gonna prove it to you that you are important to me. Because you really are. You play the biggest part in my life and you don't know that. It's tough being me you know. How much I wish you can click with them and we can hang out like friends do but you can't do that for me. But I don't wanna force you. If you're happy, be that way. When you're happy, I will be too.


Work is great. Angie & Hanice is what that keep me going. I don't wanna give up this job but I know my parents want me to. I've never found so much satisfaction in my job before, this is the first time & I never thought of leaving until Angela talked about a waste of talent blah blah. Jon also told me if I were to stay there for good, it's a waste. Like, why the fuck did I take diploma in mass comm for? I know, I know.. I'm too attached to this job and the people there.

Yknow I've wanted a group of friends that I could hang out with. Mutual friends with my girlfriend & close friends. And this job gave me a group of friends that I've never thought I'd be able to be so crazy with, have so much fun with. When I'm at work, they drop by to say hi laugh laugh laugh and bye off they go. When I'm not working, we arrange to have dinner together. Sit at Mos Burger like we own the whole place, refuse to leave until they close. With them, I saw my true self. I can be effing crazy, laugh loudly like no tomorrow, cry because my heart can take no more, say the most disgusting shit ever, wear the ugliest clothes that show my flaws & feel comfy with them looking at me, do the ugliest techno shit dance in a crowded club, eat like I've never had bak kut teh all my life and they still love me the same, just as I love them. Isn't that amazing?

Thank God for putting them in my life :) x

When left alone with my thoughts they always turn to you

Today I:
x met a crazy aunty who kept asking everyone for money on the bus
x was late to meet bb & her sissy to help them with their work
x camwhored with them using her sissy's laptop's webcam
x am very happy because after the talk I had with bee few weeks back, she kissed me twice & hugged me a million times on her own accord today. (love you babee)
x bought durian puffs for mom & dad
x had the longest conversation with bffz over msn
x had the longest conversation with @yanhui_isdope & @hanicetsai over twitter
x am very very very very happy because of you


Happy things happened. Now my eye can stop twitching like a bitch.

Project meeting tomorrow for SBS assignment with Shermaine, Chrissy, Samuel, Swathi & bffz. Can we all have PastaMania before that? The craving has gotta stop!! :( Been craving since the event on Saturday...

Ok 3.31am, my body clock is officially ruined.


P/s: you don't know how happy you made me <3
P/p/s: bee, I really love t see you in the white tank top but hate you for not wanting t wear it out with me! :@

The way you always were my best excuse for calling in sick on everyone else, I miss you

Happy 26th, sweetheart :)
Thank you for everything that you've done for me. No one will love me like the way you do. Thank you for going up on Singapore Flyer with me despite your fear of heights. I love you <3

We had a great day, everything went according to plan. We had Popeye's for dinner, which sucked because they ran out of mash potatoes & biscuits :( Made me really upset 'cos I've been craving for their mash potatoes & a Popeye's meal is not completed if there isn't biscuits! Thereafter, we bought tickets & went up on the flyer. My second time on the flyer, first time with baby :) It was great, 'cos it was only us & a Japanese couple! Felt like we had the whole cabin to ourselves!! After the flight, we sat by the water, took photos & went home. It was one of the best nights with baby. Wait, which night out with baby isn't the best?

 

  

The sweet corn was fab, try it on your next meal at Popeye's!

 

  

The place where you take pictures

 

I love this collage, I want to bring it home!!

 

I look exceptionally less fat here omg when I was feeling soooo ballooned :/

  

  

F1 track

 

  

Ahhh nice, I like this picture

 

  

  

  

  

  

  

Miniature $2mil condo *drools*

 

  

Our heavily photoshopped photos that costs $30

 

  

FAIR MUCH!?!!!

 

Bee said this is nice. At first I hated it but the more I look, hm nice!

 

One for my baby with the flyer! I risked falling into the water to take this photo

Thanks bff for coming over in the day for helping me with my nails :) also, thanks for the flower clip, I love it!! J said it is tissue paper...........hahaha luv you anywayzzz :) I hope you & M had a great day too!

