You are Everything to Somebody

Right now at this very minute:
someone is very proud of you.

someone is thinking of you.

someone cares about you.

someone misses you.

someone wants to talk to you.

someone wants to be with you.

someone hopes you aren’t in trouble.

someone is thankful for the support you have provided.

someone wants to hold your hand.

someone hopes everything turns out all right.

someone wants you to be happy.

someone wants you to find them.

someone is celebrating your successes.

someone wants to give you a gift.

someone thinks you ARE a gift.

someone hopes you are not too cold or too hot.

someone wants to hug you.

someone loves you.

someone wants to lavish you with small gifts.

someone admires your strength

someone is thinking of you and smiling.

someone wants to be your shoulder to cry on.

someone wants to go out with you and have a lot of fun.

someone thinks the world of you.

someone wants to protect you.

someone would do anything for you.

someone wants to be forgiven.

someone is grateful for your forgiveness.

someone wants to laugh with you about old times.

someone remembers you and wishes you were there.

someone needs to know that your love is unconditional.

someone values your advice.

someone wants to tell you how much they care.

someone wants to stay up watching old movies with you.

someone wants to share their dreams with you.

someone wants to hold you in their arms.

someone wants YOU to hold them in your arms.

someone treasures your spirits.

someone wishes they could STOP time because of you.

someone can’t wait to see you.

someone wishes that things didn’t have to change.

someone loves you for who you are.

someone loves the way you make them feel.

someone wants to be with you.

someone hears a song that reminds them of you.

someone wants you to know they are there for you.

someone is glad that you’re their friend.

someone wants to be your friend.

someone stayed up all night thinking about you.

someone is alive because of you.

someone is wishing that you would notice them.

someone wants to get to know you better.

someone believes that you are their soul mate.

someone wants to be near you.

someone misses your guidance and advice.

someone values your guidance and advice.

someone has faith in you.

someone trusts you.

someone needs you to send them this letter.

someone needs your support.

someone needs you to have faith in them.

someone needs you to let them be your friend.

someone will cry when they read this.

Today is Monday. A new week. I woke up. Checked the phone. Two texts; one from bb, another from bff. Replied her. Went back to sleep. Woke up again. Replied bff. Texted mom. Replied mom. Mom called. Got up. Went to the bathroom.  Brushed my teeth. Had breakfast. Took my clothes. Went to shower. Came out of the bathroom. Switched on the lappie. Mom came back, with dad. Had lunch with them. Chatted a little. Dad left for work. Continued using lappie. Talked to bff. Watched one episode of The Hills. Prepared to go for badminton. (This is really tiring!) Dad came back home. We went to the sports hall together. Three empty courts. We played in pairs. See Family came. Played with Jenae & Jermaine. Played another game with sis. Played one more game with my maid Aunty Edna. Watched the ballet girls danced. Pretty. Skinny as hell. Can be thinspiration. Got six packs!!!!! Are they from IJ? Annoyed by sissy's million & oe questions. Time checked, 6pm. Packed up. Wandered around 7-eleven. Buy the capsules or not? Ok don't buy. Headed to Serangoon Gardens Market for dinner. I spotted Selegie Beancurd!!!!!! Excited. Told everyone. Dad saw his friend. Ordered Mee Soto. Very spicy. Satay. Roti John. Mee Goreng. Fishball noodles. Japanese food. Pon tian mee. Beancurd with pearls. So bloated. Felt like dying. Home. Showered. Got an interview tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :> Made me happier girl. Why bb so long didn't text me? Is the food so nice there that she forgotten about me? Tsk I also want steamboat leh. Went online. Talked to bff. Watched 9pm show. 10pm show. Back to talk to bff about tomorrow's arrangements.

I'm done blogging. This is so tiring!! but new way of blogging hahahaha okbye!

How To Install Love

Tech Support: Thank you for calling tech support for HOS - that’s Human Operating Systems. How can I be of assistance?

Customer: Well I’ve had this Love Program sitting around for a while and finally decided to install it. But it seems a bit complicated and I don’t want to mess it up. Can you guide me through the process?

