I should've been trying to prove that you were all that mattered to me

Gave school a miss to rest at home. The pain was unbearable. I stayed in bed until 11pm. I forced myself to get up. I really wanna get things done, that's why.

Today was well-spent, despite the pain. I did a lot of what I always wanted to do when I have time at home. It helped to distract me away from the pain. Well, I doddled on my organiser for a start. Pinpointed all the important dates so I wouldn't forget. Also wrote what I did for the past week ^^ I watched a little of Grey's. Had lunch with mom, and a very long talk. Mailed out all the packages. Watched Grey's again while talking to bff over MSN. Downloaded the movie Because I Said So, watched a little & moved on with Grey's. (Very addicted, I know) Watched Ellen! Called bee after that since we can't text much. We spoke for 45 minutes before I went for dinner with mom.

DID I JUST SEE THAT THE RED JUMPSUIT APPARATUS IS COMING TO DOWNTOWN EAST!?!!!! OMG ME WANT ME WANT is anyone gonna be nice and treat me to the concert ^^ I'll be grateful!

   

    

  

  

  

  

  

Don't you just love Made Her Think & CCSkye?

I'm playing with Polyvore. So bored :( I'm gonna go watch Grey's while waiting for bee to be done with her search of her cert. She's gonna register for school tomorrow! Yay and she's gonna come pick me after that for lunch. Gonna have lunch at Plaza by the Park :D Bff will/might be coming over to my place in the noon. Yay I like to plan my days.


So really, why did Chris Brown beat Rihanna? Watch the video!!

Loving you has made me so scandalously beautiful

Happy birthday, Javier ^^
May all your wishes & dreams come true. I hope you are doing well!

The day at home was spent very meaningfully. I did a few things, cleared my mail, packed my drawers, rearranged my closet, cleared my bedside table, cleaned the psp and dslr, rearranged my folders and managed to download two movies :)

I always say how messy my bedside table is but I've never showed you guys how messy it exactly is. I snapped a shot of it a day ago 'cos it was truly disastrous.

This is not the worst! I have had messier ones, seriously. I cannot stand my table being so messy. Mom's really neat and she kinda make us practise being neat and tidy as well. I am not as neat as she is or she hope that I would be but just a little bit? At least the table looks better now. Changed the awful phone, things laying on the desk cleared, nothing hanging except my bangles & bed sheet changed! Looks so, so much better now. I feel like my table can breathe hahaha

Other than just packing up, I spent the whole time shopping online & ended up getting really pissed off. Because 1) Nothing caught my eye 2) Even if it did, it is either sold/don't fit/didn't like it enough to buy it/not worth the price. This sucks. Sucks to be me! :( I really wanna buy something but what the fuuuuuck

I like the kind of love that Derek and Meredith have for each other, the love they share. George's dad passed away in the previous episode and I cried like mad. Whenever I watch movies or television shows, I put myself into that character and feel how they feel. I cannot imagine having to put my dad to sleep. Even if I never had much to talk to him about but he is my dad and I've been sticking with him for so long and he watched me grow. It was so painful to watch George that way. He was never that yelling, angry & mean kind of person but being desperate to save his dad changed him. I could see the pain in her eyes whenever Meredith sees Thatcher (whom she calls ex-father) or his family. I know I talk about the show very often & I am very very affected by the show. You just have to watch it to understand why am I so affected. Ok truth be told, I am emotional. Maybe that is why I get so affected.

"At the end of the day, when it comes down to it, all we really want is to be close to somebody. So this thing where we all keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other, it's usually a load of bull. So we pick and choose who we want to remain close to, and once we've chosen those people, we tend to stick close by. No matter how much we hurt them. The people that are still with you at the end of the day, those are the ones worth keeping. And sure, sometimes close can be too close. But sometimes, that invasion of personal space, it can be exactly what you need."

--- Grey's Anatomy

Before I end this post, I must must must reply the comments first!

Bff: I swear you're the meanest breast flen anyone can ever have. PEACH we need to shop okay I'm dying!! Being in this budget plan of ours for so (ok not very long but before that I am already on budget just not $5) long, it is worse than not having sex for years! I cannot take it anymore. Online cannot find, must go offline already! Thrift store & far east next week oki i dunch care one day no budget k hahahaha
SA: After your comment about how I should not dread my weekends, I actually felt a lot better. A book, a cup of coffee sitting by myself is really good. I've not done that in a long while, you reminded me! And yknow, don't feel bad because your comments are always so..nice?? They cheer me up most of the time. I just need to be positive like you hahah! And having to know that someone would be there for me is good enough. Thank you thank you thank you =)
Pearl: YAY I AM FOLLOWING YOU ON BLOGGER NOW ^^ Haha it's a waterproof camera! I am moreeee jealous of yours ok fisheye!!!!!!!
Anon: I use Photoshop most of the time :)
Anon: Oh it's around my area. I took it with the waterproof camera as seen in the previous post! You can get it online or in Pandora's Box at Far East Plaza :)


Hm, what day is tomorrow??

I'm sorry about the phone call, & needing you

Sometimes you have to be
strong for yourself. You have
to know that you're a good
person & a good friend.
What's meant to be will end
up good & what's not - won't.
Love is worth fighting for, but
sometimes you can't be the
only one fighting. At times,
people need to fight for you.
If they don't, you just have
to move on & realize what
you gave them was more
than they were willing to
give you. Hopefully, people
realize great things when
they come around. And don't
lose something real. Always fight,
until you can't anymore,
and then be fought for.

I did revision and wrote notes for HMC today. I was in all day with the horribly humid weather and scotching sun shining right into the room. Heat was felt all over, no matter which part of the house I was in. But I was happy with myself for writing so much & I am glad I went for most classes and I wrote notes. Most of the questions and topics for the exam is what he told us to write down. Thank God.

Merl came over in the afternoon to bainian :) She stayed until 10ish and we sent her home. We planned to go Godma Sue's place on Saturday to bainian. She was telling me about her big night out with Joyce & she had a lot to drink. Mostly shots. Makes me hungry for them :| I've been dying for a lychee martini. *hintcoughshint*

I downloaded Time Crisis, Metal Slug X, Resident's Evil & Crash Team Racing today!! :D All was done by 8pm, I started at about 1ish. Fast huh!! Much thanks to my hard disk else no space in the desktop man. Loco Roco 2 is damn fun la okay hahah I cannot stop playing. I ditched the dslite already hahaha.


I was the one snatching my hand away & making us masquerade as friends. So why am I the only one trying to hold it together now? It's like chasing smoke, and it's escaping through my fingers. I made us secret, so now maybe I'm just grabbing at something that was never really there.

I'll never understand why God allows certain people into our lives, fully knowing they're not going to stay. Now I'm scared of anyone who walks into my life.