All sorts of things can happen in your life..things that can happen nowhere else

I hate it when people ask if I've gotten anything or joined any of Nuffnang's activites. Answer? NO I HAVE NOT OK SO SHUT UP. I always thought the chances of winning are really slim. Check out the number of bloggers we have in the Singapore blogosphere. How to win!?!

So yesterday, Nuffnang sent out a tweet..

So I did. Retweeted, direct messaged them my name, url & contact number. In my mind, I was like, I'm not that lucky. They would have given the tickets to Nadnut or Xiaxue, definitely not me. Where got so heng!?! So I didn't bother & continued studying.

Awhile later I went to check my mail..

I was like ......what? No cannot be so heng lor, seriously! Blinked my eyes, in disbelief. Cannot be la!!! I went to check my twitterfox..

OMGWTFBBQ!! HOLY COW I REALLY GOT A PAIR OF TICKETS TO WATCH KOBE BRYANT!!! *dances around in circles* THANK YOU NUFFNANG!!!!!!!!!! In excitement, couldn't breathe, grinning to myself like a mad ass. Told bff immediately, rang baby who was very upset that a lot of her friends are going to watch but she isn't. She was so excited, she screamed over the phone!! :D

And so right now, I'm trying to rush my ass off to publish this post & leave home to meet the silly one at Dhoby Ghaut. Going for early dinner before we head over to Singapore Indoor Stadium!!

Don't worry, visuals, I know, I'll be back with them!!! :D
But post after exams oki dok teeehee!


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Maybe I'm not your everything & I'm never ever gonna be

Another day of hardcore mugging
Another day of reading Econs notes & only Econs notes
Another day of sitting at the long table in the library with bff
Another day of buying drinks/food from Cafe Galilee

I want 24th to come quick but then again, I need more time to study :(

 

When can we have some alone time :(
i miss cuddling with you bee.
i miss staying over at your crib,
like we own the whole house,
like this is a brand new life of ours together.

i want to feel loved again ♥  P/s: i feel like eating cup kimchi noodles now :(

And just like that, I lost my heart

The last day of class was the day that bff & I spoke the most to Shermaine, Christina & Swatee, the three lovely classmates that we're the closest to. They are great, really. I'm so glad we're not judged for being labeled as "the remodule girls". We're gonna meet up during the study week to study together :D

Speaking of which, on 17th June, just the day before I left for KL, we had class & bb wanted to 'crush' our lecture, so we met bff at Outram Park to go class together. We had lunch at 99c sushi before that!! I was craving for it for quite some time hehe thanks ah bee :) Just before we left, we went to the pet shop.

Cute or what!!!!!! Hahah two of them stucked their heads out while sleeping, so adorable :)

The rest of the day sucked, which resulted in me crying my eyes out to fight for what I wanted. In the end? Zero, was the result. Forget it. I have to accept it that I often do things to please others, I put others before myself. I've to constantly remind myself this: Stop bothering, care less, love yourself.


After I was home from KL, I fell ill in the evening. After bb's persuasion, I went to the doctor's on the 23rd June with bb. I was really really sick. Fever, cough, flu = enough to kill me. Barely spoke to bb 'cos each time I wanna talk, I'll start coughing or sneezing. She kept doing stupid actions to act like I've got H1N1 & like, show people to leave me alone -.- Irritating!

There was this guy who looked a little like * in the clinic with his sister (oh wow). FUCKING IRRITATING. He was talking so loudly, I can hear everything that he said. I thought it was just his loud voice. Guess what he said? "Wah so many deaths from H1N1. I think they all deserve to die hahahahahaha! All deserve it whoohoo!! People who got it can just die!!!!! Hahahahahaha great, peace!" His sister just kept quiet. I was guessing that he is around twenties. Seriously, in your twenties and this is how sensitive you can get? Other than that, he was reading out the subtitles from the television programme on CNA, in a squeky voice. Out to piss people off or what? Seriously!!