Tech Support: Absolutely. That’s why I’m here. Are you ready to proceed?

Customer: I think so.

Tech Support: Great. Let’s go. The first step is to check for any potentially conflicting programs that might be running in your heart .

Customer: Sounds good. How do I do that?

Tech Support: First hit Ctrl, Alt, Delete all at the same time. Got it?

Customer: Yes.

Tech Support: Great: Now click on the tab that says Heart Applications. Do you see that?

Customer: I do. Got it.

Tech Support: Perfect. What applications are running.

Customer: I see Past Hurt, Low Self-Esteem, Grudge and Resentment running right now.

Tech Support: No problem, Love will gradually erase Past Hurt from your current operating system. It may remain in your permanent memory but it will no longer disrupt other programs. Love will eventually override Low Self-Esteem with a module of its own called High Self-Esteem. However, we’ll have to uninstall the Grudge and Resentment programs. They prevent Love from being properly installed. Can you turn those off?

Customer: I don’t know how to turn them off. Can you tell me how?

Tech Support: With pleasure. Go to your start menu and click on the Forgiveness program. You may need to do this several times in order to completely erase Grudge and Resentment from the system. In fact, I recommend that most people run their forgiveness program at least once a day.

Customer: I can see what you mean. It feels like this might take a while.

Tech Support: I can wait. Take your time…

Customer: Okay, done! And it seems like Love has started installing itself. Is that normal?

Tech Support: Yes, but remember that you have only the base program. You need to begin connecting to other Hearts in order to get the upgrades.

Customer: Oops! I have an error message already. It says, “Error - Program not run on external components.” What should I do? *

Tech Support: Don’t worry. It means that the Love program is set up to run on Internal Hearts, but has not yet been run on your Heart. In non-technical terms, it simply means you have to Love yourself before you can Love others.

Customer: So, what should I do?

Tech Support: Go to the Start Menu again and click on the Self-Acceptance program. Got it?

Customer: Yes. It’s running.

Tech Support: Great now go to the modules drop-down menu and check the boxes next to: Forgive-Self; Realize Your Worth; and Acknowledge your Limitations.

Customer: Okay, done.

Tech Support: Perfect. Now, click on the box that says “Copy new modules to Heart Directory.” And then click on the “OK” button. Once you do that, the system will overwrite any conflicting files and begin patching faulty programming.

Customer: Done… Hey! I can feel my heart is filling up with new files. Smile is playing on my monitor and Peace and Contentment are copying themselves all over My Heart. Is this normal?

Tech Support: Sometimes. For others it takes awhile, but eventually everything gets it at the proper time. So Love is installed and running. One more thing before we hang up. Love is Shareware. And the interesting thing is that the more you share it with others the more stable your personal installation will become. So be sure to pass it along to everyone you meet.

Customer: I’ll definitely do that. Thank you so much.

Tech Support: Thank YOU for installing Love!

This is so cute. :>
Is it really that easy?

Because sometimes there is no easy way out. You just have to grin & bear it. Sometimes the only escape route is to go straight through the flames, just brace yourself & bite your lip. Sometimes you have to sever the ties clean off. Because in every relationship there comes a point when the damage is too much & no matter how good it once was, the memories can't sustain you. You have to save yourself knowing all the while it will hurt like hell. Because you can't keep giving someone everything if you get nothing in return.


Have a great weekend ahead guys :)
I hope this PH came at a good time for all for you to take a break. It was a good one for me, indeed. I'll be on blogging as soon as I find the time to tear myself away from the revision. BLOGGED! And guess what? I'm done revising with two modules, two more to go!

Saturday tomorrow = out with bb, lunch/dinner with bff & her act one van der Woodsen girlfriend :)

I'll never let your head hit the bed without my hand behind it

Because I wanted to check something and also to check when was the last time I did my hair before the trip with bff last week or the week before, I read hhheartbreakhotel and theklassiquecrime a little.

hhheartbreakhotel was so much happier but theklassiquecrime was so sad. Everything was sad, talking about smashed hearts and broken dreams, people who came, left without turning back to look at all and threw their rear-view mirrors away. I could sense the sadness seeing the layout again.