The clinic was so packed. Seems like it is the flu season? Had lunch at Banquet before heading home. Bb has always wanted to try Banquet 'cos she said the food looks good hahaha because it's crowded almost all the time!

Laksa for her

Chicken porridge that bb ordered for me

(Ahem, suddenly feel like I'm blogging like an ah lian)


The next day, we booked the badminton court but I couldn't play as I'm still feeling feverish. So I played with Jenae & Jermaine most of the time. After the game, I suggested to go for Taochew porridge! I was in the mood for porridge, and that's when you know I am really really sick. Hahaha I don't really fancy porridge so the only time I will eat it is when I'm sick :D

 

MY FAVOURITE FISH Ci kak :)

Chicken in ginger sauce

Vegetables

I don't know what is this called..tou pok?

Fishcake

Veg, & Sissy's fav, lala :)

After dinner, we had Selegie Beancurd which was just down the street. I'm pretty much addicted to it now.. Eating it almost every once a week!!

Soya bean with pearls

My yummy beancurd, so smooth!!

Must. Change. The. Damn. Layout!!!!!!!!!! It is getting on my nerves. So messy, so plain, so colourless. I wanted to ask Ning to help me with it but she's busy :( I've survived almost seven months without a pretty layout for the first time hahaha. I shall do up one really soon..i hope? Nonono, revision first. Must study before I proceed to do such things!

Anyway,  I'm gonna meet bb tomorrow at her place. Can't wait to eat ramen! Ramen! Ramen!! Ramen!!! Ramen!!!! Thinking of it now makes me hungry hehehe ok I gotta go for badminton now. Toodles!! <3

It's hard to be safe, it's difficult to be happy

HI Y'ALL I AM BACK!!
The trip was pretty alright, much better than I expected. Spent more than I expected! Bought hell lot of things teehee but yeh, this time I really shopped the blues away. I came back feeling much better, much lighter, much happier. Went without make-up throughout the whole trip, let my face & skin breathe! I'm getting used to my pale look already :)


Day 1
Zel & I only slept at 5am, woke up an hour later to prepare. It was more like a nap, I could barely open my eyes. Crying + sleepless = eye swollen like fuck! Gran was at my place early 'cos Uncle Lee drove her.. Auntie Shirley, Uncle Eric & their two girls cabbed over to our place quite late & I almost fell asleep while waiting!

Budget terminal is really..budget. They only got Hanis(Han's express outlet), Mac's & a magazine stand, that's all. Once you step into the terminal, you can see everything. But good enough, I guess, good for those who wants to fly but tight on cashflow or those who fly all the time. Save costs!

Had breakfast at Mac's, while the adults have their breakfast at Hanis. I love sausage mcmuffin without egg <3 I cut down a lot of cold drinks lately. Been drinking chinese tea, hot coffee, tea or milo. I don't know what got into me but hot drinks is good, especially for us girls. Else the cramps will kill us!

 

  

 

After we checked in, I shopped at the duty-free area & spent close to $60 of Victoria's Secrets! A cosmetic pouch, two eye shadows & one glitter liner! 'Cos Aunt Shirley & I spent above $90, we were given this metallic logo bag! But she let me have it 'cos I was telling mom that it's damn pretty, teehee thanks a lot Aunt Shirley!!

 

 

After the boarding gates. See how budget our budget terminal is!? But still, yay for cheaper fares!! Honestly, it was my first (virgin!) ride on a budget air plane. Really budget ok! Dad & I can't stop saying how budget it is. No cushion on the seat, no blankie, no food, no drinks, no entertainment, no newspaper!! We can't complain, can we? We only paid $80 for this ticket! Uncle Eric had this promo thingy, thus the cheap price. I definitely prefer SIA..but who doesn't? For the comfort & entertainment.

We got there in 45 minutes, or even earlier. I sat in the plane with Gran. She's so adorable, the way she signs her name, damn cute! She's a great companion anyway, kept laughing at whatever nonsense I said. She said she don't really like this plane, so I said, "ok wait until I earn enough money I'll charter a plane just for us ok!" & she laughed. How cuteeee :)

 

  

  

 

Look at Jenae trying to do the peace sign! Damn cuuuute she kept trying t do it but failed haha and kept looking at her fingers weirdly, must be wondering why she can't do it hahaha! The second picture, thanks to Zel, I didn't know she was taking but yeh, I was stoned hahaha. Jenae is so adorable, but very very very naughty!! Even her granny can't stand her, kept telling Aunt Shirley how naughty she was after she comes back from work. Still adorable, anyhow :)

When the van arrives, it took us an hour to get to the hotel. I fell asleep almost immediately after I put on my shades & iPod. Though it was damn hot, the sun shining into the van but I still managed to nap. Too tired, I supposed. Two hours of sleep, totally insufficient! When we got to the hotel, I kept telling sissy that I wanna sleep & can skip shopping for sleep just for today hahaha!

 

 

We stayed at The Federal Hotel instead. Was supposed to stay in Marriott but if we were to book, we've to book for four nights instead of just three. So dad sticked to our original plan. The hotel's quite okay..but I wouldn't advice anyone to stay there if you were to go KL. Won't tell you why here, ask me in private & I'll tell you :D

 

 

Wonton mee pok for Che

  

Chicken rice for my maid

  

Wonton mee for Jermaine

  

Roasted duck noodles for me & sissy

 

After resting in the hotel room for awhile, we headed out for food. We were starving!! The noodle house at Sungei Wang is damn good. 'twas our second time there already, damn yummy! Sis was like asking me why I chose to drink chinese tea haha I don't know I just feel like drinking?? I find myself so weird sometimes.

Quick lunch it was. We headed to The Pavilion next. It is a damn big shopping mall! Got all my favourite boutiques there ^^ They were having some BMW show there......

 

  

 

Beautiful, no!?!!!? BMW 325i Convertible!! Damn pretty omg I want it in red pretty plzzzzzzz.

 

  

  

 I forgot the flavour. :/

Had Baskin Robbins! I love BR (L) I wish BR, A&W & Krispy Kreme would come back to SG :( A&W used to be in SG but then I don't know what happened, it closed down. I want their curly fries & root beer float! Baskin Robbins is the best damn ice-cream next to Ben & Jerry's. Never tried Krispy Kreme but I heard that it is awesome. Really wanna try though..

 

  

  

 

Ain't it pretty? This is the end of my day 1 in KL. Bought a lot there! At the end of this post, I'll show you what I bought from the trip ok! Went back to the hotel & we bought supper. Yummy KFC wedges was rad. Their wedges tastes so good!! It's a MUST TRY when you're there, teehee!

Day 2

Woke up super early for breakfast at the restaurant. Just put on a pair of leggings with a random top from the luggage and off I went. The breakfast sucks. I only had tea, toast, orange juice & sausages. Yum tum tum I want mcmuffin now! After breakfast, I went back into the room to get ready for another long day ahead. Genting!!

Dad's friend came t pick us with his two cabbie friends. We needed three cabs for 13 people. Off we went to Genting!! It wasn't as cold as I thought it'd be. I didn't bring an outerwear 'cos when I asked mom if shorts are ok she said yes so yeh, just casual cooling wear, no need wear so nice. So there. But thank God, as it is the humid period, it isn't that cold up in the highlands.

First stop, THE OUTDOOR THEME PARK!!