But bottom line is, am I really happy now? Is this what I really wanted?



but anyway p/s: thanks bb for today, luv you so much <3
p/p/s: happy birthday ^.^ whether you know this is for you or not, whatever I don't care. I hope you are as happy as you are pretending to be.

The breath between our lips when we kiss is something I hope I never have to miss

 

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

 

I love gossip guys.
I love vanity fair.
I have all of the common addictions.
I don't like that Louie Vuitton Monogram Pailletes Speedy.
I'm starting to like Kristewart a little more each time I see her as herself, not as Bella Swan.
I miss partying, getting drunk, laughing at everything & drinking 'til the last drop.

So hi, i had a fucking boring Wednesday. How was yours? Oh I had a interesting evening though. We were this close to getting into a fight but i deliberately replied her really slowly and also at the same time to calm myself down and clear my mind. And then it was resolved. All is well again :) Oh and one more thing, the surprise failed. I'm trying again though, probably tomorrow?? The sleazy song continues, seriously omg it is keeeeeling me! Jems and I imagined all of us being preggy and being mothers. We used the sweater as the baby bump hahaha it was so hilarious! Jems said she could imagine me as preggy woman and a mother. Aww :)

(edit)
I forget to mention it's our cai hong jie jie (rainbow sister which is what we always call Jems because she likes rainbow!) and her boyflen's 3rd year anniversary! HAPPY THIRD YEAR TO YOU BOTH LOVEBIRDS <3 damn happy for you jems :)

Tomorrow is television and radio production class - boring. But for the important topics and exam guidelines, i'm going for class, fo'sure. After class, lunch with Jems if she's not meeting her ah fai then home to meet bff for Starbucks! I've been craving for it since I don't know when. Friday will be spent with my gal gal :) she always have new pet names, sorry bee hahaha but i love giving you pet names hahaha!

Before I leave, I'll leave you guys with two very funny videos.
A video tweet from Ellen & her mom to MCHammer
Ellen's bathroom concert series with Jennifer Hudson

Enjoy and goodnight, have a great Thursday!

but I believe true, deep love is always worth fighting for..

I love today.
I smiled, I laughed so hard, I laughed 'til I cried, I laughed 'til I couldn't breathe, I ate 'til I couldn't walk. I had such a fun-filled day. So very tired right now.

It was only when you appeared, you kinda spoilt the day but guess what? NO YOU FAILED. I'm so happy I have bff and bb with me for all time :)

p/s: luv u bb thanks for everything today, esp trying to cheer me up and make me feel better by letting me carry your new backpack luv u da moz!
p/p/s: dok tu ew ad work tmr bffx i'm really sleepy and i'm turning in with jj now ^^ (L) you too bffz!

I can't see you getting used to living in the midst of your perfection

 

 My forth/ring finger is about half a nail taller than my index finger.

So love failed

"What do you want?"
"I want a lot of things."
"What do you want the most?"
"The thing I want most...is to never lose you."


:(

All my thoughts are of you, I am so completely yours

Not anyone in particular but I know of a few at my finger tips right now. No, not emo today but when I saw this, I was reminded about that few people who became people I knew...... :( this could bring tears to my eyes but today seems like a fabulous day. 8 full hours of sleep, breakfast with zel, many signs of a bad day happening to Jems & I, dirty kinky conversations with M & Jems, Lo Mai Kai/Fun Choy lunch at 7-11 opposite the train station with Jems (budget much?), home, waiting for bff to come while doing assignment.

Sounds like a perfect day, no?

And I'm sure you know you are one of them. Even mummy talks about you, and she knows how it breaks my heart to do so but she is just concerned about how things are right now....

Most beautiful girl in the world..no?

Meeting bb in awhile for lunch at 99c sushi and.. Marley & Me!!!!!!!
:D

And I love how she calls and go, "Hello, am I speaking to the most beautiful girl in the world?" I don't know how to answer her, I'm certainly not the most beautiful girl in the world. My first response was, "Err..wrong number OK BYE!" but of course I knew it was her hahaha I don't know but my heart sings whenever she does that :)

If you could take this all away.

When I sleep alone I feel that I ought to learn you don't need me

"The couple that argues the most is the one most in love... It shows they care enough to notice the other one screwed up and care enough to mention it to the person so they can fix it. When you stop arguing it means you stopped caring."

I'm glad we argue because it means that you and I, we care.
^^

If only I could go back to losing sleep with you, instead of losing sleep over you

wtf @ me waking up at 7am in the morning only to realise that class starts at 12.15pm today. I couldn't get any sleep, my neck and back is aching quite bad so I end up having a good breakfast and came here. Grey's, update, blog-hop, twitter

Waking up early is good, I guess. Tonight I will be so damn tired I will sleep early. Or I will pop a pill at 10pm and head to bed. This week's gonna be a good week! Tomorrow bff will be coming over. I will probably do project work while she bitch whine gossip to me. Wensday I've got class with bff which means thrift shopping or my place. Thursday will be a 20-minute long consultation regarding the project with Mr Yeo at 10.50pm. Friday is all for my girlfriend, so is Saturday. No plans for Sunday yet but family, definitely.

I foresee this week to be a good week! Picnic this weekend, love? ^^


Loneliness or solitude?

Because it feels like insomnia

It's 5am, what the hell am I doing here?

Because I can't sleep til you're next to me
No I can't live without you no more (without you no more)
Oh I stay up til you're next to me (to me)
Til this house feels like it did before (Because it)
Feels like insomnia ah ah, feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah, feels like insomnia ah ah

geez and I hate it.
I've been stuck with insomnia for what? Coming three years now and I am still having troubles sleeping. And to be completely downright honest, I rely on medications which is also known as sleeping pills to fall asleep. Y'know why I didn't take the pills? Because I ran out of them. Dammit!


What a wreck I am.

Love is supposed to be this bad, make you cry stupid shady sad

She called and said, "Hello, baby, are you ok? I read your blog and you said baby where are you. I am here, baby."

I love you. A lot. So so much. But right now, I'm missing you so fucking much that it's making me cry. Yeh I know, what a fucktard I am. I just wish you were here..just be here, it'd be good enough. So the tears will stop & I'll let you do the job of putting the smile on my face again. I miss long walks with you. Heart to heart talks with you. Making plans with you. Shopping with you, window or not. Enjoying my favourite food with you, enjoying your favourite food with you. Sharing my childhood adventures with you. Playing games with you. Snuggling up in bed with you. Watching movies with you. Spending all weekend with you. Exploring good food and good places with you. Long bus rides with you. Taking photos with you. Sleeping in your bed with you. I just miss..being with you.

x x x


I saw Meredith sleeping then I remember that I forgot to mention I dreamed of "bad things come in pairs" last night. Strange dream I had. It was just..weird. Especially having her in my dreams. Or should I say..nightmare? No I'll stick to dream instead. I know I've been better. But I cannot stop calling you names for what you did to me. I'm constantly reminded of the pain, the hurt, the things you said, the things they said, the things I heard and the actions and occasional winks across the room that you both did. You said they were fucked up. Naive was I to believe that you wouldn't fuck me up that way. But eventually..eventually you still did.


One day, I will forgive you. I'm halfway through it. I know I will forgive you, despite what you did to hurt me.

Today, I thought of C & the hug. But I don't miss them anymore. One more to show that I've moved on. I guess you only think of them, feel the pain and know in your heart that you miss them when you're still holding on. I wish I was. I wish there was a possible way to bring us back all over again and correct things, make them right. I hoped for too much..way way too much.


In this place, hoping is not okay but crying is okay.

When your eyes meet mine I lose simple skills

 

Why am I so moody?

Tried letting go but you're still the only one that feels like home

I still wonder why you didn't came up to me and start your usual nonsense, yelling your throat out to fight for what you love and what you think is right. Or..apologise for the wrong things done, for the wrong diction and the empty promises.