 

 

Taken while waiting for Dad t get tickets :)

 

 

 

 

 

 

Don't ask me what I was doing..I really don't know

  

Aunt Shirley was so happy but Jenae was damn scared

Had very late lunch at Pizza Hut only at around 3pm. Met the rest later & they had Marrybrown. After that we walked around the place. Mom got two pairs of shoes & we left, back to KL. The ride home was interesting. Accident, village kiddos without shoes, durian trees, big shopping malls, high class hotels. Went back to the hotel first to rest. Headed to Pavilion again 'cos Che bought this Mango top at only S$10 so I pestered mama t go with me. Dad, mom, myself, sis & maid went together. Had dinner at FoodRepublic. The FoodRepublic there is super hugeeeeeee! A lot of different cuisine. I had phad thai noodles (see how much I love Thai food!), sissy had kimchi noodles, maid had sheng mee, mom & dad shared a plate of fried oyster. Bought a lot of Mango omg yay!!!!!! Cheap thrills uh huh headed back to the hotel & they bought supper. It's like a party every night at Gran's room!


Day 3
Suria KLCC + Mid Valley, the two big shopping centers we went. Bought a lot there. Nose, their shoe boutique (something like Charles & Keith), got bandage heels & sandals. Fucking pretty but don't have my size. DAMMIT! Mom bought a pair of mustard heels thee. Damn nice :( Had A&W there too!! Omg curly fries & root beer float~~ Dad bought a shirt from GAP. He kept asking me t buy the pair of boxers but he was rushing me so I said forget it. It's only S$15 :( and they got the navy blue polka dot & red hearts printed one!! I will go get the it at the local GAP boutique, really hope they still have it & in my size! Factory Outlet Store at Mid Valley was huuuuuge! Bought accessories & a few sleeping shorts there. Went bra shopping 'cos it is on sale & it's only S$4.20 each. NO JOKE!! Damn shiok I tell you I grabbed my size & made payment hahaha then we had dinner at Madam Kwan's Nonya Restaurant.

 

When I was in primary school, I kept praying to God that I want her to be my mom.

 

Fish & Chip

  

Chicken Chop which looks more like breaded chicken

  

Nasi Lemak

Took a cab back to the hotel & we went to walk around Sungei Wang & BB Plaza. Bought a little something for the girls, bff & my lovely girlfriend :D Took quite some time for us t get out of that place. Too many exits!! Next, we went to Haagen Dazs for ice-cream. Cappuccino Truffle & Raspberry <3 the last supper we had there was perfect. Frog-leg porridge, kway tiao, Thai fried beancurd in sweet chilli sauce & KFC. The porridge was deliciousssss!

Aunt Shirley: (to maid) Edna, come, come & eat the porridgeMe: (in dialect) She don't eat frog-leg leh
Mum: Really meh? How come I don't know
Maid: Yeh ok ok (taks a bowl of porridge, with a spoon taking the gravy & all)
Maid: What is this ah mam?
Mum: Frog-leg
Maid: (stop scooping & stones for 5 seconds)
Aunt Shirley: (burst into laughter)

IT WAS DAMN FUNNY. Just imagine us all in pjs & two small tables, everyone sitting together, some on the bed, some on the chairs. Her stoned reaction was damn funny & unexpected!



Day 4
It was father's day but didn't felt like it. Home. I was so damn excited. Not excited about the budget flight back but the feeling of being home, in Singapore again. The good food that awaits me :D Teehee. Once we got home, I unpacked my stuff &we went out for early dinner. Even Laura thinks that it was too early, she replied me on Twitter, "4pm for dinner?" Hahaha so! We went Changi Village for dinner. Dad suggested it. We let him because it was Father's day :)

 

Wonton meeeeee

 

Fried carrot cake, shiok only!

And I started sneezing during dinner. Sucks to be me! Damn sick right now. Fever, flu, cough, sore throat. Alicia scared me saying it might be H1N1!!! :( omg I was damn scared, I kept taking my temperature to make sure it's just me feeling feverish but it's not fever.

Today bb accompanied me to the doctor's & I'm feeling a lot better after drinking a lot of water & taking the medicine. Imma go rest after this post. But before I publish, I must show you what I bought this whole trip!!

 

  

7 new brassssss

 

Sleeping shorts from FOS

 

Victoria's Secret!

 

Mango tops each only for S$10 omg cheap or wut!?!!