This thing between us? We're done here. It sure is done and finished. I do not think of you the way I used to. But I know somehow you meant a lot to me at one point of time but things you did or said contradicted each other & really made me doubt about you. Since then my heart doesn't lighten at the sight of you. Instead, it gets heavier and heavier.

If you ever want to say you're sorry, you can give me a call.



Bff, thanks for being there throughout bad times and also sharing my joy :) thank you is not enough to show my gratitude. Know that I will be there for you just like how you did for me, anytime. Love xx

J, I love you, yknow. Good luck on the first day of work! xoxo

Ok skoolz now baiiiiii

I want to take you far from the cynics in this town & kiss you on the mouth

Mom, i had enough. i am sorry i am not as capable as you want me to be, not as smart as the way she is, not a good sister as the way she is, not as pretty as the way she can be. i am not in any way jealous of her, to be downright honest. i am not envious either. we had this talk for a million and oneth time but you just wouldn't let it into your head that we are all fucking different. we have our own individual differences and we are special and talented in our own ways. this probably isn't the way you want me to be but mom, i am who i am.
at the age of 19, i've never smoked. i've never slept around. i've never been through an abortion. i've never fucked a guy or let a guy fuck me. i never had one night stands and contagious kisses. i never had a proper boyfriend, excluding the girlfriends you know of. i never gave you huge ass problems. i never went to girls' home. i never commited a crime. i was never in probation. i was never a problem kid. other than all of these that most parents would ask for in their child, what do you want from me? to be able to earn my own income, to be as pretty as the way she is, to be as smart as the way she is, to have a boyfriend whom you also agreed that is ugly like her, to be a fucking ah lian, to own an online boutique that sells ugly aunty ah lian clothes. that is what you ask of me, right mom? i'm sorry but that is not me. i am not like that. i am not an ah lian, i am not that material, and i cannot have a boyfriend whom i think is ugly and you also agree with me. i can earn my own income, it is whether i want to or not but you also mentioned to me that you do not want me to juggle between both school and work because you know i cannot manage which is true. i am not pretty like her because she uses at least an inch thick of make up on her face and her lashes are falsies. you know i believe in natural beauty, inner beauty that everyone has and i put on mineral make up, falsies only on special occasions or when i feel like it. i can never be like her because we are two different people and i do not want to be like her.
have you not realised that she's always telling you about how her daughter is so and so, doing this and that? mom, she wants to show you that she has a good daughter and also to show you her daughter is so capable, and that she is happy and all. she is proud of her own daughter. but..are you? i know you are not proud of me, you are not proud of us. i know you'd ask, what is there to be proud of? i may not have done as much as she did to make her mom proud to make you proud but i did things that i was supposed to do and i did not do more than that. i have a passion, i have an interest, i have something that i love so much, i have a lot more of what she didn't have. i was a ballerina, a pianist, a percussionist, a writer, a tuition teacher & a good listener. there's a lot more that i am but i cannot think of right now, i am just bursting with emotions to spill. but all in all, i can say i am relatively good daughter.
well, the main point of typing this out is..sigh mom, stop expecting so much of me. the more you expect of me, the more i keep fighting to get what you want and be who/what you want me to be, the lesser you see of me as myself. and i do not want that to happen. i like who i am. i like the happy pill that people love to see, and when they see me, they feel happy too. i like being glynis. i like making people happy, even if it means making me unhappy. and that is why i keep fighting to keep you as happy as you can be, mom.
but right now, i cannot go on anymore.
i am very exhausted.

know what? i am not tearing. i am not crying either. i am very calm. is it that i've sorted out my thoughts or is it that i have given up?



sorry, i had enough i just had to let it out.
blog later when i'm feeling better.

I’ll be ready to make the same mistake with you again

♥

I really like the picture. Veh veh nice de wor. If only the photographer was a better one. The secret admirer so cute. She/he seems nice. I really wanna know who. But never mind, she/he wanna act mysterious. Ok let you act lor. =D

I'm going out now. For dinner + movie. With J the lovely. I'm done with HMC o yay!

P/s: You = AC = addlepate cozener
P/p/s: Happy birthday everyone! Because J said today is ren ri, which means everyone's birthday? I don't know but happy birthday!!